"Rin." Sesshomaru simply said her name as he turned and walked away from her.
Rin sighed in relief. Now she would have time to think about the way she felt about Sesshomaru, and sort things out. Staying in a human village, she might have a chance now to fall in love with a human. To fall in love with someone who will actually love her back and let her know so. With every moment of sadness, she had a moment of happiness. With every moment of happiness, she had a moment of sadness. I think I will be ok now. She thought to herself. She was over all, content.
Chapter 4
Rin woke up and felt around her. She was completely surrounded by softness. She immediately thought of the boa that Sesshomaru wore. She felt around for the fur, but she didn't find it. She opened her eyes and found herself in unfamiliar territory. She was in Kagome's time, in Kagome's bed.
A few years ago Kagome and Kaede had found a spell that they could put into beads to allow others to pass through the well. Kagome had strengthened over the years as a priestess, but she was still only strong enough to put enough power into one at a time. It took her great concentration and energy to make even one. But she found it worth it to be able to show her friends the future.
Shippo was the real reason Kagome wanted to find the spell. Shippo was a great companion and was loved by everyone in the group. Even Inuyasha cared for him though he would die before admitting it. Still, Shippo was a lonely child. Kagome wanted him to make a friend and she knew that he and her brother Souta would get along wonderfully. They were the same age and she knew they were a lot alike despite being separated by 500 years.
Rin heard the floor outside the door creak as someone approached. She pulled the covers up to her chest as she wasn't sure who was there and being from the past, was very shy even though fully covered.
"Oh your awake!" Kagome said happily. Rin relaxed a bit and smiled at Kagome.
"Yes. Good morning." Rin said. She had been in Kagome's time for almost 24 hours now. They came back mid-morning the day before and played all day. Kagome showed her so many new things. She really wasn't kidding when she told her it would be beyond her wildest dreams! Talking boxes with little people in them. Giant metal boxes that opened up and held COLD food. Pretty white man-made holes with metal "faucets" Kagome called them that released hot OR cold water! It was all so amazing! The future was truly a beautiful place!
Kagome went on about her business trying to find something for Rin to wear. Rin being awake and not busy was slowly being consumed by her thoughts. Lord Sesshomaru she thought. She wondered what he was doing right then. She wondered if he missed her at all.
Kagome turned around and saw Rin's expression and knew she was deep in thought. She also knew she was sad about something.
"Rin? Are you alright?" Kagome asked her. Rin looked up quickly.
"Yes." She simply stated. But something else was burning inside of her. She had to know something. "Kagome?"
Kagome turned to her again. "Yes?"
"Am I ugly? Or intolerable? Is that why he didn't want me?" Rin asked with a tear forming in each of her chestnut eyes. Kagome's jaw dropped slightly.
"Rin you think you are ugly?" Rin simply nodded. "Rin you are beautiful! You were such a cute little girl and you grew up into an absolutely beautiful woman! You are an amazing person to be around. I am glad I had the chance to get to know you over the years." Kagome told her.
Rin smiled. "Do you think I'm stupid for caring for him like I do?" Rin asked her.
Kagome shook her head. "Sesshomaru, even though I hate to say it, is truly beautiful. I have always had feelings for Inuyasha, and I think he is so very cute. Sesshomaru though. He is beautiful. He is everything a woman could want in a man. However, he is incapable of loving anyone. I believe he loved you though, even if he didn't want to admit it. You really were his weakness. But as for a romantic love, Rin, I just don't think it is in him. It has nothing to do with you. It's just the way he is."
Rin nodded her head understanding what she said perfectly. She knew he would never love her the way she loved him. She knew he would never want her the way she wanted him. The way that she needed him even. She started to giggle a little over what she thought about using her birthday wish for. She felt stupid and thought it deserved a laugh.
Kagome smiled thinking Rin had found something to be happy about. "What is it Rin? What's so funny?"
"I just can't believe how stupid I was." She chuckled a little. "I don't know why I am speaking this out loud, but I seriously thought a few times about using my birthday wish to be with him."
Kagome smiled a sad smile at her. "Rin, he probably would have given you anything under the sun. But I doubt he would have given you a relationship."
Rin looked up at Kagome and smiled genuinely as a blush started to form. "No, Kagome. That isn't what I meant. I knew he would never want a relationship with me. I'm only human. However, I wanted to use my wish for just one night with him." She said putting much emphasis on "with."
Kagome's eyes widened. "Rin!" She shrieked smacking her in the arm. "I didn't know you had anything in you like that!" Kagome laughed loudly at her discovery.
"Yeah I know." Rin said still shyfully smiling. "I doubt that would have happened either, but I still wanted to ask. This was better though. This way, I won't ruin the little bit of a friendship we do have."
Kagome slipped into thought for a moment. Thinking about Rin's dilemma. She had gotten quite crafty over the years dodging Inuyasha and his god-awful questions about Hojo and any other males she may have come into innocent contact with.
Suddenly, her eyes lit up and so did her face in a way that almost terrified Rin.
"Um, Kagome?" Rin slowly asked.
"Rin! I have it!" Kagome nearly yelled. She turned and faced Rin.
"Have what?" Rin asked concerned.
"Honestly Rin, you still could have your one night." She said smiling wickedly as her plan just flashed before her eyes.
"I don't see how, it would never happen with him Kagome." Rin said frowning slightly.
"Don't you remember your exact words Rin?" Rin thought back but didn't have time to answer before Kagome did for her. 'I wish to go and do whatever, and have whatever and whoever makes me happy." Kagome reminded her.
"Ok, so what is the big deal?" Rin asked.
"Rin listen to me! Do whatever and have whatever and whoever makes me happy." Kagome said speaking slowly to get her point across. Rin just narrowed her eyes.
"Rin, do you remember Sesshomaru's response?" Again, Rin thought back.
"Yes," Rin began quoting him word for word as she never would forget his words, "Fine Rin. Do as you wish. You may come and go as you please. You may do as you please, whatever that may be. But be…"
"Stop!" Kagome yelled. Rin just looked confused again.
"Sesshomaru told you 'You may do as you please, whatever that may be.'" Kagome just gave her the 'got it?' look.
"Rin it is a loophole in your birthday wish! You could still have him if you have the guts to go get him."
Rin thought for a second and then snapped to. "No!" She yelped. "I could never hurt Lord Sesshomaru like that! If I did that he would hate me and never want to see me again!"
"Rin, I don't think that is the truth. It may be true he doesn't want you in that way. However I truly don't believe he would hate you or turn you away. If nothing else, I think he would appreciate your courage."
Rin's mind again began reeling. She didn't know what to think! She wanted to so very badly. But she was so scared of losing him forever.
"I'm sorry Kagome, I just don't think that I could! I have never been with a man! I have never even been around a man other than him! So I wouldn't even know how to try."
"Rin, honey. You have been with him all of these years. Have you ever seen him with a woman?"
Rin thought for a moment. "Only that Kagura woman, but I doubt anything happened with them. She always disgusted him. Because she smelled of Naraku."
"Well Rin, I will give you a little hint on men. Sesshomaru or not, he is a man. And all men have needs. He probably hides it so well because he has no 'temptation.' Give him a little temptation and I bet he breaks. Because if he really hasn't been with a woman since you have been with him, that has been like ten years. At least. That is a long time. I bet you will get what you want if you just try!"
Rin hated to admit it, but she was definitely right. All of the things that she did know about men was exactly as Kagome said. They were 'needy' in that way. That was one reason why Sesshomaru hated human men. Because they couldn't control their urges and they sometimes took women against their will, or forced them in other ways. To him, it was simply despicable. She had heard Sesshomaru talk about human men and their needs, but were demons the same? Was he really the same? She just couldn't stop thinking! The possibilities!
"Ok, so if I were to consider this. And I am not saying I am! How would I do it? I don't know how to seduce a man! Especially a man like that!" Rin was giddy and nervous. She couldn't believe she was even thinking about all of this let alone talking about it out loud!
Kagome got a wicked grin on her face. One of many from the course of the day. "Rin, I think we need to go shopping." Was all Kagome said before standing up, and throwing the clothing she had picked out at Rin. Rin was confused but she didn't have time to ask anything before Kagome ran out of the room. She simply got dressed and wondered what they could possibly be 'shopping' for. She was soon in for an incredible experience.
(A/N) I am going to try to add another chapter tomorrow night! (7/15/07) So if you are one of the ones regularly checking (and SERIOUSLY thank you to those who are!) then don't forget to check back! I told you her birthday wish would bite him in the butt. Lol! I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I hope you will enjoy the next one! Feel free to review! I love them! Thanks to all of you who have been! All of your comments have been so nice!