11/07/2007 00:32:00
I know he's watching me sleep.
He does it every time.
I keep my eyes shut and pretend that I don't know
For when he leaves, he never says goodbye.
Goodbyes are for people you shall never see again.
But I know that we will find a chance.
A chance to be together again.
I can feel his piercing blue eyes on me.
His touch upon my skin.
Behind his ice blond hair and his chilly exterior,
There's a man whom I love.
Things would be much simpler if it were me and him.
But its not.
So after he leaves, we become enemies again.
Lovers behind closed doors.
Yet strangers in the real world.
He is dark and I am light.
We are yin and yang of our world.
Day and night.
So he kisses me gently.
My cheeks, my eyelids and lips.
He lingers a little longer but we both know he has to go.
We both have to face reality once more.
Both fighting for a lost cause.
A war that will never be won.
He closes the door and I sit up.
Dress quickly and mutter a spell.
The scars are hidden.
The bruises and the cuts.
I walk out with fake confidence and make my way home.
Because nobody but him knows my secret.
My scars, my tears, my hurt.
But all is left behind in the room.
I slip my white cloak on and apparate back to the order.