⌠Kan-chan? Yo, wussup?■ I said as I entered the house with a huge grin, not even knocking anymore. We had been doing this for over a week and I was used to the routine by now, though I had something important to tell Kankuro. I knew it wouldn▓t be too much longer until Gaara and I were finished with the negotiations, part of me was looking forward to the end of the formal relationship but, at the same time part of me wanted to keep it going forever. Any excuse to be around the boy every day, any excuse to talk to him, any excuse and right now it was my only excuse. ⌠Kan-chan? You look like shit, what happened?■
He sat on the couch, looking like he just got blown off for something really important. He seemed really out of it, especially when he grumbled something incoherent, something sounding like, ⌠Get out, I▓m not in the mood today.■
I groaned and sat on his lap roughly, ⌠Kankuro, what happened?■ I said with an annoyed sigh. He shook his head and I slapped him right across the face, ⌠Don▓t give me that shit. You tell me what▓s wrong or I▓m gonna do something you▓re gonna regret.■ I reared up onto my knees and one of them met his groin, putting just enough pressure on it to warn him of the impending danger. He grunted in pain, feeling the pressure on his crotch.
⌠Fine! Jesus, get off of me!■ He pushed me onto the couch beside him and I sat there patiently, awaiting an answer to my question. ⌠There▓s this girl┘and I had been planning to ask her out for a while, you know?■ I nodded as though I cared, ⌠Well, I asked her out today┘■
⌠And you got rejected?■ I asked, trying to elaborate on what he was saying.
⌠Not just rejected, I crashed and burned! She came up with names for me that I didn▓t even know existed!■ Kankuro said, his eyes wide with remembered shock of the event. I tried so hard, I did my very best, but I just couldn▓t stop myself.
⌠pfft, AHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!! You have got to be kidding me! That▓s what you▓re so upset about?!■ I fell onto the floor, laughing so hard I could feel my face turning red and I could no longer breath. ⌠Dude! Y-heh he he┘he-you▓re pathetic┘■ I finally said, wiping the tears from my eyes and looking up at his frown with a shameless grin.
⌠It▓s not funny,■ he said, pouting like a child, ⌠How would you feel if I laughed at you in this situation?■
⌠One: yes, it is funny.■ I said with a smile, sitting back on the couch, ⌠and Two: I wouldn▓t be acting like you in this situation. If ever I do get rejected by some bitchy guy, I▓ll suck it up and as long as no one brings it up for a while, I▓ll be fine. Nothing to mope about. Get over it. You pussy.■
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I returned to the motel, still laughing at Kankuro▓s failed attempt at getting a girlfriend, and as soon as I stepped through the door I froze. I then backed out of the room, shut the door, and proceeded to knock. ⌠Kurumi┘could you please not do that in my bed? And┘um┘tell Ita-chan to put on some cloths┘■ I heard some rustling inside the room and then the door opened to reveal a breathless Kurumi brushing back her hair and grinning. I looked put-out and I glared at her, ⌠Kurumi┘y-y-y┘I-I-I┘y-you know what! Stop!■ I shoved her to one side and grabbed the half-dressed Itachi by his long hair, dragging him out of the room and tossing him out onto the balcony. ⌠Stay out of my room!■
⌠Give me a break, bitch! I was feeling feminine!■ He said as he wiped his bottom lip.
⌠What a surprise!■ I growled, feeling the mother part of me taking over for the moment.
⌠Tsuka-chin! Ita-chan needed to feel manly! A guy hit on him today!■ Kurumi whined, pulling on my sleeve and attempting to glare at me.
⌠Yeah, some faggot sand-nin with brown hair and a giant doll!■ Itachi said gruffly, crossing his arms over his built chest.
⌠Doll? Oh, my god! Kankuro!■ I realized suddenly, ⌠Kankuro thought you were a girl! Oh, my god! Hahahahaaa! That▓s awesome! Kankuro had a crush on a man!■ I could not believe this, I had to go back and laugh at Kankuro some more, I couldn▓t wait to see the look on his face when he found out that this girl he liked was a man. ⌠Well, I-I▓ll leave you now┘please use protection, now, as you were.■ I then left the pair, staring after me in confusion and astonishment as I laughed all the way down the stairs.I slammed the front door open and yelled, ⌠You faggot!■ Kankuro froze and looked over his shoulder at me as I grinned at him from the doorway. He was eating out of a pint of chocolate ice cream, which made him look kind of like me when I▓m PMS-ing. ⌠Dude, you look like a teenage girl after a her boyfriend dumps her.■
⌠Well, I don▓t see you helping me out! No support! No constructive criticism! You just laugh!■ he said angrily, though I cared not in the least.
⌠Oh, yeah, about that┘■ I said softly, walking up behind him and leaning on his shoulders from behind, resting my head beside his. ⌠You know that girl you asked out today?■
⌠Yeah┘■ he looked at me, seeming a bit frightened.
⌠His name is Uchiha Itachi and he▓s already with my best friend.■ I grinned, ⌠Sorry to disappoint you, but I don▓t think he▓s interested in having a boyfriend at the moment.■ I smiled broadly, most of my teeth showing, I do think I looked a lot like the Cheshire cat. As for Kankuro, he could only stare at me blankly as I grinned only inches from his face, ⌠hee hee hee, don▓t you think the gender of the person you like would be an important detail to know?■ I asked, half joking.
⌠OH GOD!!! I HIT ON A MAN!!??!?!?!■ Kankuro screamed finally, freaking out and jumping up. ⌠OH, I FEEL SO┘SO┘SO GAY!! HELP ME, TSUKASA!! AAAHH!■ he looked as though he would have cried if I didn▓t do something, he was looking more and more like a teenage girl at this point, so I figured he might appreciate a female gesture on my part. I sighed, after thinking for an extended period of time, in which Kankuro was running around in circles as he screamed his head off.
I grabbed his arm as he passed me and I threw him onto the couch, sitting beside him I leaned forward and glared at him out of the corner of my eye. ⌠Alright, I▓m gonna do something now, Kan-chan, and I want to hear nothing about it ever again. I am doing this simply to calm you down, do you understand?■ he nodded, looking as though he might begin sobbing. I then scooted closer to him and guided his head to lay softly upon my breasts, he calmed suddenly and seemed to enjoy the feeling of his ear against my chest. I rolled my eyes and patted his head, if he started getting too clingy I would have to push him onto the floor and crush his balls in, regular procedure, nothing special.
After only a moment or two, though, there was a knock on the front door. Kankuro obviously didn▓t hear it, because he didn▓t move. Then the doorknob began to turn and I began pushing him off of me, or trying to at least. Unfortunately for me, when Kankuro is set on keeping something in his grasp he will not let go. As the door began to open I hastily hissed in his ear, ⌠If you don▓t let I▓ll scream ▒rape▓ and give whoever▓s at the door incentive to kill you!■
He simply looked up a moment and mumbled, ⌠Oh, it▓s probably just Gaara. No big deal, he wont care, even if you do scream.■ I knew he was only joking, but it annoyed me quite a bit.
-- ⌠I┘hate┘you┘.■ I said slowly and then began struggling again just as the Kazekage▓s eyes fell upon me, struggling against Kankuro. My face was burning red, of all the people in the world he was the last I wanted to see me in this position (or at least w/ someone else). He watched, he looked apathetic, but I decided to at least try, ⌠Hey, Gaara-Kun! Would you help me out, huh? Come on, he wont let me go, could you just lend me a hand? Please? Gaara, buddy, pal, friend, huh?■ I grinned pleadingly, not really expecting him to do anything other than walk away in silence. So, you can imagine my surprise when he spoke, sounding a bit annoyed, maybe?
⌠Kankuro,■ he said, looking away from us for some reason, ⌠Release the girl. You are embarrassing me again.■ Kankuro paused and we exchanged looks of utter confusion before he let me go and I bounced over to Gaara, grinning, but still confused.
⌠Hey, Gaara-kun, thanks!■ I said grabbing his wrist before he could walk away, ⌠You don▓t think I▓m gonna let you go that easily, do you?■ I asked with a cocked eyebrow when he turned to me with his usual empty stare, I was more than used to it by now. ⌠Come on! We don▓t have to be professional right now, negotiations are over for the day. Pleeeaaase!!■ I clasped my hands together in a begging motion and gave him my most pathetic pout (which I doubt would be very effective). He knew what I was talking about, though he had not yet fully grasped it.
Finally, to my absolute pleasure, he turned away from me and lifted and arm to allow me access to his middle, which I wrapped my arms around affectionately. He was silent as I squealed only slightly, normally I would have disgusted myself but I would kick myself later for the fan girl slip. ⌠Tsukioka-dono, please remove yourself from my middle.■ I paused, pouted, and hesitantly released him.
⌠Damn┘■ I muttered, so only I could hear it. I sighed as I watched him walk up the stairs to his room and then I was caught off guard when I heard Kankuro behind me, chanting.
⌠You like Gaara! You like Gaara! Wait┘■ he paused to think that line over and gave me a look of disgust, ⌠You like GAARA?!?! What the fu--■ I did not permit him to finish, I had covered his mouth and I was threatening him with just my glare. I waited a moment before releasing him and sitting beside him on the couch, sighing sadly.
⌠Yes┘I like Gaara┘■ I looked at him out of the corner of my eye, ⌠Kami, I love Gaara! He is everything to me, I know everything about him and I▓m not afraid of him┘I mean, I threatened him on my first day here.■ I sighed and laid my head on the back of the couch, ⌠Damn┘■
⌠Hold on,■ Kankuro said, ⌠How can you love him? He▓s a demon!■
⌠Don▓t you think I already know that?■ I said, sounding annoyed, my voice hushed as I heard footsteps upstairs that Kankuro was obviously oblivious to. ⌠But┘I guess that▓s part of why I care about him so much. It▓s not out of pity, really┘more out of loneliness┘and knowing that he would understand how I feel┘■ I looked at Kankuro momentarily, of course he was looking at me like I was insane, but I wasn▓t phased. ⌠You wouldn▓t understand, you▓ve always had someone who cared for you, if not friends then your sister┘I▓ve been hated my entire life┘even by those I thought to be my friends┘■ ▒and so has Gaara┘▓ I thought, looking up the stairs to find blue-green eyes looking down at me. Stunned, I blinked, and they were gone.
⌠Why don▓t you talk to him?■ Kankuro suggested, ⌠Like, outside your meetings, I mean. If you care about him so much you should let him know.■
I sighed, of course he wouldn▓t get it, ⌠I cant do that┘■ I said softly.
⌠Why not?■
⌠I just cant■
⌠Don▓t you care about him?■
⌠Of course I do, I love him■
⌠then talk to him■
⌠I cant!■
⌠Why not?■
⌠I don▓t know how he▓d react to me┘■
⌠If anything he▓ll probably kill you.■
⌠hmm┘well, that▓s not too bad┘■
⌠What?!■
⌠I▓ve been waiting for death for a long time, Kan-chin, I don▓t care what happens to me at this point.■
⌠Then why wont you talk to him?!■
⌠Because! ┘I don▓t want to hurt him┘like I did the others┘■ I looked away from Kankuro, holding the tears back with all my might. ⌠My friends┘I▓ve hurt them all, by simply being around them┘I don▓t want to bring any pain to Gaara with my presence┘■ I sighed as a single tear trailed down my cheek and I looked up to see those blue-green eyes again, floating at the top of the stairs. ⌠I love him too much┘I could never willingly bring pain upon my Sabaku no Gaara.■ I wiped my eyes and hurriedly told Kankuro I had to leave, standing and hugging him goodbye I made my way out the door. Too caught up in hiding my tears to notice the dark figure following me back to the Motel.