I hope you will all like it, because I got kind of stuck at the end… when I start to write… it started to turn kind of humor –sweatdrop- Well it is done to the best of my extent. In the point of view of the 'person hugging Allen which will be revealed soon enough.' Written to the song "Shiver" by Maroon5.
I don't own anything.
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You build me up
You knock me down
Provoke a smile
And make me frown
You are the queen of runaround
You know it's true
I hugged him in my arms. And he leaned back into my embrace. His pale white hair cascaded upon my chest. He smelled nice, of fresh white snow. I saw his gentle face in the reflecting window. His eyes were closed and he looked angelic. His pure white hair looked like a halo from an angel in the clouds. I cast my gaze up and saw my own reflection and I frowned. I looked down and saw the top of my beloved's head and I buried my nose into his hair. I breathed in his scent and sighed in exhaustion.
"I can't believe I let you do that." I lightly murmured.
I could sense his smile as he speaks. "But you did."
I gently shook my head. "He is my best friend…"
"He is my friend too." My white hair angel smiled.
"Why did you do it?" I asked, still a bit confused.
"It was for his own good."
"Are you sure?" He nodded. I merely just shook my head as my grip on his waist loosens. "Don't let me go." He commanded quietly as he twists his body around so that he faced me.
"I won't." I gently answered him as my forehead was placed upon his. We stared into each other's eyes; I couldn't help as a smile creep on to my face.
"I don't know how you do it." I told him.
"Do what?" He quirked his eyebrow.
"Make me smile." I answered with a sincere smile.
"Good." He grinned. I asked him with a raised eyebrow as if it was a why? He answered me with the tilt of his head. "Because you look hotter with a smile on your face."
Ignoring his previous comment, I frowned and turned towards the door.
"Come on, let's go." I took a hold of his hand and lead him out the door of the room, we previously known as Rabi's. The room was trashed, blood splattered upon its walls, and the furniture flipped and broken.
He merely just followed my lead and walked out the door, closing it behind him. We stepped into the dim hallway, our shadows stretched down the floor boards. His pale white hair glowed in the dim light; it was bright compared to my coal black hair, tied in a low ponytail at the base of my neck.
You chew me up
And spit me out
Enjoy the taste
I leave in your mouth
You look at me
I look at you
Neither of us know what to do
Our steps were silenced by the windy whispers of the leaves on the trees. Our grips on each other's hand were tight. Not wanting to let either one of us to run off, without the other.
"Kanda…" He gently whispered my name.
I looked at him questioning; through those silver grey eyes of his I could see nothing but a brick wall. I hit the end of a well. Nothing could be tell, no feelings were shared. I don't know how I ever came to terms with myself as I stared into those icy orbs.
"You do know how I feel towards Tyki, right?" He asked me with a parting of those pink lips.
"Just as you know how I feel towards Rabi." I answered evenly.
Rabi and I were best friends, whether we ever acknowledge that or not, we had feelings in between the two of us that no best friends could ever share. We know what each other was thinking even without words. We knew each other's deepest secrets but all it was were experience mixed in with curiosity. But one thing he didn't know about was the love I felt for him. I really did like him, I don't think he knew and I don't think he will ever know.
The next best thing to having your love love you back were to have your love earn the love of their life.
But I am self fish, I want Rabi for myself. But the fairy tale ended and he left with his prince. Oh well through heart aches and memories, I think I can learn to forget.
Or not.
"Alright, just didn't want any lies between us." He smiled as he interrupted my thoughts. He turned to look at those emerald grass sparkled by drops of dew.
"Too late." I looked at him; he turned and looked at me, confused.
"This relationship will never be just truths." I replied. He nodded knowingly.
There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied 'till I'm under your skin
I really do like you. I really do. Just not to the extent of what I shared with Rabi.
And I know you will always love Tyki Mikk, no matter what. You loved him with all your heart, but I don't mind because I know you will need some love, the same way I need it too. You may never love me to the extent of you loving Tyki but that's fine, I really don't mind.
Because we both share the same feelings.
We don't have anything we can do but to let them leave. The love we have left in our hearts can be spent on each other because they no longer need our love, after all they got their own to love now.
We love them and we love each other. I don't think I can ever see the wrong of loving two people at the same time. It is fair because one loves another one and one loves you and someone else. I find that perfectly balanced, nothing in this world could be as fair as that… right?
Love is a laughable thing. It can be twisted to the most dangerous thing you can find in this world. But it could be the core of why everybody is still alive. I laugh at all the lies I hear from other people.
'I love you forever.'
'I vow to be with you until the very end.'
'Trust me, I will never leave you.'
But those are what we want to hear, no matter how ridiculous it sounds.
There is no relationship in this world that has no lies. Not even ours, Allen.
Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
Not true but I believe 'em anyway
I walked towards my training grounds, with him next to me. Our breathing is even and right with the tempo of the winds. The branches and grass crunch beneath our feet, our thoughts are clouded. Suddenly he asked me.
"Why don't you talk?" He tilted his head to the side.
My lips just formed a smile without me even knowing and I answered. "Because there is nothing to say."
He nodded, content with the reason I gave him. Then he looked up and stared straight into my eyes. "Why do you love me now?"
"Because there isn't anyone else to love." I answered with a smirk. He pouted those soft pink lips and started talking again. "Will this really work out? After all we don't love each other that much; we are just using each other…" He left off.
"Who cares?" I roughly said as I pulled him deeper into my usually training area. But I continued the sentence in my head, 'who cares, we love each other the most we can, if that isn't love then I don't know what love is.'
He closed his eyes with a flutter of those long white lashes as he took in the scent of Mother Nature. The darkness that surrounded us blocked off any sounds that would interrupt this moment of calmness. He suddenly snapped his eyes open; they sparkled with enthusiasm as he looked towards me. I raised an eyebrow. He stood on his tip toes and whispered into my ear, telling me something I don't think I should ever know.
"I used to like Rabi too." He quietly told me with a laugh.
And I truly believed those words as it came out of those lips that were made to lie.
So come to bed It's getting late
There's no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race
He smirked at me and I shiver at the intense look from him. His gaze told me he wanted something, I just didn't know what. I decided to voice out my questioning.
"What do you want?" A simple question from a simple person, me.
"I want you." He simply pointed out, with a lick of his lips he reached out to me. Pulling my collar down to his eye level, he stared into my eyes with intense lust. His smirk was a mirror image of the Millennium Earl. I shiver.
He had me pinned to the wall as he pressed my lips to his. He gnawed gently on my bottom lip, making me groan as he sucked on my lip, drawing the blood to the surface, making my lips blood red. His tongue traced the outline of my lips; he pushed against my sealed lips until I gave up and let him in. He explored every inch of my wet cavern until breathing became a necessity. We both drew back just far enough to take a deep breath of air.
His hand was in my hair, pulling me down to reach those full pink lips of his while my hands held his waist firmly, preventing him from getting away.
"Your lips are swollen." He pointed out with another smirk.
"So are yours." I answered evenly, also with my own smirk on my face.
He gave me another chaste kiss on my swollen lips; I moaned as his lips left mine's too soon for my liking. I licked my lips as if to ask for more. He merely just smirked at me as he laid butterfly kisses along my neck. He sucked on my collar bone as my head was tossed back, letting him get contact of more of my skin. He gently bit my collar bones only to have me growl at him in return. He licked my skin and bit me once more, this time hard enough to draw blood. I winced as his teeth pierced my skin, I glared at him as he smirk.
"That hurts you know." I frowned.
"But you taste good." With that, he stuck his tongue out and licked up all the blood.
"Allen, you are such a sadist." I shook my head as I smelled the stench of my own blood in the air.
"But you love me for it." He smirked as he drew back, licking his lips in the process.
There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied 'till I'm under your skin
"Allen..." I gently whispered as I stared at the drawn curtains. I wasn't sure what time it was, but it has been a while since the two of us made our way back into the Black Order. I remember the hazy scene as we stumbled through the hallways, our lips upon one another and our shirts unbuttoned. No wonder why my lip is throbbing right now…
My memories continued to play a silent film of what I just did. The two of us made our way towards… it should be Allen's room. The two of us slammed the door close and locked it for extra measures. Then I think he had me pinned on the door as he bit and kissed me. He suddenly let go for everything and shoved me on to the bed, at first I was ready to react but he kneeled in between my legs and started to claw at my clothes. Things started to get hazy at that point, but I do remember seeing him with his teeth clamped on my metal zipper as he unzipped my pants with his mouth.
He was looking through his half lid eyes as gave me a smirk; I couldn't stop myself from shivering. It reminded me of a Noah, I gently shook my head. I must be imagining things then.
I slowly shifted on the bed; I looked down as I felt a weight on my chest. There sleeping peacefully was the said devil. His white hair was cast on to my chest, spread like an opened fan. A gentle smile was on his face, the curse staining his ever pale face. I smiled to myself as I brushed aside a few strands of snow white hair.
He stirred and opened his eyes, fluttering those long white lashes. "Kanda…?" His voice was heavy with sleep. He picked himself up and sat upon the bed, the plain white sheets slide off his delicate shoulder to show off his equally pale chest. He shuffled closer to me as I peeked at him through an open eye; I also saw bruises and bite marks on his body. I certainly did a number on him, I mused to myself. He started to pick at my hair, combing his fingers through my ebony strands.
I tried to wave him off but he only leaned closer to me and laid a small kiss on my cheek.
"Satisfaction: 100." He winked at me as he pulled off another white sheet and walked into the washroom with it covering his naked body. As he turned I saw claw marks on his back that must have been me too. I stared after him and as I shifted to lay more comfortable on the bed. A throb came from my back side; it took me a second to realize it but…
I was uke?!
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-evil smirk- Thanks to Saya-Sama for entertaining me with the idea of Kanda being bottom with a very "noah-ish" Allen. Thank you! –bows- I hope you guys would like it. Review and review.
On to business now, I am not sure whether I should write more for it or just stop this fic on this chapter because I am not too sure what I could write about. If you have anything you guys want me to write about for these 4 people, anymore feelings you want an in-depth understanding into. Feel free to tell me and hopefully it will spark the writer in me to do something about it.
Kuro