Chapter 2: The Funeral

Everyone from the office went to Lilly's funeral. She was buried beside her mother. While the Holy Father said his speech, in the background was played "Let it be" by The Beatles. Most of the people cried.

After the funeral Stillman, Kat, Scotty, Jeffries and Vera went to her house. They had to clean her home and try to decide what to do with her stuff. Scotty said he would take her three cats. A few hours later everything was done.

In my hands
A legacy of memories
I can hear you say my name
I can almost see your smile
Feel the warmth of your embrace
But there is nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?

Back at home, Scotty couldn't stop crying. He lost the love of his life. But the thing which he couldn't forget most was that he had killed her. Why?

He had no one to talk to, and now all her things were around. He said to Stillman he would throw her clothes away but he didn't want to lose the smell. It was all he had.

He remembered the years they had together, the things they did. They had their ups and downs. And now everything was over.

He hadn't heard from the FBI Agent yet, but he also didn't know what he'd have to say. The guilt he had to live with was much worse. No one knew that he had a gun at home. When Elisa died, he thought for the first time about killing himself. And now he thought it would be the only way out…

Never thought
This day would come so soon
We had no time to say goodbye
How can the world just carry on?
I feel so lost when you are not at my side
But there is nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?

Meanwhile, the others thought about what they could have been done to save Lilly.

Kat was alone at home with her little daughter who seemed like she knew something. She hadn't talked to her about what happened because she wanted to protect her from the bad things in life.

She remembered how often her daughter visited her at work and how Lilly and Veronica talked together or drew some pictures. And now Lil was dead. She didn't know how Veronica would react when she knew what really happened. They watched together TV and her daughter was sleeping. Maybe she should go to bed too. She needed some sleep. Forget at night what happened… except she would again have these nightmares…

Stillman couldn't believe yet what happened. He was shot too, but still alive. That was not fair. He would prefer to be dead instead of alive… of course he had a daughter and a grandson and Lil was alone… but he was her boss. It was his task to protect her. He wished he had done more to go with Ed in the room instead of Lil.

The look in her eyes when she closed the door. He would never forget that.

At the same time, Will lay in his bed, awake. It was the first time that he had lost one of his colleagues who was so close to him. Every time when he closed his eyes he could see Lilly, laying there, bleeding and hearing her saying "he got me". Why didn't he decide to go earlier in the Observation? Maybe they could have saved her. Lilly was so strong. The thing with George ended – for her – well and even the thing with Joseph didn't break her down. He knew the only reason she went inside with Ed and Kim was to save Kim. Only one victory she had done…

Jeffries meanwhile couldn't forget that he heard her screaming outside "You wanna shoot me? You wanna shoot me? Shoot me now. Then do it already. Shoot me. Do it now". Maybe Ed felt provoked by it? He knew Lilly just wanted to be saved and to say to Scotty and Will that they have to come in but it was just… he couldn't forget it. This year was not good. First Toni left him and now Lil was dead. He would never forget her beautiful smile.

The next day

Stillman's Office

"The reason I called you all into my office is that I have to tell you the news about the investigation. I didn't say it earlier because it's not very good. They found out that…. Scotty shot Lilly. It was his bullet in her back. That's also the reason he isn't here today. He was the first one to shost and the bullet which broke the window ricocheted off the wall and killed Lilly. I'm so sorry to say that but you have to know it. Please don't condemn Scotty for this; it was just a stupid accident. He needs our help. It's not easy for him. Two years ago Elisa and now this. Any more questions?"

Everyone sat there, shocked. To lose Lilly was one thing, but to know one of their team was the one who has to live with the guilt was another. They nodded, Kat even cried. This was too much for all of them.

tbc.

A/N: Song is by Within Temptation "Our Farewell". I know this chapter is not very good and maybe a little bit confusing but it was all I have to write here. Only one more chapter left. Just to warn you it will end very sad! One more character has to die. I have holidays right now and it's very boring. Thanks for the reviews. Would be great to get more reviews ;-).

Oh and to "Hip Hop and Ya Don't Stop": It was my first thought when I watched the episode. I know it would be never possible that this happened but I want to write this… I love drama fics ;) Thanks for the feedback. I think she'll have to deal with that she provoked Ed… we'll see.

Thanks also to my Beta Reader!