A/N: Yeah, so I haven't updated this story yet, but I will. ...Ok...you don't care...oh well. I just was bored and decided to post this. Isn't it a rule on that you can't post author's notes as chapters???
Hmm... Well I see ppl doing it all the time so it must not be that big of an issue, and since I only have 2 reviews on this story (hint hint. notice the ONLY HAVE TWO part) I doubt it will annoy that many people. Anyways, the reason I haven't gotten the second, or rather first chapter of this thing out is basically because my beta is my older brother, who just graduated (high school. they graduate early. smart ppl...) an is now in Tuscany (I'm having him take pic of the Palazzo de Priori for me. smile AND the castle...and again you probably don't care...Speaking of, did anyone know that the lone castle in Volterra is now actually a prison?) so therefore he hasn't been able to exactly read the stupid story.
I tried my best at self-editing, and then started in on the plot outlines of my other chapters, but I gave up on that because when I start to really plan out something I lose inspiration. So basically I've just been writing different versions, and different out comes of different situations with different characters to fill the time. So...I'm sorry everyone who's actually taking their good time to read this. My head has so much going on, so that it gets to a point where my thoughts are like a train wreck. I get VERY in coherent. This is boring. SORRY!
I'm probably going to get yelled at for this by some way critical person who believes that takes up deep imitation voice "fan fiction should have some actual story content, or else it's just crap, and a waste of time" Nothing against any of you or anything. I'm fine with criticism. It's healthy for me. But...Just to maybe partially satiate you all I shall list the characters in the story to give you an even better idea of what it's about. And hey! I just remembered I have a better description type thing for you!
Ok here goes...CHARACTERS: Lydia (the name just stuck. Plz don't complain. I like It.): She's basically your average 16-year-old girl. She wakes up, grabs a quick breakfast, then drives to school, etc. You get the picture. She's not exactly a very social person. She has her few good friends that she talks, and does things with, but there's always something there holding her back from telling them everything about her, and about how she really feels.
See at school throughout the years she's developed a kind of stereotypical reputation for being this incredibly quiet girl who never says anything, who's smart, but is incredibly clueless sometimes, and is a major push over type of nice. The thing is she does talk, just not to loudly, and too much. She's kind to the people who don't annoy her, or judge her, and are generally creative, and nice, but she always tries to be polite to a degree, so basically she is an all round nice person, but NOT a push over.
In fact that's one of her pet peeves: when people try to take advantage of her, because they don't think she's strong enough to fight back. She is smart. Book smart, but not genius book smart. She gets A's for her parents mostly (She doesn't see the point of grades. Why should a letter judge your intelligence?) But she's not really math-lete material. She's more artistically smart. She's very creative, but modest, so se doesn't boast about it. She loves to draw write, and read.
They're her vents. But secretly acting also really expresses her feelings. It's sad to her that when she's in drama (forced to take it. She was always really shy when she was younger, and gets extreme stage fright) up o stage acting out her assigned scene from some play, or skit that even though the emotions she puts into her character are real it's just pretty good acting to everyone watching her. Of course it is. Because she's just the nice, quiet girl who doesn't have feelings. She's just there to use, and then toss aside. To ignore, and then acknowledge when you may need her for some petty request.
Reading helps her get lost, to leave the world that she's in, to in a way fly away from it all, even though she knows that can never happen. (Oh the irony...) She's not clueless, she's just a daydreamer, and gets lost in the clouds sometimes. She's actually very perceptive to the way others react to what people do, and to the things that happen in everyday life. Sensitive might be a better way to describe it. An Empath through, and through. With all that said: NO Lydia is NOT emo, or an overly whiny prep for that matter. She doesn't like standing out that much, and those kinds of labels are very standoutish. (I didn't want to go into all of the stereotypes, because frankly stereotypes suck, and that would make me a hypocrite.)
She has two younger brothers, two parents, and a yellow lab named Sugar. She loves them, but she's never been able to talk to them about anything really. They'd just recommend seeing some counselor, and Lydia Doesn't like counselors. All they do is make quick assumptions, and judge you after you say one itsy bitsy thing, and then when you try to calmly explain that they're wrong, and that they should listen a bit further to what you're saying they don't listen, and tell everyone that you need to stay in the stupid program for another 3 years or something. (I have been to 6 counselors, and a shrink. They annoy me. I'm not crazy btw...even though it might seem otherwise, my parents just assumed because I cried that I was extremely depressed, and needed "help". I don't dislike the people themselves just what they do...so please don't take any offense if you're aspiring to be one, or are one.)
She loves the seclusion trees offer, and often goes out and sits on the bench under the weeping willow in her backyard, and just thinks. She has straight dark brown hair with one golden blond streak running down the right side of her head (She's had it since birth). She has big tree bark brown eyes that in the right light, and mood flash a dark gold. Her face is heart shaped, and she has fairly pale skin (not as pale as Bella's).
Her favorite animals are wolves (Irony arrives yet again), and her favorite colors are red, black, and dark green. She wears basically whatever she happens to find in her closet in the morning. Whether that be a t-shirt, and jeans, or a blouse, and long skirt. All right so I'm not sure what else I can tell you about Lydia. All this stuff is just Lydia as a human, and her personality. Yeah so this may have been A LOT of info, maybe too much, but honestly I figured that the majority of you wouldn't have gotten through the author's note part of this, much less the descriptions.
Unless you're REALLY bored, but even then you could just read a fanfic. But for those who have read this far, congratulations for getting through this part. Sorry that you had to endure all that, and congrats again. You now have a bunch of inside info so that you may understand the main character a bit better. I'm going to keep typing now.
I still have all the other characters to write down (just their names. I'll describe them in a later chapter). I know...I'm just the tip top of being not annoying aren't I :D CHARACTERS belonging to me: Gabriel Genevieve Milo Vera Adrian CHARCTERS owned by Stephenie Meyer Edward Bella Alice Emmet Jasper Carlisle Esme Rosalie Aro Marcus Caius Jane Alec Felix Heidi SO basically Willing Darkness is an AU type of fanfic I won't be able to really write POV's for SM's chars till Eclipse comes out. I'll be able to write little things from like Alice's POV, and Bella's, but most of it will be from Lydia's.
It's like Eclipse, and further on if you were to have my extra characters throughout the story. How would the story change? What would stay the same? So I'm really sorry for that boring little (little???) tid bit. It was long. I was bored. So Sorry. Review. Tell me what you think of Lydia and such plz if you read this far. Thanks! HonorableBeauty