To make up for the lack of length in the last one, I'm putting up two. That's right, two. Ozai confesses.
I have regretted what I did to my son. It's the small things, another empty place at the table; suddenly there aren't enough sparing partners. Things like that. I don't understand it; I never really liked him all that much. So why do I miss him now that he's gone? I don't miss my brother, and he's been gone just as long as my son.
I can't write his name. I can hardly even say it. I wake up at night sometimes, from dreams where all I hear is him screaming. Sometimes I can't even eat because of the stabbing in my gut and my heart. It must be because he has still failed me. My body and mind are reacting violently to the disappointment he brings. If I lock him up, where I cannot see him, and forbid anyone to mention his name, maybe I can stop this pain.
I will end this.
What do you mean I can't go?! I have things to do, can't you read? At least two things? I can't think of anything else! This is ridiculous!
Fine.
I miss my wife.
There.
What do you mean, 'in detail'?!
I miss my wife. I feel like it's my fault for her leaving. Is there some connection between my becoming Fire Lord, and her disappearance? I thought she loved me, even if I was a younger son. I…loved her. I still love her.
If you ever show this to anyone, I will kill you.
Ozai's having trouble relating his inner feelings. XD I have no idea who it is that is making Ozai do this, and why Ozai hasn't yet turned him/her into a burnt crisp by now, but the plot bunnies gave it to me, and I had to work it in.
Let me know what you think. :)