Disclaimer: If I could, I would own Twilight. But I cant... PS I think I have a poltergeist in my house.. o.O
Quality Time
The door slowly crept open. I held my breath, not really knowing what to do or say to anyone at this point. And if it was who I thought it was, well then I would have to think of something. But to my surprise it was not someone I was expecting at all.
"Hey, Bella" Jacob said as he entered the room caring a bouquet of flowers in his right hand. He was actually dressed nice. A nice collared shirt and black slacks, I couldn't tell from where I sat but it looked like he had grown quite a few inches since the last time I saw him. He looked older too. Not much though. He still had the same round boyish face that he always had that made him look like the young boy he was. I could tell that it was soon leaving his composure though.
"Hey Jake, what are you doing here?" That was so stupid Bella. Of course you're sitting in the hospital; he's here to see you. Duh. I made an exasperated face towards my hands at my stupid question, but he didn't seem to notice because when I looked up he was several feet closer, smiling.
"I came to see how you were doing. Charlie called my dad yesterday to let us know what happened." Jacob said, smiling the whole time. For some reason unknown to me, I felt comfortable around him. The confusion and pain I had in me a moment ago was evaporating with each smile.
"Oh," was all that I could say.
"So, it's sunny out today." I could tell he was trying to make small talk, and I was grateful that he wasn't talking about me illness while I sat in this bed. But I sighed and pouted.
"Of course it's sunny. I'm in the hospital with no way of going outside!" I pouted some more and folded my arms across my chest. Edward and I could be in the meadow! I could be outside reading. But nooo, I'm stuck on a gurney! Jacob laughed at me, finally reaching my bed and sitting on my left side turning his side so that his left knee was resting next to my left arm.
The thoughts of Edward sent me back into my downward spiral of confusion and pain. Jacob noticed my expression this time and grabbed my hand while asking me, "Bella, what's wrong? Are you ok?" He sounded like the concerned friend that I need right now, and even though I really didn't know him well, I felt like spilling my guts to his smile and his happy composure. But then I also noticed that Jacob still had his hand in mine, and I didn't remove it. It felt to warm and comforting. I didn't get the butterflies or the tingling like when Edward touched me, but I did feel comfortable with him. As if I was with an older brother.
"I'm fine Jacob," I knew I couldn't tell Jacob the truth. It wasn't my secret to tell, "I'm just really tired, and they are starting me up on some new pain medication. So that's probably why I feel like this." I sighed again, looking up at Jacob's warm face, my hand still in his.
"Oh, I almost forgot." He reached over to me with his right hand "These are for you." He handed me the flowers, now that I could see them I could tell that they were a bundle of roses; red, pink and yellow. They smelled amazing.
"Thank you Jacob, you didn't have to do that you know." I sniffed again, closing my eyes.
He simply shrugged, "I know, I wanted to." He looked at me with a strange intensity, and I suddenly didn't know what was going on.
I thought of Edward then and no sooner did I think his name did some one enter my room. Edward didn't seem to realize Jacob was there until he was about to run into him. Then he really knew. His face grew grim and his eyes glared at Jacob, and then down at our hands. I immediately removed mine from Jacob's grasp and smiled sheepishly at Edward. Jacob's face was suddenly looking awkward.
"I should probably get going. I'll come by another time Bella. I hope that medication starts to help." He patted my hand, receiving a low growl from Edward.
"Yes, I think you should be going Jacob. And don't worry about coming back, she doesn't have to stay here much longer." His voice diffidently had a menacing edge.
Jacob simply nodded and waved goodbye to me at the door.
"You know, Roses are a symbol of love." He raised his eyebrows at me, turning the strength of his eyes completely on me.
I quickly remembered that I was mad at him. I turned my face to look at the opposite wall from where he stood, arms crossed over my chest, a death glare plastered on my face.
We sat in silence for minutes, until he broke it. "Why was your hand in Jacob's?" Could he not see that I was mad at him?
I simply stayed where I was, and answered as coldly as I could muster while the hurt threatened to break my voice. "For your information, he was comforting me. Apparently I look a little upset." I put as much acid into my voice as possible.
How dare he lie to me! Leave me sitting in a hospital with no way of knowing where or what he was doing. I kept my face in the deadly glare that threatened to puts holes in the wall.
We stayed like that for another few moments. I finally turned when I heard him sigh loudly. I looked over at him, and saw that he was no longer standing but sitting in the seat next to my bed. He had his face in his hands, his elbows resting on each of his knees. Suddenly I felt bad for being so cruel. Maybe there was an explanation.
"Edward… I," I didn't know what to say, "Edward, what is wrong?" There was nothing else to say.
He looked up at me, guilt and sorrow radiating through his beautiful eyes. "Bella, I'm sorry. Just seeing you there with Jacob and you were holding his hand… I just needed to calm down a little." He looked up at me with a reassuring smile that did not fool me.
"That's not what I'm talking about. Why did you lie to me? Why didn't you tell me you were leaving to think? Why didn't you..." He cut me off then because he was suddenly lying down next to me inches from my face, shushing me with a finger.
"I am sorry for that too love. I just didn't want you to worry, and then I got so worked up, I just couldn't risk being here with you when I was in that kind of state. And I really did need to think, I told you so before I left." I barely caught the words he was saying, he spoke them so beautifully and quickly, and his hand was rubbing my lower back. Making small designs where they laid. He smelled an easy defeat, "Do you forgive me Bella? If not then I can leave if you want…"
He made a move to leave, causing my eyes to suddenly go wide, and making me shout, "Wait!" Darn it! "You know, you aren't supposed to make sick people worried or stressed." I made a 'hmphing' sound and sat up once again crossing my arms.
"Does that mean you forgive me?" He asked with his crooked smile, which, although it didn't reach his yes, worked wonders on my thought process.
"Yes," I said it before I realized that I had.
He came over to me then and sat back down. Putting his arm around my waist and whispered in my ear, "You know it's sunny out." I could feel his smile on my neck as he kissed it.
"Yes, that's what Jacob said. You don't even want to know how sad I am that I have to stay inside all day while the sun is actually shining in Forks for once." I said in a sad tone. Then I realized I was in the hospital. I was sick. I was going to die. And Edward was the only one that could save me. I felt the blood in my face rush away from my cheeks, and I suddenly felt light headed. I hoped Edward wouldn't notice, but of course he did.
"Bella, are you ok?" He asked, with the worried tone I think I will have to get used to soon.
I shrugged, not wanting to beat around the bush, "It's just that Carlisle was here a while ago. And he told me what he told you last night, about how there is nothing left for them to do. I'm scared Edward. As much as I don't want to admit it, I'm scared. Please Edward, I need you. Don't let me die like this. Don't let me be away from you. I love you." I was whispering by the end of my little speech. Not really speaking to him but voicing my thoughts. I had been looking down at my hands as I spoke to Edward, but from the prolonged silence I decided to look up. I wish I hadn't.
Edward's face was that of pain and confusion. His face had even paled slightly. He looked so young and yet so old in that moment. His perfection was there yet he looked so vulnerable. I had to reach over and close the small distance between us. I simply reached over and stroked my fingers along his jaw line, breathing in slowly, trying to calm Edward and myself at the same time. It seemed to work because soon he lifted his head and took my hand in his, gently kissing it.
"No more talk of death, Carlisle says that I can take you out for the day to get you some fresh air. So I brought you some clothes," Picked out by Alice probably, "and then we will be going for a picnic. So hurry up, it's nearly sun set. I'll send the nurse in right away." With that he kissed my forehead and left me to change alone in my room.
The nurse came in and checked me over before removing my IV and giving me another dose of medication that I had to take by mouth this time.
"Now darling, don't over do it tonight, if you know what I mean." She said to me with a wink as she left the room. I simply rolled my eyes and walked over to the chair in my room.
I looked over the clothing that Edward had brought me. It was a simple long sleeved black shirt, a pair of faded jeans and a blue sweater that hung tightly at my not really existing curves.
I walked out the room slowly. I noticed as I was changing that I was a bit dizzy due to my lack of movement for the past 2 days. I entered the waiting room down the hall from my own room. Edward stood there looking like the man that I fell in love with.
"You look absolutely lovely, now come on, No one is out side right now and the sun is still shining, so I have to get to the car fast so no one sees me." He started speaking as I reached him; he took my hand as we walked down the hall ways, feeling more like the teenagers, in my case at least, in love then ever before.
"Well then we better get going. Where are we having this picnic by the way?" I asked not trying to hide my true curiosity
"It's a surprise." I rolled my eyes at his remark.
"Of course it's a surprise." I said pouting at him. He gave me my favorite crooked smile and chuckled. He led me out to his car that was in the parking lot of the hospital. We had to walk fast because there was only a momentary shield from the sun and I did not want to know what would happen if someone saw him shining like a diamond.
He opened my door and closed it behind me. He was sitting down beside me in moments and we were off.
I was feeling really tired from simply the medication, not to mention the fact that I had been literally sitting in bed for the past 2 days straight. I was groggy and my stomach hurt. But I didn't care. I had Edward next to me and that was all that mattered. He wasn't leaving me, he just had to think. And he would explain when we got to where ever it was that we were going.
Soon we were on the high way and for some reason I had a strong feeling that I knew where we were going, but the medication was starting to make my mind a little slow and I couldn't exactly figure it out. It wasn't until he had pulled off of the road that ended at a trail did I realize that we were going to our meadow. I slapped my head in frustration and feeling stupid I looked over at Edward and blushed, saying, "Oh," He simply chuckled and jumped out of the car and a second later he was opening my door and beckoning for me to take his hand.
The sun was out now and so I go to see my love in his shining brilliance. It must have been nearly 5:30 because I could tell that the sun was soon going to be going down.
Edward walked with me to the edge of the forest, and walking only five feet in before he took me and threw me on his back. The sudden proximity sent my heart into crazy thuds that refused to cease. He noticed and saw that his face looked lifted into a smile.
"Not to fast Edward, I'm not exactly in the best physical condition." I said holding on tight.
"Don't worry love. I'm not going full speed. Just let me know if you need me to put you down for a moment, ok?" I nodded and he took off as soon as my head was tucked into the crook between his neck and his shoulder. I wanted to look at Edward as he ran, watching him in his natural state was the most beautiful thing that I could ever witness, but I didn't know if it was worth it to get the motion sickness, plus I didn't think it would make Edward want me to stay. Him being him he would demand that it was his fault and then also demand that he take me back to the hospital.
With that thinking I decided that I would keep my eyes closed for how ever long the journey to our meadow took, but soon after I felt Edward touching my hands and whispering his velvety voice into my ear.
"We're hear Bella. You can let go now." I looked up from his shoulder and saw that we did indeed stop just before the arch to our meadow. It was still sunny out but I could se some artificial light coming from our destination. Edward took my hand and led me through the arch.
What I saw there was the most romantic thing Edward had ever done for me. There were fire fly lights strung around the perfectly symmetrical meadow hanging from the trees. And in the center was a small fire pit, not yet lit but I was sure that soon it would be. About 5 or 6 feet away from the center to my left sat a table complete with white table cloth and settings.
I looked back at Edward, eyes threatening to allow my tears that were already at their brim, to spill over. It didn't take much to get them there, Edwards loving eyes and crocked smile was enough to send me over the edge.
I jumped into his arms again holding him around his waist tight. He stiffened for a moment before also engulfing me into his strong arms. Cooing me with soft words and kissing my hair.
"What's wrong Bella?" He asked confusing in his voice. I feared he might feel like he was making me sad and so I decided to pull away to look into his eyes. And when I did I did see sadness in his eyes.
"It's so beautiful Edward, it's so beautiful and I love you so much." I said hastily to make him understand that I was not sad. His eyes quickly softened to show me the full strength and love of his golden topaz eyes.
"I love you too Bella, for ever. Now come on," He released my shoulders and grabbed my hands instead, turning his back to the meadow and walking backwards towards the table. Even walking backwards he looked more coordinated then I could ever dream to be. His eyes never left my face as I tried not to trip while staring at him while he shone brilliantly in the sun and pierced me with his wondering eyes.
He led me to the table where he sat me down and pushed the chair in for me to sit in. He quickly walked, at vampire speed, to the seat opposite mine. I didn't like him so far away and reached my hand out to take his. Seeing how eager I was to be with him he smiled and took my hand in his.
"Now, young man," Edward rolled his eyes at that, "You have some explaining to do. Where have you been? And what exactly do you have to think about?" I looked at him, raising my eye brows questioningly at him. He took a deep breath before engulfing me with explanations and answers.
A/N: Sorry it took so long. Seriously, Hamlet is a butt to understand. I have to try to understand that before I can even think about anything else. Grr.
I will try to update ASAP!