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A/N: Well, there is currently one review for Chapter One of this lonely little story, so I'm ecstatic! Thanks a bunch[ I am just hooked on rewriting it, so I am doing this for my own good and sanity anyway. But that does give me a shit-load of inspiration!!! I wrote Chapter One on my old account a while ago and I longed to rewrite/continue it… And so I am! Teehee! Anyway, all you Host Club fans out there… I hope you're all Hikaru/Kaoru fangirls/fanboys too, 'cause there is a lot more to come! Yeah, Chapter One wasn't really a lemon, sort of just partial smut… I think I'm gonna save the lemon for later chapters. Dx (sorry!) Anyway, enjoy! (BTW, if you ARE a fanboy, that's hot. 'Cause girls DIG fan boys of yaoi/etc… even if you're gay or bi. Actually, that makes it sexier. XD Ignore me, okay? I'm weird. LOL)

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Chapter Two

Cautiously, he slipped his head through the crack in the door, peering in. Sure to be tentative, he approached his awaiting, fellow Hosts. It was a day Host Club was off, but he had called them all that morning and told them to meet him there, anyway. He would've rather done anything else, but his mother forced him to. Against his will, he proceeded to face his friends.

"What is it, Kaoru? You dragged us all the way up here…" Tamaki sighed heartlessly, still pissed off about the previous day. Haruhi rolled her eyes and followed him up in speaking.

"What he means to say is, What's wrong? Surely there must be a good reason," she said kindly, a sympathetic smile tasting her lips.

"Yeaaah," Hunny chimed in, bright eyes bubbling with curiosity. He was not exactly the best person to have in such a situation. His virgin ears didn't deserve to hear what Kaoru had coming for them. In fact, if it were up to him, he wouldn't tell any of his friends. He wasn't ashamed… Just terrifyingly worried as to what they would all think. "Fill us in! We're all worried sick, Kaoru-chaaan!"

In fact, I'm not the right one to be doing this. He smiled at the thought. Hikaru would just charge right in and lay it all on the table--- take it or leave it. He's so bold… But Mother wouldn't let him even come to school… No, he's the culprit of this mess… In her eyes, at least.

With a deep sigh, he approached them further, stopping at a distance close enough to hear from, yet far enough for his personal comfort. They all sat bound together on two couches, one happy little dysfunctional family… He suddenly felt so out of sorts, as if he were looking at an old photograph of a lost memory… Kaoru felt a deep sort of longing for them, as if this weren't his group of friends. He felt as if there was no longer a place for him now, not after such a nasty ordeal.

"He and I…" Kaoru closed his eyes momentarily to take a deep breath. This was so difficult to relate in words. Everything was scattered and it took him a few moments to recompose himself. "He's not here… and won't be for a long time… At least not when I attend." He exhaled sharply, awaiting the gasps that were sure to come. But all he got were simple stares, wide-eyed stares of curiosity and shock.

Nobody could even ask. The room was drenched in terrible anticipation of whatever was to come.

Kaoru found his voice once more and bit his bottom lip sharply. "Mother has separated us for good. She even threatened to have him switch to a different private academy, but settled on just switching classes," he whispered in a muted voice. All eyes were on him and he had to avert his own to even continue--- that didn't even take into consideration that he was on the verge of tears. He choked them back and continued with vague force. "We will attend Host Club on separate days--- we'll lose some customers, so I apologize." He nodded toward Kyoya, who couldn't even react to this. He wasn't heartless and couldn't be hurt at the financial loss for the moment--- only at sympathy for Kaoru.

Haruhi cut in, the suspense killing her. "But why! Something nothing less than horrible could bring these types of consequences!" Kaoru flinched and his obvious anguish cut her off mid-thought. Eyes returned to him once more and he settled back against a chair-backing. His strength was depleting and he couldn't even find it in himself to keep his body standing properly. Everything was crashing down.

"I don't want you to know." Simple. A clean cut. The dam of questions was about to break, but he caught it first. "But I have to." Dismissing his tears with a brush of his fingertips, he turned to face his 'family' and reality set in. He had to do this. It was inevitable--- they had to know and he had to tell them. They were going to know anyway.

With tears in his golden eyes, he turned to face his friends front on and lay the truth flat out.

"She caught us."

Nobody expected that.

There was little lack of curiosity in the room. Mori and Kyoya were the first two to catch their ginger-haired friend's gist and Mori covered Hunny's ears. (Good choice.) Haruhi got it next, eyes wide in shock, a gasp caught in her throat.

Naturally, the only two left curious in the room were Hunny and, none other, Tamaki. After a moment of curiosity, Tamaki swallowed and almost fell from his chair. As soon as he cleared his throat and was composed on his seat once more, he took a stand and sashayed over to Kaoru hesitantly--- what was there to be said in such a fragile situation?

There was nothing. No words to say. No words of comfort, no advice. Nothing to do… except just the option Tamaki chose.

He took his now tear-choked friend in his arms and held him. There was nothing intimate or sexual about the situation. From one teenage boy to another, from one man to another… from one friend to his own, all Tamaki could give was comfort.

For the longest moment, minutes to hours, he held Kaoru as the boy cried his heart out… for there was no more difficult time in life than this one.

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"Shitfuck."

"Damn, I think she's dead."

"Shut up! Just get some sodding pants on!"

"I do! Look at you--- you're the one still getting dressed!"

"Like this is my fault…"

"It's nobody's fault! All that matters is that I think she's fainted…"

Kaoru crouched over his mother, biting his lip. He poked her hesitantly--- she was out like a light in his doorway. Hikaru, after hopping around the room trying to re-apply his pants, retreated to his mother's resting spot as well, scowling down at her.

"That woman is going to be the death of me. I almost had a fucking heart attack right then and there, she screamed so loud!" Hikaru hissed, a scoff added onto the end of his comment. Then a smirk painted his lips. "Then again, I was getting used to the loud noises by then--- Say, is that where you got it from?"

Kaoru fought off the blood rushing to his cheeks and smacked his brother in the leg. "This is no time for perverted jokes! Don't you see how serious this is?!" he scolded. Hikaru dumbly made a comment that she may have hit her head and his younger twin rolled his eyes. "No, you idiot! Don't you see what she'll do when she wakes up?"

"Oh no… Is she going to scream again?" Hikaru asked, terrified. "That was horrible--- I mean, my poor ears will simply-"

"No, you fool!" Kaoru strained out his words, pained. How could Hikaru not get the severity of this situation? "How do you think any mother would react to waking up to the sight of her sons- well, you know- I mean…"

"…fucking each other's brains out?" Hikaru suggested. Kaoru smacked him again, more harsh this time. His embarrassment couldn't overrun the cold reality.

This… could be the end.

"Don't you see, Hikaru?! She'll separate us for good!"

And she did…

Kaoru was reluctant to go home, but his escort forced him into the car, away from his comforting friends, away from this alternate place. Now he had to return home… to reality…

He dumped his school-bags on the kitchen table and dropped his house keys on the divider. Eyes swollen and body numb, he shuffled his way past the dining room and by the living room. His peripheral caught a familiar figure and his instincts took over, leading his eyes to the beige couch. There sat his twin brother, matched by his Mother who sat parallel from his broken figure. Kaoru could barely stand looking, and yet couldn't draw his eyes away--- he simply stood there, staring. Hikaru was bent over, elbows-on-knees, hands strumming his fiery hair, cheeks tear-struck… he shook profusely and looked horribly traumatized. No doubt, Kaoru thought.

"Keep moving, Kaoru," his mother hummed, voice callous and monotone… just like the night before. There was no more shock, no more hysteria… just pure hatred and loathe. What a horrible emotion to hold toward your own sons. He could almost hear her thinking, You unnatural creatures… "Don't stop--- just go."

At this, Hikaru immediately drew his head up. When their eyes met, there was an unstoppable moment of silent communication. Love. Regret. Pride. Hope. Desperation. Loss.

They were so… Lost. Kaoru wished for nothing more than to skip right over the couch and hide away in his love's arms…

But he couldn't.

He just couldn't… And that was the painful part.

"I said KEEP MOVING, Kaoru!" his mother shrieked, glaring at him even through the back of her head. He met Hikaru's eyes for one more moment and their silent conversation was breathless.

"Keep going, Kaoru. Please--- just go."

"I need you. Don't make me leave."

"She'll hurt you… She's hurt me… And don't pull the martyr act--- it's all the same in her book."

"I love you."

"I love you, too, Koiishi… now go. Escape."

Kaoru followed his love's wishes and trundled away limply.

He slipped through his doorway, locked the handle, and curled away on his soft bed. There was no comfort in the world anymore. There was no comfort anywhere. All he could do was hide away in his empty room---his empty life, one without Hikaru--- and let the numbness take him over.

A/N: ANGST ANGST ANGST! So, what'd you all think? Good? Bad? Neutral? Angsty? LOL. Hehehe. Anyway, have fun reviewing! LOL Don't hate me--- I just was constructive and POSITIVE criticism on my heart-felt work! I put sweat and blood into this chapter--- it took me all day! I had to resist MySpace, for the love of God! Anyway, off to go play some Spidey 3 on the Wii!

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PS: Sorry it's so short! TTTT Forgive me! P