I trotted along behind Gaara as he lead the way through the village, I felt like the tag-along pup I used to be. It wasn▓t comforting, it was frightening, I hated feeling so insignificant that I couldn▓t even walk alongside him. But, I didn▓t want to try to do so, fore I thought he may get angry with me. Now was no time to be clingy, I had to be professional, or as professional as possible┘
When we arrived at his office Gaara shut the door and leaned against it a moment, watching me curiously. I watched him watch me as I walked toward the window, I was thrown off by this odd behavior and embarrassed by the unanticipated and slightly unwanted attention. I looked out the window for a moment, watching the people below beginning their days as though everything were normal. Lucky them, with their normal lives, at least they didn▓t have the Kazekage▓s eyes boring holes into the back of their skull. Finally, feeling as though I would die if his gaze did not falter soon, I turned to face him with a slightly forced smile. I hoped to hell that he couldn▓t tell it was fake, truly I did. ⌠So, shall we get to our negotiations?■
I strode quickly toward the desk only to almost run headlong into him, I stopped suddenly and looked up to him with my mouth slightly open, which I unfortunately didn▓t notice until later. He watched me, I couldn▓t tell if he was angry, or scrutinizing, or suspicious, or what? I really couldn▓t read his eyes, and it wasn▓t fair, because that meant he was too unstable for me to deal with. Something was wrong, something was going through his mind that Shukaku must have been contradicting as much as possible. Finally, he opened his mouth and spoke, though it sounded as though he was struggling to get the words out. ⌠Tsukasa┘I am┘a monster┘■ he seemed to be mentally battling with Shukaku, my suspicions were only confirmed when he doubled over and grabbed at his head in pain. ⌠Your song┘please┘■
I paused, at first I did not know what he was talking about, but then I remembered the other night. He had said that my voice calms Shukaku, he needed my songs to keep him sane. I was frantic for a moment while trying to think of what song to sing to the boy, and when I finally thought of a song I began swiftly. ⌠Once┘I had a dream┘and this is it┘■ His hold on his head instantly faltered and I relaxed only slightly, not stopping my song.
⌠Once there was a child▓s dream, One night the clock struck twelve, The window open wide Once there was a child▓s heart The age I learned to fly And took a step outside.
⌠Once I knew all the tales It▓s time to turn back time Follow the pale moonlight Once I wished for this night Faith brought me here It▓s time to cut the rope and fly
⌠Fly to a dream
Far across sea
All the burdens gone
Open the chest once more
Dark chest of wonders
Seen through the eyes
Of the one with pure heart.
Once so long ago
⌠The one in the Big Blue is what the world stole from me This night will bring him back to me
⌠Fly to a dream┘■
At this point I had him in my arms, I was cradling him like one would a child. He clung to me as though his life depended on it, and he rested his head just below my shoulder, showing me there was no perverted intent. Not that I expected something like that from Gaara, it was just reassuring. I smiled softly as I finished my song, petting his blood-red hair lovingly, when I felt him lift me off the ground suddenly. He sat on the large soft chair behind his desk, setting me upon his lap with his head still rested upon my chest. We sat this way for a long time before I chose to speak, ⌠Gaara,■ I whispered, ⌠we should start negotiating┘really┘■
His eyes were closed and he looked at ease as he spoke sleepily, ⌠Iie┘not today┘■ I sighed, I wasn▓t going to push him today so I nodded. We sat in silence for a long while before I heard him speak again. ⌠Tsukasa┘?■
⌠Yes, Gaara?■ I whispered comfortingly, resting my chin upon his head which laid comfortably upon my chest.
⌠You will have to leave when we finish┘wont you?■
⌠Yes┘I suppose I will┘■
⌠Oh┘■ He was quiet for a moment and it worried me, so I thought about whether I really had to go or not.
⌠Or┘maybe I could make the others take everything back┘and I could stay here with you┘■ I thought it over for a moment or two, it might work. Despite how immature and stupid the others may have acted, they were certainly able to complete a mission effectively. ⌠Yes, that is what I▓ll do. I will stay here with you, Gaara, I swear it.■
⌠You┘will┘?■
⌠Yes, I promise I will always stay with you┘no matter what you do, you▓ll never be able to get rid of me.■ I said it in a warning tone, though I doubt he saw it as a warning. He looked me in the eye and I swear on all that is yaoi I think I saw the slightest hint of a smile pulling at the very edges of his lips.
⌠Why?■ he finally asked.
⌠Because, honey, I love you.■ I said softly, planting a soft kiss upon the scar on his forehead. ⌠And nothing will ever change that.■ I said it as though he should already have known, which he should have and I smiled lovingly. He seemed to be delighted by the thought of me staying with him forever, even though he never actually displayed any emotions, I could see the change in his eyes.