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I know that it is still a little bit confusing but I will explain everything during the story! And I know that you want them to be together, and believe me I want that too because I'm a Sophie, but they need time. But I promise that this is a Sophie fanfic with a happy end!

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The next morning I stand up early to meet with Honor. Ally stays with Logan and Honors kids, Lilly and Jake, stay with Josh so that we got enough time for our usual girls talk.

We meet in our favourite café in Hartford. I arrive a little bit early, so I sit down and order a big coffee. When I finish my second coffee Honor finally arrives.

"I'm so so sorry!" she says while giving me a hug.

"It's okay." I answer.

"Lilly wouldn't let me go and cried all the time and Josh was so not a help. You're really lucky that you aren't married. It 's like having three kids!" She said while ordering a cup of coffee.

"I don't know it can't be that bad." I say slowly.

"You have no idea, Ror."

"Aren't you happy with Josh?" I ask, because to me it always seemed as if Josh and Honor where one of those couples which never fight and are still after so many years deeply in love.

"No, it's not that! I'm totally happy with Josh. He's perfect, he's my everything. I'm just a little bit stressed and in moments like this I need his help but then he is still just a man. And we all know that men never can do anything right." She says and laughs.

"So marriage isn't so bad after all?" I ask and smile at her because I know that actually Honor loves to be the wife of Josh and the mother of her children and the whole family package.

"No marriage is actually wonderful. You know, Ror, I never understood while you don't marry. Believe me it is great. You can go to bed without shaving your legs and you can wake up and know that you look horrible but it doesn't bother you because he promised to love you forever. Don't you want that?"

"Oh Honor, of course I want that and you know that. But how? I mean it's not like man just fall from the sky." I say frustrated because we had this discussion way too often.

"I know that. But you never dated anybody since my brother and I am really concerned about you. Why did you never dated again?" she asks.

Deep down in my heart I know the answer to this question but I don't want to see it. I know why I never looked at other man again since the day I left Logan. Since that one day three and a half year ago I never even considered being with another man. Because for me there will always be just one man.

To Honor I answer: "I don't know. I think I'm just scared to be hurt again."

"Oh Rory you can never know that. I know that the break up with Logan was tough for both of you but it will not get better if you both don't live on. Do you think you can ever come over it if you both stay alone for the rest of your life?"

"No I don't think that, but I will not throw myself at the next best guy just to get over an old relationship."

"I didn't said you should throw yourself at some random guy. Just think about the possibility of dating. Maybe it will help you to forget a little bit of the past. That's what I tell Logan all the time, too." Honor says.

That statement confuses me. I always thought that Logan just moved on after we broke up. I never asked anyone and I sure never asked Logan about his love life but I just thought that he moved on.

"What do you mean you tell him that, too?" I ask.

"Well he is just like you. He sits at home and thinks about his old relationship instead of moving on and trying to live his own life."

"You mean he hasn't dated lately?" I ask curious.

"Lately? He hasn't dated in the last three and a half years. Just like you. But for him this is so unusual because I mean even if he has a kid now and even if we consider the whole thing with you two he is still Logan Huntzberger."

After that I totally tune out of the conversation. I hear that Honor is still talking but my thoughts wander to Logan and I don't hear one word. Why did he never dated again? Did he really is that broken? Again I feel guilty about not just destroying my life by leaving him but his too.

But deep inside me there is a little question that asks hopefully: Did he never dated again, because he still loves me???

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