AN:
Thanks so much for the reviews. a lot of you are asking questions about why only half the family is in Alaska, why Edward even takes Bella out to eat, when they don't eat. I promise this will all be answered in the next chapter, which will be from Edward's point of view. after that, the story really starts :)
Also, just for fun, I am trying to include some of Stephenie's quotes of the day in my story. You will see a couple of them in this chapter.
Disclaimer:
I don't own Twilight, New Moon, any of the characters. Some of the quotes in this story are Stephenie Meyer's quotes of the day, and are from Eclipse.
After a few days, I found myself missing Jacob more than ever. One of my biggest fears when I had become a vampire had been the fear that instinct would take over and I would hate my former best friend.
But this was much, much worse. The hole in my chest came back and I found myself curling up into a ball whenever in was alone, just to hold myself together. Yet when the other vampires were around, I had to act normal, even though Jazz could feel that there was something really wrong.
No one asked any questions, though, until one evening I announced that I would call Jacob.
"Absolutely not!" Edward roared. Jazz shook his head angrily. Alice began to say no, but then paused, closing her eyes.
Edward turned to me. "You will call him anyway, won't you? Alice sees it"
I nodded silently. "I miss him. I know things have changed. I just won't feel better until I can speak to him, Edward. You have to understand this. I love him, and you know that. He took care of me when even you couldn't. Don't worry, I trust Jacob. It will be okay." Edward looked doubtful, but I walked to my room anyways.
My fingers flew over the small cell phone, dialing the numbers in seconds. Billy answered. Oh shit I thought. Billy thinks I am dead. Thinking quickly, I imitated a 16 year old girls voice to the best of my ability.
"Hi! Is, like, Jacob there? I really need to talk to him! It's, like, important!"
Billy seemed confused, as if Jacob didn't get many calls from girls. "Uh, yes. Who is this?"
Name? Name, what is my name? "Christine! Just tell him, like, that it is urgent" Billy grunted in response, and I heard him calling Jacob to the phone. A moment later, Jacob picked up, sounding confused.
"Hello?"
"Jake!" I answered relieved to finally hear his voice. "Are you alone or is Billy still there?"
"Yea, I'm alone, who – Bella? Is that you" Jacob was beginning to growl.
"Yes! Jake! I've missed you so much! You could have called or something. I guess I understand why you didn't though. Damn, this is harder than I thought…" I trailed off.
"You know why I never called you. I don't have any leeches on speed dial" the growling in Jake's voice stung, and I could almost see him shaking with anger. I decided to ignore the last comment.
"So how have you been?" I asked carefully, "how is Emily? And the rest of the pack? I've really missed talking to you"
"I don't want to talk to you, Bella. It's too hard"
"Dammit Jacob!" I was starting to yell, so I jumped out my window and ran, putting space between myself and the other vampires "You make it sound like I chose this! Like I murdered someone you loved or something! I hadn't chosen it. Not the way it was given to me. You could have just let me die and spared yourself the regret" wow, did that last part bring on some déjà vu.
"Edward, at least, has some maturity" I continued. "He hates you wolf boys as much as the next vampire and still had the respect to thank you for saving my life. Twice."
"Well, if your little leech boyfriend is so much more mature, then you are more than welcome to hang up with me and go hang out with him." Jacob's voice was so cold and sharp, I had an urge to cover my ears and scream. "You wanted to be a bloodsucker. Just because the timing was off you can't come crying to me."
"I can't cry, Jacob. I can't cry, I can't sleep, I can't see my family, and worst of all my best friend doesn't even want to talk to me. Jake, I went against all human instincts before, by letting myself be around the wolves and the Cullens. I'm going against all vampire instincts now. Why can't you do the same? You promised never to hurt me." I was sure he would at least honor his promise.
"Well I don't keep promises with bloodsuckers, Bella. It's not like you have feelings" He ended with a cruel chuckle, though I thought I could sense some hurt in there.
"Spoken like a true friend, Jacob Black" I replied softly, and hung up the phone. I turned and began walking home, feeling strangely numb. I walked clumsily back to the house. When I was changed into a vampire, I lost much of my klutziness, but I still stumbled a bit and found ways to trip over my own feet.
When I returned to my family, I could tell by their worried expression that Alice had seen the outcome of my telephone call. I attempted to smile, unsuccessfully, and sat silently on the couch next to Edward. When he rested his head on mine, I could hear his anger towards Jacob as clear as if he had yelled it across the endless fields of snow.
I turned my attention carefully to the television. It had been left on a travel show about Italy. I shuddered at the memory of that beautiful country. Edward noticed and his expression darkened. I ignored that, too, and focused on a small car in the corner of the screen.
"Alice, isn't that car a lot like the one you stole?" I asked, recognizing the sleek shape of the vehicle. Alice turned to the screen and nodded.
"Yes, it is. Not the same year though. That was such a wonderful car. I wish I had had more time to drive it" she answered, smiling despite the mood we were all in.
"Too busy saving the life of our emo little brother, huh?" Jasper added, laughing at Edward's unhappy expression.
"Well, if he hadn't decided to go kill himself, you wouldn't have gotten the amazing ride at all, Alice" I pointed out, trying to soften Jazz's sharp words. Though they weren't intended too, I knew they had hurt Edward.
"You are correct" Alice smile, turning to Edward, "And speaking of Italy and sports cars that I stole there, you still owe me a yellow Porsche."
Edward laughed, a beautiful sound. "Yes, Christmas is coming up soon. Now, Bella, it's about time we get you a car. A good, fast one. No old trucks this time around. Jasper, what do you think?"
"I think, in honor of the old truck, we should get the girl a classic." Jazz answered thoughtfully.
Alice was up from her seat in once, "Oh! One time, in Canada, I stole this old Corvette. The thing was wonderful. I'm sure we could get Bella a nice restored one, Rosalie could do some work on the engine, it would be great for you, Bella!"
Before I could answer she had Rosalie on the phone. With my acute sense of hearing I could hear Rosalie's distaste in doing anything nice for me. Alice argued, relentlessly, for ten minutes before Rosalie gave in, simply excited to work on a nice car.
A week later, a sleek blue '78 Corvette, restored and much faster than you could buy stock showed up at the house. Emmett was driving. I rushed out to meet him; I hadn't seen my big bear-like brother in months. While running through the snow I tripped, but regained my balance before falling flat on my face. Emmett laughed loudly, as he picked me up in a huge hug.
"I'm really glad Edward didn't kill you. Everything's so much more fun with you around." Emmett laughed. I turned as red as a vampire could and hugged him back, then turned to my new car.
Emmett stayed a day, but had to go home the next morning, as he and Rosalie were getting married once again the following week in Russia.