Author´s Note: Author: ksyd
Rated: M
Pairing: a little Cameron/House
Summary: Rubbing her right shoulder blade, feeling the scarring line that wetted her soft skin with the letter "J", she got up and packed her things, forgetting to take the invitation with her.

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Chapter Five

She promised it to Cuddy. And promises, Allison Cameron held. So since giving the older women her word, Cameron tries to find out what to do next. After taking almost a whole bottle of ASS in 24 hours (the doctor in her knows that she almost gave herself an overdose), her headache was slowly getting better. The voices and strange faces from the TV fill her apartment with pleasant noises, even though Cameron is not paying any attention to the movie.

She still has to listen to her answering machine, the left messages growingwith every hour. She´s persuading herself to walk to the little table standing in the floor. To walk over there and press the record button. Such a small thing to do and such little energy to actually do it. Winning over her listlessness, Cameron turns down the volume of her TV, giving the speeches from the band her ear.

Uncle Tom wants to know what to do about swollen feet's. And where did they come from? His wife, Aunt Mary, throws in that "the girl" has more important things to do than to think about his ugly feet´s and making a diagnosis through the phone.

Samantha, an old friend from the college, is telling her with a loading voice full of joy that she´s going to marry. That causes a little smile on Cameron´s lips. Some good news finally. She would have to call her back. Tomorrow.

Cameron is not surprised to hear Lisa Cuddy´s voice, but she´s caught by what she says.

"Cameron. I want you to know that I talked to House. I think you´re save now from his visits." A pause, then: "And I have talked to Dr. Tiek. I think you should go to her. She´s a very good trauma psychologist. You really should speak with someone." Another pause. "You can´t do it alone, Allison. You need professional help. Call me back or even better, visit me at my office."

With that, Cuddy hangs up, leaving Cameron stunned. She knew that Cuddy was right with every word. She couldn´t do it any longer alone. In fact, she always knew that someday she would have to work up her past. But she always hoped that she could do it on her own. Even the imagination of telling another person all the things, Cameron felt the urge to vomit.

Since she turned down the hospital psychologist back in New York, she never visited another. Not because she is sharing the diffused notion that only crazy people go to therapists. No. As a doctor she knew very well that sometimes, your body can´t heal when your soul is ill. Sometimes you need someone who guides you through the darkness, back to the light. It´s what she tells many of her patients. But living that long in her own darkness, Allison Cameron is not sure that there still is light for her. And even if, where to take the energy from to walk down that road?

He´s not getting any fun out of this. Punching down Chase and Foreman, forcing them to make his duty clinic, it´s clearly not making fun these days. Something missed. Sipping on his coffee cup, he immediately spits out the brown liquor. Wich son of a Bastard was trying to poisoning him with this…this stuff? Thinking back he has to blink. He was the one making the… coffee this morning. Sighing he gets up, making his way out to the hospital floor, searching for a coffeemaker and scaring away the doctors and nurses with his evil facial expression, his cane helping him.

Passing Cuddy´s office and finally finding a coffeemaker, House suddenly stops in his motions. Slowly limping back, he sees her, just standing up from the chair she was sitting. Interesting. Allison Cameron was back. Or was she? Of course she was. She was not here to quit, right? Feeling somewhat of angst rushing through his chest, he quickly searches for a hiding place as Cameron, escorted by Cuddy, leaves the office. Both women looked sad, some could even think that they had cried. Noo. Cameron crying? Yes. But Cuddy, crying, in her office? Nah. Looking closer he studies Cameron. His heart pulled together a little. She still looks like a freaking ghost. Even more, if possible. Helpless. She looks helpless, painfully fragile. And he knew; at this point, she is The direction the woman are walking surprises House. They were not heading for the exit. Instead of they stop before the elevator, pressing the button that´s leading to the sixth floor. Sixth floor? House has to catch his breath. That´s where the psychiatry section lies.

The elevator door opens and swallows Allison Cameron and Lisa Cuddy, leaving House behind. Looking over to the stairs, he begins to swear. Damn, damn leg! Screw it! Fucking shit! As fast as his hurting leg let him, he rushes over to the elevator, banging against the metal while waiting for the door to open. Of course he wouldn´t admit it, but fear has met him. You just don´t go that easy to the psychiatry. Right, he was there, doing somewhat of a withdrawal treatment, but this was a completely other story. But Cameron going there, escorted by Cuddy? Every time he thought that he knew just how badly Cameron´s mental health was, he got teaches better.

Eventually the door opens and House got his chance to follow them. Screw Cuddy. To hell with her threats. Cameron didn´t needed to be locked away. He was not sure what she needed, but locked away with a bunch of crazy people certainly wasn´t. And he would make sure that this wouldn´t happen.

Taking a road she´s not sure where it will lead out, Cameron once again feels reminded of Jared. Amongst fear and anguish, ignorance had always guarded her. What would happen next? Of what idea he would come up next? What was he planning? But this time, there was a different. SHE was making the decision to take a train wich end station she´s not knowing. It doesn´t help her, though. She´s almost sure that she won't say a single word to Dr. Tiek. But at least, she gives that whole thing a chance, right? And maybe it leaves her alone from Cuddy.

Looking over to Cuddy who smiles slightly at her, Cameron enters the office of Amanda Tiek, specialized trauma therapist.

Dr. Tiek is looking up from her files on the table, smiling warmly while studying Allison Cameron, M.D. Standing up and going over to her she shakes Cameron´s hand, feeling the cold laying on the skin.

She gestures at a chair while introducing herself to the young doctor.

"I´m Amanda Tiek. Trauma therapist. But," waving her hand in the air, "you already know this."

Cameron is not sure what to say, so she only nods. Damn it!

D. Tiek smiles, feeling the obvious indisposition coming out from Cameron. She even could sense her nausea.

Taking in the bad appearance of Cameron, seeing that only a few left halters kept the women together, she replays the record she had read earlier, giving in from Dr. Cuddy.

It had surprised her, being in that job almost 20 years, to find out that Dr. Cameron never took any professional help and still was able to keep herself together that well all this years. Even despite the fact that the missing treatment now demanded his prize, it only proved Dr. Tiek that Allison Cameron was a very strong person.

Having read the reports from the hospital in New York, the files from the police, she knew that she was facing a very complicated case. She at least expects several untreated traumas, along with they´re symptoms.

Looking down to Cameron´s file she over reads the words she had marked earlier.

Abduction by own boyfriend, Jared Carter, drug dealer. First trapped on a boot. Several days kept in a little dark room under the deck. Drugged and protracted to several other location. Several failed escape attempts. Every time Beaten up after.

That was only the first list of the happenings, and while reading it at the first time, Dr. Tiek quickly came to the conviction that Jared Carter was a sociopath. Wich frankly was the only reason that Dr. Allison survived in the first place. Cause ripped apart between his business´s and his love for his girlfriend, and in his own, twisted way, he really did love her, Amanda Tiek has no doubt about that, Jared Carter did what most sociopaths would do: He tried to keep both, now matter what it´s cost.