Okay.
Here goes.
No one else is going to read this right? You're sure?
Okay.
Sometimes I worry about Toph, but for the love of the spirits, DON'T TELL HER THAT. She'd kill me. I don't worry about her because she's blind, or because she's really young and doing dangerous stuff that could get her killed, and blah blah blah. I worry about her, because I know how much it hurts her that her parents don't believe in her. She puts on this brave front but I know that she gets scared sometimes. I don't know. She just bottles it up inside and I want to help… but I can't. If I try, she'd probably hurt me, or be really embarrassed, or something. I don't know. I mean shouldn't I at least try? I don't know.
I feel guilty about what happened to Yue. Is that a surprise to anyone? I thought not. I was supposed to protect her! I was supposed to keep her out of danger, and what happened? She died. Because I couldn't protect her. I can't sleep some nights, or I have nightmares. That time in the swamp, when I saw her…
It isn't fair! Just when I fall in love, she dies! Is my whole life some sort of joke to the spirits? Are they screwing up my life for their own amusement?
I hope I'm amusing you! Maybe I should just go fall of a cliff! Would that be funny enough for you?!
Sorry.
Yeah, I'm done now.
I've often wondered this.