This is the next part to Secret. Thanx to all those who encouraged me to write a sequel to Secret… which I though was going to be an oneshot. Thank you Firey-Moonlight, Shiek 2, and Saya-Sama. And also to all those that read and review the fic.

Almost forget, to the song Tangled by Maroon5. This is in Tyki's POV

I don't own anything again. -.-;;

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I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face 'round here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear

"What…?" He blinked with his large green eye. The hands that was on my chest quickly winced. He tried to pull back but realized that I had him pinned to a book shelf. I slowly back away; my hands on his hips lingered for a moment before I pulled back and let him out of my hold.

He hesitated before speaking once more. "What did you just say?" His tone was firmer this time.

"I am a Noah." I repeated after myself.

He shoved me hard against my shoulder. I stumbled back. I saw him gnawing on his lips, I could tell he wasn't sure of his own feelings, not at all.

He turned around and picked up the articles of discarded clothing during our heated moments. He pulled on his boxers and then his tight black exorcist pants. Every curve of his legs could be seen quite clearly, I swallowed hard. I could tell he was struggling with his belt. I hesitated to walk over to him but in the end I gave up and just pulled him into my embrace.

He froze and tried to struggle against my hold, but stopped knowing I won't let him go until he relaxed. He relaxed and didn't struggle anymore. His grip on my arms loosened, he leaned back into my chest and breathed deeply. My fingers danced over the black leather belt, securing it tightly on to his waist.

"What did I ever do to deserve this?" He murmured to himself, I couldn't see his eye but I knew for a fact that it was surprised and scared.

"Nothing." I answered him as I breathed in his musty scent. He smelled of me, I mused. And then I added. "I am sorry." And I truly did mean it, I was sorry for telling him my greatest secret.

"Are you?" He asked me truthfully. He turned around in my arms and stared into my eyes. His eyes held too much innocence; I had to stop the urge to kissing him on those full red lips. I closed my eyes and nodded.

"Yes, I am truly sorry." I added as I sighed.

"For being a Noah or for fucking me?" He asked with a totally blank face.

The reality was, I am not ashamed of being a Noah but neither was I ashamed of fucking him. But I do regret of fucking him as a Noah.

This I don't think I can ever forgive myself.

"For whatever you want me to be sorry for." I answer truthfully.

Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear

My fingers slowly slipped away from each other, my hold on his waist was loose. He was released from my grasp, he could run free. He could go tell his comrades, he could just kill me and I would have never regretted what they would do. I am not afraid of the pain, I am not afraid of the other exorcists.

I am afraid of him leaving me, forever.

I took a step behind and left him with some space to call his own, while I call him mine's. His back was towards me, I stared intensely into the back of his skull. The flaming red hair lay messy against him.

The unzipped jacket, the wrinkled pants, the headband clenched tightly against his hand, knuckles white at gripping it so tightly.

He stood standing there, unmoving. Each breathe he took echoed quietly in the large library.

There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

"I really have to go," I tipped my hat with my voice full of sorrow. "If anyone were to find us, I would be doomed."

"That's not it." He pointed out.

"Observant." I remarked, never knew he had such a sharp eye.

"I am the Bookman's apprentice for a reason." He smiled then it quickly disappeared. "Why do you have to go?" He asked.

"I have nothing I can say that would change," I answered with part of the truth.

"Change what?" He pressed.

"Change the situation." I continued.

"You regret… what you did?" He asked me.

I said with a gentle smile. "Yes, I regret for ever fucking an exorcist. No matter how you see it, it is still shameful to me and you, I am a Noah after all. But nonetheless you were a good fuck."

He tilted his head sideways and stared at me. "Am I merely just a good fuck?"

"You are the first one I really cared about." I said, and it really was the truth. All the ones before him were merely just toys, they come and go like the wind. And I never cared less; they were only there for me to fulfill my desires.

He was a totally different one, he had feelings that I want to protect. He had the innocence of a new born angel. I want to caress his cheek and tell him all about my feelings. I want to hold his hand tightly as he moaned in pain and pleasure. He shouldn't have ever gone through that, it wasn't acceptable and yet the two of us let it happened. Made it seem like water flowing down a stream but in reality this was the same as trying to swim against the currents.

But the most I want is to see another smile from him.


Your just innocent
A helpless victim of a spider's web
And I'm an insect
Goin after anything that I can get

It took me a long time until I truly understand the meaning of it all. Why was I the one to be chosen as a Noah. Was it fair? What did I ever do?

I have been tainted at the very beginning of my life, a dark child I was. Never innocent, not even once, I was the devil. No one wanted to know me, especially not for who I am. I was left behind, I was betrayed. Not even the white me could have past through the watchful eyes of those humans as an ordinary human being.

"Your innocence is too pure." I gently said as I took more steps away from that being. "Stay away from me."

He stared at me with a wide eye.

"I don't really know how I feel about it anymore." I closed my eyes as my emotions flowed heavily. "I truly do like you, more than I ever felt towards anyone. But should I feel this, it isn't right after all, I am a Noah and you're an exorcist. I may be in too deep in my games to be able to identify the truth from the lies. I don't know who I should believe anymore."

I started to babble and had to place a hand over my mouth before I could actually shut up.

"I must be going insane." I sighed deeply as I turned away from him.

So you better turn your head and run
And don't look back
Cause I fear

"I should go." I told him.

He swiftly turned to face me and looked at me with that bright green eye.

"Why?" He asked with that voice, that voice that once pleaded to be loved and fucked.

"Because you and I are different." I simply said before walking from my spot.

"Wait." He simply called out. "Don't leave… not just yet."

I stood there staring at his figure; I could just imagine his fingertips slowly turn an awful shade of black, the result of everything that I did to him. What a shameful creature I am to touch innocence like that.

"Does it burn?" I asked him in a voice barely above a whisper.

He looked at me with a questioning look on his face.

"My touches." I explained. He smiled and looks off into the distant.

"Your touches are soft and gentle; it was loving yet… pushing. Your touches made me go further than I ever gone with anyone… Your touches, how could it ever burn?" He murmured as he stared straight into my eyes.

I knew for sure he wasn't lying, not for a single second.

There is nothing left to say
To you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

"Can I get a kiss?" I asked him. He walked up to me and answered my wish. He lay his lips upon mine's, I leaned in to deepen our kiss. The very last kiss the two of us should ever share. It wasn't a long kiss; it was merely the contact of his lips meeting mine's. It was a short chaste kiss, but it was enough to leave the both of us breathing deeply.

Suddenly he smirked at me and asked. "What do I get in return?"

With this I pulled him into my embrace, reaching into my pocket I pulled it out. Brushing aside his bright red hair I lay it on the back of his neck. I sealed it with a kiss, a burning scorching kiss that made him yelp in pain.

I know I should have never done it, but I just couldn't help but make him mine's, once again.

And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up

"Before you go, can I ask you a question?" He asked quietly and stared straight into my eyes.

"Sure." I answered casually as I shrugged my shoulders.

"What is your name?" He asked.

I gave a short laugh and realized that during the course of everything that went through today I never knew what his name was and reverse.

"Tyki Mik." I answered truthfully, no more secrets, no more lies. This is all truths from now on. He nodded.

"How about you?" I asked. He looked up at me and tilted his head. "What about me?"

"What is your name?" I asked him. He furrowed his brows and hesitated.

"Which one would you like to know?" He asked me.

"Which one?" I asked him, aren't humans only supposed to have one name? Now I am truly confused.

"I have 49." He stated. I looked at him through quizzing eyes, not sure at all whether he was telling me the truth or a lie.

"Tell me the one you would like me to call you." I told him, I didn't mind what his name was. It never really mattered.

A name was another way to call each other. Nothing more and nothing less.

"Rabi, just call me Rabi." He told me with a smile that seemed to brighten up the room.

"Rabi?" I asked. He nodded in response.

"Alright, Rabi." I began then I paused, not at all sure what I am supposed to say. I said the first thing that came to my mind. "My tease will still with you."

I saw him close his eyes as he laid a hand over the back of his neck.

There tattooed on his neck was a black butterfly with its wings spread wide.

"See you around, Tyki." He said to me. His fingers traced over the outline of the black butterfly as a dark figure at the library door slipped away into the dimmed hallways of the Black Order.

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Like? No like? There will be another one to this I am having too much fun with this story to stop. If you think you have a good idea of who that dark figure is then…. Actually I don't know what but you guys can try and guess. :) Review and review.

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