1Why Is It Always Me?

Sept 10

So, I'm pretty sure things couldn't get any worse: I'm the fourth champion in the deadly Tri-Wizard tournament and to make matters worse Ron isn't talking to me. I mean how could he honestly think I would voluntarily put my name in the Goblet? He's a bloody git I swear. But right now he's the least of my worries now I need to concentrate on getting through this alive. I'll worry about Ron after... although I'm hoping he'll have stopped being a git by then. I'm pretty sure everyone hates me right now but it's not my fault. I didn't put my name in there and honestly I'm the last person who needs eternal glory, I'm pretty sure I was guaranteed that when I was one years old. And the monetary funding isn't really a big deal either, whatever is was that my parents did they were well off. I know I said over the summer that I couldn't wait to come back here but now well now I wish it was summer again and that my best friend wasn't a git. It's been two days of torture having to spend all my time with Neville and Hermione. I love Hermione but all she does is worry and without Ron around I don't have anyone to kind of stick up for me (although I've gotta admit that not listening to them bicker all the time is a nice change) and Neville is a great guy and all...but not really best friend material. Although having Hermione as a partner in just about every class has been great but she's so serious and every time I look at Ron he just sneers at me. I have to admit I do feel kind of bad for Hermione since she has to go back and fourth between Ron and I but I am more then willing to be friends with him again if he would just admit he was wrong.

Plus I can't walk around without seeing a billion people sporting "Potter Stinks" badges. No one will sit by me in class except for Neville or Hermione and if Ron even looks at me I just shoot him a glare and turn away. Everyone taunts me saying that I'll never last in this tournament (Gee thanks I haven't figured that out already). Sometimes I don't understand these people. I really wish they would stop seeing me as some "limelight hungry teen" and would see that I'm just like the rest of them. And honestly, how could I have gotten past the age line. I'm no genius when it comes to magic (that's all Hermione and she would never help me devise a plan to get past the age line). Plus if Fred and George couldn't get past it I doubt anyone would be creative enough to find a way. I really don't think things could get any worse.

Of course things just got worse when I met Hagrid tonight. Hermione told me some really random comment about Ron telling her that Dean told him that Parvati told Seamus that Hagrid was looking for me (I'm not sure what I just wrote but the point was that Hagrid wanted to see me). So tonight I grabbed my invisibility cloak and made my way to his hut where then proceeded to show me what the first task was: DRAGONS! They want us to battle a dragon-I'm going to die. Yeah, have you seen a dragon? Well I have and I am not looking forward to this one bit. I was just kind of frozen in shock while I saw Ron's brother Charlie roping them down with a bunch of other wizards and witches I don't know. Hagrid never noticed me slip away (he was preoccupied with Madame Maxine) back to the castle. So I headed back up to the common room to do some homework and saw Ginny sitting by the fire reading.

"Hey Ginny." I smiled pulling out my Potions book.

"Hi Harry." she said putting down her book, "Are you ok? You look like you've just seen a dragon."

I laughed feebly, "I'll be fine."

Ginny walked over to the desk I was at and sat next to me, "Are you nervous?"

"Nervous doesn't even begin to cover it."

Ginny put her arm on my shoulder, "I'm sure you'll be wonderful, you're a great wizard."

"Thanks Gin, it's nice to know someone supports me."

"Ron does support you...he's just jealous."

"But why? I will gladly switch spots with him I don't even want to participate in this."

"I know this and I'm pretty sure he does too but you know you get everything-" I glared at her but she continued-"Not that you ask for it but people just expect you to be great at everything and well everyone just sees Ron as your faithful sidekick of sorts."

I sighed she did have a point after all, "I just...I just wish he wasn't acting like this."

Ginny smiled, "I'm sure he'll come around very soon. I know he misses you he's been spending all of his time with Seamus and Dean but I know that's getting old. "

"Thanks Gin I hope you're right."

"Oh don't worry I am." She flashed me her perfect teeth, "I know Ron better than anyone else."

I laughed, "That is true."

"Well, I'll let you get back to your work, I'm off to bed. I've got Potions in the morning and I definitely don't want to be late for that." She said heading up the stairs.

"Good night Ginny." I said unrolling my parchment.

"Good night Harry." She disappeared up the stairwell.

I had never noticed how much older Ginny looks nowadays. I remember meeting her at the train station my first year and she was just a little girl with chin length fiery red hair and a round face. Now her hair fell well below her shoulders in long layers and her face had thinned out and her eyes were full of passion much like Hermione's got when she was feeling especially fearsome. I have to admit Ginny is quite a beautiful girl. If I ever start talking to Ron again I will definitely make sure to keep that thought to myself.

Ok so this was a much shorter chapter than I had planned but I really couldn't think of anything to write about. I made Harry pretty angsty in this entry so I didn't want to drag the entry out for too long. To all the Harry fans don't worry Harry will lighten up after a couple entries (you know once him and Ron are friends again). Plus even before that I predict some more interaction with Ginny so we'll see what happens there.