Author: ksyd
Rated: M
Pairing: a little Cameron/House
Summary: Rubbing her right shoulder blade, feeling the scarring line that wetted her soft skin with the letter "J", she got up and packed her things, forgetting to take the invitation with her.

Author´s note: Wow, this chapter was hard to write. I had massif problems to get my thoughts on paper, and I´m not very pleased with this. But eventually I decided to stop overwrite it, not wanting to make this worse. I work as a nurse in a nursing home and had a double shift at the weekend, along with not having one single free day since January (half of our staff is laying down with a bad flu), so I guess I´m just…a little tired and that´s the reason this chapter was giving me the creeps.

Now, I leave you to this chapter and hope for your mercy while I´m going to enjoy my free evening. A 21 old girl wants' to have some fun here and there… :D

drewbie875: Actually, I´m working to make a career out of my writing. Always wanted. Let´s see if this dream comes thru some days...

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Now, I leave you to this chapter and hope for your mercy while I´m going to enjoy my free evening. A 21 old girl wants' to have some fun here and there… :D

Chapter Six

Leaning against the wall and carefully looking around the corner, House detects Cuddy, standing alone in middle of the floor, talking to her mobile phone. But no sign of Cameron. Leaning more forward so he can see the rest of the hallway, House loses his cane, causing it to land on the white ground, the sound of it spreading around the station. Kneeing down he fishes the cane back to his possession and slowly stands up – only to meet some brown eyes gazing at him, obvious full of steps. Uh-oh. Pointing a finger at House while coming towards him, she shakes her head.

"I can´t believe it! What the hell you think you´re doing?"

"What the hell are you think you´re doing?!" Imitating Cuddy House points his finger at her chest, leaving her speechless for a moment, giving House the time to talk further.

"You heard me, Dr. Cuddy. Go on, answer me. What are you thinking?" His voice gets louder while giving her the evil eye.

"What I´m thinking? I…House, what are you talking about?" His words are a mystery to her, even more than else.

"I talk about this!" Waving his hand around the floor, House moves nearer to Cuddy.

"I talk about you" again he points a finger at her, "dragging Cameron herein! You think locking her away will help her?"

"Lo…Locking her away? House, are you now completely insane? Where did you get that from?"

"Hm. Good question. Where did I get that from? Maybe because I saw you two going up here? Going up to the psychiatry? And the fact that I can´t see Cameron anymore with you?"

Cuddy shakes her head, looking somewhat disappointed at her old friend and colleague. "And that leads you to think that I put Cameron permanently into this place?"

"Exactly. What else should I think, hu? Now, tell me where she is." His demanding voice almost causes a smile to Cuddy´s lips.

"What the fuck is so funny?"

"You. You are funny. And disappointing too, but that's another thing. But looking at you, hearing you´re charges and seeing you so protective over another person…it´s funny, you know. One could think that you´re hiding some feelings for Cameron."

"Bullshit! I just don´t wanna see one of my ducklings vanish in the psychiatry, causing me to hire a new stupid doctor. That´s all." He hopes that this convinces Cuddy.

"Right. Whatever. And now, calm down. Cameron is right there," she points to the office where Cameron is in, "and is talking to Dr. Tiek. At least, I hope she is." Looking absently to the closed door, Cuddy stops a moment in her speech before turning her attention back to House. "Whatever, the point is: She´s only here to see a therapist, not to stay here. Get it?"

"Oh."

I was as bad as she thought it would be. The whole conversation was escorted by disgust and nausea filling the air, almost sizable. Cameron has not decided yet what to think of Amanda Tiek. She was kindly, looking understanding. But considering her job, she has too. Can´t welcome a patient with a rude face, right? After spending almost an hour with the therapist, Cameron thinks that she didn´t said much more than "yes" or "no".

Dr. Tiek wants to see her again tomorrow. Obviously Cameron´s discretion wouldn´t stop the therapist. Cameron sniffles while thinking about that. She´s not sure whether she should go or not. She remembers seeing her file on the table, getting a strange feeling to see her past summarized on a few papers. Knowing that Dr. Tiek had read it. Cameron shivers. Another person who knows.

After leaving her office she visited Cuddy again, telling her in a few words about the last minutes, though not letting her know about her even raised doubts. She could see the relief in the eyes of the older woman and Cameron understood the meaning behind this. Though Cameron always insured to Cuddy that there was no point in feeling guilty, Cuddy always tried to make it up by helping her since it happened. Beginning with paying the hospital bills back in New York and hiring one of the best trail lawyers to get her out of the jail.

Of course the police had first accused her of being Jared´s partner in the drug business. It didn´t mattered for them that she was more death than alive the moment they found her. By the time her lawyer handed them the hospital report they quickly dropped this suspicion. You can´t ignore a medical report that screams "Victim!". Still, she had to face the fact that she had murdered him, even if it was in self-defense. But after freed from the suspicion of being a drug dealer it was easy to prove that he had abducted her, causing the fatal end. The evidence was undeniable.

As for Lisa Cuddy, even after helping her out of all this, the guilt still stayed, and Cameron is well aware of this.

Sighing, Cameron lies down on her couch, blankly watching the movie on her TV, still not having figured out what to do about the meeting with Dr. Tiek.

"I´m glad that you decided to come. I had my doubts." Amanda Tiek smiled at the younger women sitting before her.

"They were warranted. Look, I don´t know how to do…this." Maybe truth could help her.

Dr. Tiek nodded, smiling a little. "I understand. It´s never easy. But you just made a good start by telling me what you think about this."

"Its not easy." Not easy? Oh girl, that´s not even near to describe your feelings.

"Then let me help you out. I make you an offer. I ask, you answer. And if I´m asking something you don´t wanna talk about, just say it. You don´t have to answer to anything that you don´t want. How does that sound to you?"

"Good, I guess. But I´m not sure that I can give you many answers considering the list I don´t wanna talk about." Cameron looks down to the ground, not sure where to look at.

"That´s okay. We´ll just wait and see."

Leaning back in her chair Dr. Tiek is considering where to start the best, where to make it the easiest for Dr. Cameron.

"When was the first time you met Jared Carter?"

Taking a deep breath Cameron thinks back, already feeling the ghosts of the past coming back.

"In High-School. We were in the same class. He even sat next to me." A haunted smile.

"And what kind of relationship you two had?"

"Mmhh. Not sure. I…he…we…liked each other. Some sort of teenager love, I guess."

"Anything happened? A Date?"

"Once. But I didn´t showed up." Cameron remembers sitting on a tree, smoking a cigarette, thinking about the meaning of life, too scared to go to the Date she had with Jared, though not knowing why at this moment. Maybe she should have recalled her insecurity years later.

Seeing that Cameron remembers something more to this question but won´t tell it, Dr. Tiek just became her first clue of how to act. She would only question simple things, nothing that would cause the immunologist to talk about her feelings or related reminders. Something the woman was clearly not ready to do, but that is not surprising the therapist. Step by step.

Taking another direction Dr. Tiek throws in another question.

"Let me ask you another thing, just to have more insight. Is it right that Dr. Cuddy was related to Jared Carter?"

A deep breath, a little pause, and then:

"Yes. He was her half-brother."

Miles away from Dr. Tiek´s office, House is sitting on his couch in his place, looking down to the papers in his hands. And then, after a small moment of uncertainty, he starts reading through the past of Dr. Allison Cameron.