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During the next day I thought about Logan and my situation a lot. I couldn't stop thinking about the night we spent together and all the feelings that cameback. I tried to convince myself that the feelings were so intense becauseI hadn't had any sex since Ally was born, but it just wouldn't work. Who am I kidding, I know the truth.
I knew that there was more than just the
feeling of lust. Between Logan and me
there was always more than
just that.
Our relationship was always very physically,
but thatwas the way we expressed our
feelings for
eachother. We didn't just have sex, we made love.
And this
time it wasn't different at all. We made love and expressed our
feelings, that was a fact and after some time I began to accept
it.
The thing was just that I didn't know what to think
about it. After all there
were still a lot of problems between
us, because you can't ignore three and a
half years of nearly
not talking to each other, just because you spent one night
together. And the biggest thing was that we had a daughter
together, that was
involved in all our decisions.
In addition
to all that comes my problems with Mitchum. Well, sometimes life
was
really complicated.
I decided that the only way out
of all this problems was to talk to Logan.
This decision was
tough for me, because I wasn't the type of person who
faced
their problems. No, usually I would run away and ignore it, but
running
wasn't an option this time.
I didn't see or
talk to anybody for the rest of the weekend except of Ally and
my
maid. When it was finally Monday I started my weekly routine, but had
in the back of my mind, that I had to contact Logan and I had to
do it soon.
I got Ally ready for her pre-school
and I was lucky that we
finished in time, so I wouldnt be
late to work.
At seven thirty we left the house and walked
towards my car. I buckled Ally into
the back of my car into her
seat and closed the door. When we drove through the front gate there
were still all the paparazzo, they had stayed there the whole
weekend, trying to get some pictures.
I wondered why they were so
interested in me again, but ignored it and drove to
Ally's
school.
When I finally had Ally safe inside her school, after
being followed by
paparazzo, I drove to work. I arrived totally
on time and went into my office to
check my schedule for
today. I had a meeting at eight, so I still had
plenty of time. I
sat there thinking that I should just do it, I should call Logan, but
I couldnt pick up the phone.
I looked over some files on my
desk but had a hard time concentrating on one of
them, because I
couldn't stop thinking about Logan. I took a deep breath and
looked out of the window for some minutes to get my concentration
back. When I
finally looked back at the work in front of me my
mind immediately wandered back
to Logan.
I sighed and
decided that this was no better or worse time to call him and so I
picked up the phone and dialled his office number.
I was
greeted by his secretary at the third ring.
"Good morning" I
said. "This is Rory Gilmore I would like to speak to Logan"
"Of course Miss Gilmore" she said. "Just one moment"
The
music started playing and I became really nervous. I tried to steady
my
breath a little bit and closed my eyes for a moment to calm
down.
After some moments he finally answered the
phone.
"Huntzberger" he said and I could hear in his voice that he was annoyed.
"Hey Logan, it's Rory" I said.
"Rory" he simply said.
I wasn't sure how
to respond and so I started: "I was just calling…, well … I…"
I stopped my sentence, because know I realised that I wasn't so
sure anymore why
I was calling. I knew that I wanted to talk to
him, but how? On the phone? Or
should we meet?
Luckily he
spoke and made that decision for me.
"We should meet there
are a lot of things we need to talk about." He said and I
wondered
why his voice sounded so harsh.
"Yeah we should" I
answered and after some time I asked:" Logan is everything
alright?"
"Yeah, well, no, I will tell you when we
meet, can I pick you up from work
around seven?" he
asked.
"Sure" I answered.
"Okay I will be there at seven" he said. "Bye Ror"
"Bye" I answered.
After I hung up the phone I was totally confused. Why did he
acted so strange? I
tried to ignore it and make sure that this
evening everything would work out
fine. I called Honor to ask her
if she could watch Ally, of course she agreed
immediately.
For
the rest of the day I tried to not think about Logan too much and
concentrate on my work. It worked for the most part of the day
and seven o'clock
came faster than I thought it would be.
I
heard a knock on my door, while I was still totally occupied in my
work. I
wondered who it could be and just said :
"Enter"
I looked up, as the door opened and saw Logan standing in the
door frame. I
looked at my watch and saw that it was already
seven o'clock.
"Oh sorry, I forgot about the time. I
would have met you outside the building" I
said while getting
up and gathering my jacket and purse.
"No problem, I think it is better this way." He said.
I looked at him quizzically.
"I think it would be the best if we talk here." He continued.
We didn't talk about a place for talking but
I hadn't expected that we would
talk in the office. That seemed
to me totally strange. I looked at Logan and saw
that he seemed
to be concerned and I wondered why.
"Okay" I said slowly.
Logan approached me and took my hand in his, this send a
shiver through my whole
body. He always had this effect on me.
Just one touch and my mind went totally
blank.
He lead me
to the sofa on one side of my office and we sat down. I looked at him
and became really nervous.
"Logan, what's wrong?" I asked him.
"Where there paparazzo following you today?" he asked out of the blue.
"Yes… why?" I asked confused.
"They know" he said, as if that would explain everything.
"They know what?" I asked.
"They know about us spending the night together." He said.
I was totally
shocked at the first moment. We had enough problems without the
whole world knowing about this and now there were even more
things we had to
face. My mind turned around several times and
suddenly it all made sense. Me
feeling like some one was
following me when I left Logan's house and the
paparazzo
spending the whole weekend in front of my house.
"Rory?"
he asked softly and touched my cheek. After he said why what was
wrong I
totally turned out.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"Is everything okay?"
I looked at him and could feel tears starting to form in my eyes.
"I don't know" I said,
because it was the truth. I didn't know how to react to
that. I
had made up my mind about Logan and me and I was going to tell him
that
tonight, but this changed everything. This made every
possibility of me and
Logan starting new again much more
complicated.
"I just don't know" I said, while tears
starting to fall down my cheeks.
"Hey Rory, stop crying" said
Logan, while he started to rub my arms to sooth me.
"It
will all work out, it isn't the first time that the gutter press is
talking
about us."
"I know… it's just…" I said between sobs.
"What? What is it?" he asked me and looked into my eyes.
I looked away and said: "The whole thing with
us and… I don't know it is
complicated enough and now it will
be make into a scandal and our families will
be angry and…
now we wont get to have our second chance." I said
between breaths and sobs.
"No don't say that! Don't say
we can't get a second chance. If we want a second
chance there
will be one, but we have to want to. Rory look at me." He said and
put his finger under my chin so that I had to look at him.
"Do you want a second chance?" he asked me.
I looked into his hazel eyes which were filled with so much love and emotionfor me, as if nothing had changed in the past three years and we were still in as much love as we were before everything went wrong. My heart was screaming was: YES! My head was screaming : Take your time and think this trough! I decided for onece to follow my heart and tell my head to shut up!
I smiled at him and whispered: "I want a second
chance!" Instead of responding
he just grinned a happy smile
and then he kissed me.
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