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I wake up the next morning with a smile on my face and a happy feeling inside of me. In the first moment I have no idea why I feel that way. I keep my eyes closed and enjoy the moment.

When I shift a little bit I feel a warm body next to mine and I realize that I don't lie on my pillow but on the naked chest of somebody. I open my eyes slowly and look into the brown eyes of Logan.

The events of the previous night are coming back into my mind and I can't really believe what happened.

"Hey" Logan whispers.

"Hey" I answer.

He leans forward and kisses me soft on the lips.

"Good morning, did you sleep well?" he asks.

"Very well, I haven't slept so well in a long time" I answer honestly, because since Logan and I are separated I always felt too lonely at night to sleep well. And so sleeping turned into something that isn't something I enjoy or peaceful but a fear of tears and loneliness every night.

"Me too" he says and smiles at me while pulling me closer to him.

I inhale his scent and snuggle close to him, I never felt so safe with anybody else. I close my eyes again and just concentrate on me and him lying in bed. I try to ignore the voice that screams so loud in the back of my head.

After some time I drift back to sleep, still lying in Logan's arms.

When I woke up again I look at the clock on Logan's nightstand and it says that it is already eleven o'clock.

I'm shocked at the first moment how long I've slept and then I realize that I have to go. I look at Logan and see his eyes shut and hear is even breathing. I try to stand up while not waking him. When I manage to get out of his embrace and out of bed, I feel a hand around my wrist.

"Hey, where are you going?" he asks sleepily.

"Sorry, I have to go." I answer and look at him, while standing up and searching for my clothes.

I can see the disappointment and fear in his eyes right in the moment I spoke the words.

"Don't do that," he says with a pleading voice.

"Don't do what?" I ask him, while putting on my clothes.

"Don't run away, don't leave and ignore what happened. Please don't do that." He says while sitting up in bed and running a hand through his messy blonde hair.

"Logan…" I start, but he interrupts me.

"No don't explain it, I understand. If you want to leave then leave, it's ok, and I can understand it." He says while looking out of the window.

I get now what he is talking about, and I go to him and sit down on the bed again.

"Logan, look at me." I say while putting my hand on his arm.

He looks into my eyes and all I can see his fear and sadness.

"I'm not leaving and I'm not running away, okay? I just have to go, because I told Honor I would pick up Ally and have breakfast with her. I don't regret last night." I say to him and hope that he understands what I mean.

"You don't?"

"No I don't. I admit that we should have talked about our problems and that there are still so many things between us, that we have to talk about and work out, but I don't regret what happened. It was too fast and we really have to talk, but right now I have to leave, please understand me, will you?" I say and squeeze his arm lightly.

He just smiles at me and pulls me into an urgent kiss.

"I don't regret last night either." He says while looking deep into my eyes.

"Good to know." I answer and kiss him one last time, before standing up.

"We will talk later?" I ask.

"We will, " he answers.

I smile at him and say "Goodbye" before leaving his room and going downstairs.

When I open the door and go to my car I feel like there is somebody following me, but I just ignore that feeling and drive away to Honor's house.

I arrive at Honor's fifteen minutes later. I check my make-up in the mirror, before going to the front door and ringing the bell. Her maid answers the door and leads me into the kitchen, where Josh is sitting reading the newspaper.

"Hey Josh" I greet him.

"Hey Rory" he says and stands up to kiss my cheek.

"How are you?" he asks me and offers me a chair at the table.

"I'm fine, and you?"

"I'm fine, too. Honor will be hear any minute, you want some coffee?"

"Yeah, thank you." I answer, I hadn't had any coffee today and that can ever be good, if you are a Gilmore.

He stands up and pours me a cup of coffee. When he returns to the table Honor enters the room and smiles at me.

"There you finally are" she says and hugs me.

"Sorry, I know I'm late" I answer.

"No problem, girl. What kept you so long?" she asks curious.

Before I can answer her question Josh stands up and says: "I will leave you ladies alone now. I have to meet my lawyer. Rory, it was nice to see you. Honor, I will be home by five."

He kisses Honor and smiles at me, before leaving the kitchen.

"He works on a Saturday?" I ask Honor.

"Yeah, they have a lot of stress at their company right now and so he has to work on the weekends, too" she says while pouring herself a cup of coffee and sitting down at the table.

"But you didn't answered my question…" she says and looks at me with raised eyebrows.

"Oh I just didn't hear the alarm clock." I answer and I know immediately that Honor won't believe me because I was my whole life a bad liar. I can fake everything else when I want: I can pretend I'm feeling fine when I could cry all the time.

That's actually what I did the last three years. I've never been as happy as I pretended to be. Of course I was happy with Ally and that part of my life, but deep inside I always felt lonely. So I pretended the opposite, but I never was able to lie, when somebody asks me a direct question.

"Exhausting night?" she asks with a mocking smile on her face.

I just glare at her for a moment, before I ask: "Where are our lovely daughters?"

"They are upstairs and watch cartoons and play princess," she answers while studying my expression.

"So, you want some breakfast?" she asks.

"Yes please, I'm starving I haven't eat anything." I answer.

Honor just smiles at me and stands up and starts making breakfast. When I ask her if I can help her she refuses, because she knows my qualities in the kitchen. All I'm aloud to do is brewing coffee.

While Honor is still busy with making breakfast I go upstairs in search for Ally. When I enter the TV room Ally and Lilly are spinning around in circles with glitter boas around their bodies.

"Hey sweeties" I say.

They stop playing and run towards me, each hugging one of my legs. I kneel down and give Ally and Lilly a kiss.

"How was your slumber party?" I ask them.

In their three-year old voices they start telling me about the party both at the same time. I really have to concentrate to understand what they are saying, but in the end I just see that they liked it, because they both finish with the same sentence:

"Can we make it again?"

"Of course you can" I say and smile at the two tiny girls.

"Mummy, can Lilly and I play together a little bit longer?" Ally asks and looks at me with her big blue eyes. In these moments I understand what was always said about my eyes, you couldn't say no to them. Luckily I don't have to say no at this time and so I say:

"Of course you can. I'm downstairs having breakfast with aunt Honor, okay?"

"Okay mummy" Ally says.

Before I leave the room I ruffle the blonde hair of both of them and smile at the little girls.

I go back into the kitchen and Honor just finishes placing everything on the table.

"So what do our girls do?" she asks.

"They spin around in circles," I answer

"Oh, I loved to do that when I was little" Honor say with a happy gleam on her face.

We sit down at the table and start having breakfast. After some time Honor asks:

"Will you ever tell me what you did last evening, or night?"

I think about it for a moment and decide that I could tell Honor the story; still she is one of my best friends and knows the whole situation with Logan and me better than anyone else, because she knows not only my part but Logan's, too.

"Well, I was at Logan's" I start slowly.

"Really?" Honor says surprised. "I didn't know that you are meeting when Ally isn't around."

"No we don't" I answer honestly, because it is the truth. I haven't seen Logan without Ally in a long time.

"But we had to talk about something important, that's why I didn't want to have Ally around." I continue.

"About what did you have to talk without Ally?" Honor asks suspicious.

"Well, we had dinner with your parents and it didn't went so well and so we had a lot to talk about." I say vaguely, because I'm not sure how much I really want to give away.

"Really? I talked to my mother a few days ago and she told me it was a lovely evening" Honor answers astonished.

"Oh boy, that is so typical for her. It wasn't a lovely evening at all. I don't want to go into details but let me tell you that there was a lot of old feelings and anger and a lot of screaming, too." I say angrily. How can Shira say it was a lovely evening?

"Well, that's my mother, we know how she is." Honor says. "But about what did you have to talk about with Logan?"

"Well there wasn't just screaming" I begin slowly.

"What else?" Honor asks curiously.

"A kiss" I whisper and look into my coffee mug.

"A kiss? Between how?" Honor asks entangled.

"Between me and your mother" I say sarcastically. "Between me and Logan, of course." I say and blush a little bit.

"Wait, are you saying that you yelled at my family at their house on that dinner. And then Logan kisses you? I always knew I have a strange brother." Honor says and shakes her head.

"No the kiss was before the yelling. Logan and I didn't talked with one and another and so Elias sent us out of the room and then we fought and then we kissed."

"My grandfather sent you out of the room? Wow my family is really sick!" she says confused. "But why didn't you and Logan talked to one and another?"

"Because I asked him a question" I say and look away again.

"A question?"

"I asked him why he never dated again, and then he got angry and we didn't talked and we were at your parents and he ignored me and so we were sent out. And then we were in the library and I try to lighten the mood, but he started yelling at me and then he kissed me. After that I run away and locked myself in the bathroom, and when I went back to the table I screamed at you parents and grandfather because they were so cold and treated me and Ally bad. It was a disaster. When we left I told Logan that we have to talk about the night and so I was at Logan's last night. I wanted to talk to him, but somehow we ended up having sex in his bedroom." I say without breathing.

"Wow" is all Honor answers. "I really would like to have a drink right now."

I laugh a little bit at her statement and look at her, while she stares at her coffee mug. I stay quiet and after some moments Honor says: "I feel really uncomfortable right now. First because my family treats you and Ally so bad and second because you just told me that you had sex with my brother."

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything." I say.

"No, no. You have to talk about it and I'm glad you talk with me, but please don't say again, that you had sex with my brother, because I don't want to imagine my brother having sex, and now I should stop saying it." She says and shakes her head.

I laugh a little bit and smile at her: "What do think about we say I spent the night with Logan."

"That sounds good." She says and relaxes a little bit more.

"So did you plan on spending the night?" she asks.

"God, no! I really just wanted to talk!"

"Did you talk?"

"Just for a moment. And then, well…"

"Yeah ok, got it." Honor says. "But did you talked this morning?"

"I told him that I think it was too fast and that I think we have to talk about many things and then I left, and now I'm here. Do you think it was a mistake?" I ask Honor unsure. Even if I felt so good this morning in his arms I'm still concerned that it could destroy our relationship fully.

"I can't answer that question, Rory. I mean I think it was to fast. You two didn't really talked to one and another since a long time and when you finally find back together you 'spent the night', but does it feel right?"

"My heart says yes but my mind says it was too much too early." I say sadly, because that's how I feel.

"You have to know what you want, and then you should really talk to Logan. Don't let this stand between the two of you. If you need time I'm here and watch Ally as often as you want, but first you have to know what you want." She says and looks at me.

I just smile at her sadly and think about Logan and me.

I have to hear at the voices inside of me, but maybe this could be a mistake…

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