This chapter is longer than my other ones because I didn't wanted to split it. And I'm really sorry if there are many grammar or spelling mistakes. I try to avoid them but sometimes they are just there.

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Neither Logan nor me mentioned my question in the next couple of days. The awkwardness was back and we just tried to spend as less time together as possible.

I regret it very much that I asked this question but I just couldn't stop myself. I was so happy every time Logan and I managed to talk together on a normal and friendly base that I really want to scream every time I see him now.

He ignores me most of the time and is just focusing on Ally. He barely looks at me and we are just talking about the necessities. I hate myself for that and can't stop thinking of what I destroyed, again.

Every night before I fall asleep I think about possibilities of making it up, of turning back time, but there aren't any ways. I've hurt him again and I'm really afraid that this time there is no way back.

When we broke up our relationship was destroyed but somehow we managed to interact on a friendly base. But this time there isn't anything I can do. All I want is that my problems go away. I'm sick of crying at night and I'm sick of explaining to my daughter why I don't speak with her father. I'm just sick of it.

It is Saturday night and I drive the road to the Huntzberger mansion. Ally is in the backseat singing along to music that can just be in the mind of a child.

I called Shira and she insisted of having dinner with the whole family on this weekend. I really don't look forward to this dinner because again there will be just awkwardness and I don't want to sit there in this cold, big house and feeling even worse than I already feel.

I drive up the road to the Huntzberger mansion and park my car. I look around and see Logan's car in one of the garages, so he is already here.

"Ally, we're here." I say and try to sound cheery, because I don't want her to think that visiting her grandparents is something bad.

I help her getting out of the car and lock the doors before we go to the main door. Ally takes my hand and I smile at her. When I look into her blue eyes I'm always happy whatever happened before, she has the capability of making me forget everything.

I breathe deep a few times before ringing the bell. The maid opens the door a few moments later.

"Good evening Miss Gilmore, Miss Alexandria." She greets us.

"Hello Maria." I answer and hand her my coat before I help Ally out of her coat and hand it Maria, too.

"They're in the living room." She says and smiles before leaving.

"Thanks." I answer.

I kneel down in front of Ally and straight her dress and her hair before I offer her my hand and we go into the living room.

Shira, Mitchum, Logan and Elias are all sitting in there talking about sailing.

"Good evening, everyone." I say and smile my usual society smile.

"Daddy." Ally screams and runs to her father. Logan opens his arms for her and puts her on his lap.

"Hey little girl. You look great." He says and kisses her on the cheek. I would love to watch them like I always do, but I have to say hello.

I go to Elias and shake his hand. After all this years he is still really cold towards me. Then I turn to Shira and give her a kiss on the cheek.

"Rory, it's so nice to have you two here tonight." She says.

"Thanks for inviting us" I answer before turning to Mitchum and shaking hands with him.

"Nice to see you" he says.

"Nice to see you, too." I answer.

"Logan" I simply say because I don't know how to react in his presence.

"Rory" he answers.

I can feel the looks on my back, because even in this house this was a cold greeting but no one says anything.

I take a seat across from Logan and Ally.

"Ally, don't you want to say hi to your grandparents and your great-grandfather?" I say.

Ally nods in response and starts hugging everyone. When Ally hugs them even the Huntzbergers look at her with so much love and their fake society smiles are gone. After saying hi to everyone Ally returns to her father and sits next to him playing with his fingers.

"Logan don't you want to ask Rory what she would like to drink?" Shira says.

"Sure mother" Logan says coldly and stands up.

"A martini, I presume?" he says without looking at me.

"Yes please" I answer quietly. Deep down in my heart I had hoped that he would act differently tonight. But he doesn't.

He hands me my drink without even seeing me and just sits down next to Ally again.

I don't even bother to thank him, because he wouldn't hear it anyway.

I take a sip of my martini and feel the cold liquor go down my throat. I take a few deep breaths before I try to concentrate on the conversation.

"So Rory, Mitchum told me that things are fine at the newspaper?" Elias asks.

"Yes they are, everything is working out great." I answer.

"Mrs. Huntzberger?" Maria says while entering the room.

"Yes?"

"Dinner is served."

"Well, then, let's go" Shira says and stands up.

"Come on Ally, let's go and wash your hands first." Logan says to Ally and picks her up. They go in the opposite part of the room and into a corridor which leads to one of the bathrooms.

The Huntzbergers and I sit down at the dinner table and we wait for Logan and Ally to come back before we start eating the salad.

Logan and Ally are sitting across from me and still he refuses to look at me.

Elias picks up the topic from before and starts talking about the news paper again.

"So do you like the work?" he asks.

"I would like to write more myself but I really love the chief editor position." I answer.

"It's not part of the editor position to write, so you have to live with that." Elias says coldly.

"Maybe it is part of it, but it really is a pity that you aren't writing so much. I always loved your articles" Shira says. I look at her and smile but I can see in her eyes that those words were just her normal society behaviour. Most likely she had never read one word I ever have written. But I don't blame her for that, because it is the way you act in Hartford society and she is, like we all are, a part of it.

"Logan weren't Rorys articles not always good?" Shira continuous.

"Sure mother" Logan says while turning to Ally.

We make it through the main course and dessert and it is always the same. Shira says something about me and asks Logan about his opinion and he always answers 'sure mother'.

By now I'm really pissed of and can't believe how he acts. Even if I hurt him he could still act normal around his family but he just don't stop ignoring me. Even in our worst times, right after I left him, we were always able to talk together and put on a mask as long as we were in society, but tonight Logan doesn't want to play along, he just wants me to feel bad.

Again Shira says: "Isn't Rory looking beautiful tonight, Logan?"

"Sure mother" is his only response.

"You two stop right now!" Elias says suddenly angry.

"I don't care what happened between you two but I will not longer tolerate your behaviour in front of your daughter. You are leaving this room now and you will work things out. If you feel ready to behave normal again, then you can come back in here." He says in a harsh tone.

In the dining room is silence and you could hear a needle hit the ground. I know better than to mess up with Elias and Logan knows too, so we stand up and leave the room.

We go into the library and I close the door behind us. Still Logan doesn't look at me, he seems totally interested into the book shelves.

To lighten up the mood I say: "Wow I feel like a six year old. We really had to leave the room to work things out."

I wait for Logan's response but all he does is starring at the shelves, so I continue : "The last time I had to leave dinner earlier was when I started playing…"

"Oh Rory stop it." Logan says suddenly. " What do you think are we doing now: a little chit chat and laughing about old times?"

I can see, when he turns around to face me, that he is angry.

"I just wanted to lighten up the mood." I say quietly.

"You haven't talked to me since…" I can't finish the sentence, because I'm not sure what to say.

"Yeah your damn right. I haven't talked to you since you ask me why I haven't dated since you. And do you know why? Do you have any fucking idea why?" Logan screams.

"I don't know. I know that I hadn't the right to ask you that, but I don't know why you don't talk to me. Maybe you just want to hurt me." I scream back.

"I want to hurt you? Gosh Rory, do you really think so? The last thing I want in my life is hurting you." He screams and I can feel tears forming in my eyes.

"But why aren't you talking to me, if not to hurt me?" I ask between soft sobs.

"Because I want to protect myself. Because I don't want to feel what I feel when I think of you. Because I can't forget the past and I can't stop thinking about us since you asked me this question. You really want to know why I never dated again?"

"Yes" I answer quietly.

Logan stays quiet for a moment before he says:" Because I can't forget how it feels when we…" he says before he passes through the room and crashes his lips onto mine.

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They finally kissed !!! I hope you liked it! Please review!!!!

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