So I got like a bazillion reviews. --Squeee!— (27 reviews is a lot to me) so I need to update… like… fast. And this chapter will be told in Ed's point of view, in a diary.

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I spent so much time with him, and then he goes off to war. What they hell? I mean we had it great; love, sex, each other… Man, I miss him.

So I guess it's actually my fault for not telling Roy. But honestly, who would believe me? Al didn't, Riza didn't, Winry didn't, hell, I didn't. But the fact is, that man got me pregnant. How? Duh, that damn gate and all its shit decided it would be funny. Well, hope you're having a riot of laughter, because I hate life right now.

And Roy's gone. He fucking left me. Not like in the relationship, but he went to war. So now I'm all alone, and I want some pickles and cupcakes, and no one cares about how I feel! Damn them all!

So this thing has been in me for a little over 3 months. Woo. And already I can feel it moving. Is that normal? Oh, god. OMFG…… I am an atheist! What the hell is right with the world? I mean, WRONG! Wait… I need to go throw up.

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So now people keep asking me if all my eating habits are finally catching up with me. I don't think I'm that big! Honestly! But I think the people that I've told believe me now. After all, I look like Santa after a donut spree. I hope Roy comes home soon.

I got a letter from him yesterday. It was so sweet. He said he hasn't even gone out yet, but that it sucks because he's away from me. He's so sweet.

I sent Winry and Al to go get a pumpkin. Where the fuck are they? I want my damn pumpkin! No, I have to throw up.

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So I am officially having a little girl. I want to name her Nina. Yeah, it sounds stupid, but I like the name. Plus, I feel bad that- I just want to name her Nina. I was gonna name it Trisha if it was a girl, when I didn't know, but Al had to go and knock Win up. Yeah, a new Elric is born. She has grey eyes like Al, and a personality like Winry; she likes to throw stuff. But she likes me. Even if I have to sit all the time.

My doc says I am due soon. What the hell does that mean? I am due in like, 4 weeks. Yip, FOUR. And the damn kid keeps kicking me.

I miss Roy.

No letters ever since that last one. I'm getting worried.

And Al STILL hasn't gotten me that ketchup. A tomato would be nice too…

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A beautiful girl. Nina Mae Elric. I figured Roy would want to put Maes in there somewhere, so I figured, it's a girl… so there we go.

She's so beautiful. I bet every other father thinks so too, but mine is THEE prettiest baby girl on the planet. Wow, I sound like Hughes. Maybe it's a father complex or something.

I am sitting in the hospital, and Al's holding Nina. He's gotten the dad thing down. Oh well, I'll still be the better uncle.

Still nothing from Roy.

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Raising a child is so fucking hard. The late nights, the long cries during the day, and the one hour naps… the list goes on. But I don't really mind that much, I just wish I had more help.

I mean, Riza or some one might come by every other day, but that's not what I want. I want my Roy back. But the damn war is keeping him away from m-

Nina just woke up and it's kinda hard to write with her in my arms. But at least she doesn't have to feel the automail. That's long gone.

I think Trisha's birthday is coming up. We should get her something. But what, Roy?

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So Nina's 8 months old now. Man, she takes after Roy in the height department. But that's because I have to give her milk. I feel bad giving her that vile, but Win says babies need it. Man I hope she's right; I don't want my baby to like milk a lot. That'd suck.

I got a letter from Roy today. I can't believe it. He says he's written dozens of letters, but they all get lost in the mail. I feel so guilty. He also says he gets to fly. That must be fun. God, I hope he's safe.

Nina is having trouble sleeping. I'd better go before she starts to cry and I have t-

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We had the best party for Nina's 1st birthday. It was even better than Trisha's. I kick ass at throwing birthday parties.

There was a cute cake that Gracia made, and everyone from the military (that I am "friends" with) came. Havoc made sure not to smoke, and I was majorly grateful for that. I don't want any children walking around with lung cancer from those things.

No letters from Roy. But that's okay. He's probably busy saving lives and stuff.

Holy shit. I'm almost 18. And I already have a kid and I'm living on my own. I guess Win and Al are in the same situation, but they're not alone. Dammit. Why am I always alone?

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A letter from Roy came. He says that war is horrible, but he gets to fly. And he worries about me. Heh, he thinks I'm gonna go find someone else. Yeah right. Who would want a 20-year-old male with a 1 ½ year daughter? (Who by the way is mega cute)

Roy says he's coming home soon. Man, what the hell and I gonna tell him when he sees Nina? He's gonna freak out. But he says he always keeps a picture of me with him. That is so sweet. He signed it with "never forget me". How the hell could I do that?

Nina's walking! Man, she was trying to when she was barely one, but now she's practically running! She follows me everywhere, going "Dada! Wait fo me!" it's so cute.

It's time like these that I really miss Hughes. I think we would have a photo competition. Yeah, I like to take pictures. But I don't shove them in people's faces. Well, not all the time.

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I can't let Nina see me cry. But I can't hold it in, either. So Al offered to let Nina stay over at their place for a while. She can't see that her daddy's weak. I will never let her see me weak; I have to be doubly strong. But it's so hard.

The military sent me a letter. Roy's plane crashed and there are no survivors. I can't bare it. ----tears stain the paper---- He never got to see his daughter.

Or me.

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With Nina nearing the age of two, and me nearing the age of 19, I feel that we should sell the house and get a place of our own. Easier said than done. It's Roy's house. Excuse me, it WAS Roy's house. Shit, now I'm crying.

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The move was a success after all. So now we (Nina- 2, me-19) are now living in Central, that way I can be close to work.

Why does war have to be so shitty? I mean, dammit! I have tons of paperwork, and just because I'm a colonel now, doesn't mean I like doing all of it! I bet that's how Roy felt. Oh, Roy. Damn.

Nina doesn't know him. He's in tons of pictures that… that reminds me, I need to put them up… He's in tons of pictures that used to hang everywhere. I can't bear to tell her that's her other daddy. What kind of father would I be if I told her, "Hey sweetie! You were born because me and some GUY had sex! And I may look like a guy, but I have the ability to have children! WOO!" yeah, like I really want to scare her like that.

Dammit, I have to go to work. Fuck it all.

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I haven't written in a while. Guess that's because I've been so busy.

Nina started preschool. She made friends right off the bat, and she has a play date tomorrow. All her little friends are kinda weird around me, though. Like I have cooties.

And I'm a general. Whoopdee flippin' do. I hate the military. But it pays the bills. I still hate it though. And I won't let Nina get involved either. That's too much for a 3 year old. Hell, it's too much for a 12 year old, but it didn't stop me. But I had different reasons. I won't let Nina even think of them. Not my Nina.

That makes me think of Roy. Damn. I haven't thought about him in a while. But lately, shit. Lately, I've been crying at work. Dammit. Roy's made me so weak I cry. I cry for him, me, Nina, Al, Trisha… damn it sucks. Everyone still tries to cheer me up every once in a while, but… I… can't. He's everywhere. I hate being 20.

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Happy anniversary. Roy's plane crashed exactly 4 years ago. I have the day off. And I can't stop crying. ----Tears stain the page----

I can't believe it's been four fucking years, and I'm still not over it.

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Nina's been so good at school. She might skip straight to kindergarten. Heh, guess having a prodigy father comes in handy sometimes! Woops. Anyway, I've decided to make a special dinner in honor of her.

It's great to get my mind off of Roy. ---Tear spot--- But I can't get over how much Nina looks like him. The eyes, of course, are like mine; golden. But her think, beautiful hair is raven black. Just like his was.

I can't believe how big she is now. She's so smart. Like Al, though; she can read people. Man, I wish Roy was here to see her. He would love Nina. Nina Mae. My little angel.

Nina's currently enjoying her dinner, while I'm cleaning up. Apparently her day went well. She won't stop talking about it. It's so cute the way she ta-

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That was all in Ed's diary. I'm not sure exactly how Roy will respond to this… but that's for next time.

Please review! I love all of you who have, but I still like more!

---Dolly---