A/N: I decided that I would try to pump out as many chapters as I can before I leave, because 1) I'm bored, and 2) The plot is starting to bug me severely. I must write it down.

Disclaimer: I do not own NGE, blah, blah, blah.

Ch 3

The dreams…The dreams, they just repeat, over and over, inside my head…they're driving me past my limit.

I don't know how long I slept last night.

Father keeps on telling me that I won't be able to pilot EVA properly if I don't get enough sleep. The problem is, NERVE broke down nearly two months ago. I don't know what's wrong with him, but Father's been out of his mind more and more lately; Misato and Asuka too.

All that Misato does all day is sit there, re-playing his message over, and over, and over, while drinking beer and eating. Pen-Pen's over with the Class Rep, and I'm starting to think that I should just tell her to keep him.

The other day, Asuka decided that she 'hated Rei's guts more than she hated herself', and went and killed her. I tried to stop her, but she just kept screaming 'She's a doll! She's a doll! I don't want to be momma's doll! I don't want to die!'.

…Nothing in this world makes sense anymore. The world I tried so hard to uphold with Kindness and Hope is crumbling before my eyes. I honestly don't know what's been keeping me going these past couple of days.

You don't? I feel so hurt, my Shinji-kun.

It's you…I know who you are. You're the Devil, and you're God.

So, you finally found me out, my Shinji-kun. The two beings man loves and fears the most…how ironic, that they're one and the same.

You're lying! In my mind, you're only one person! You are…

What? An Angel? What a pointless term. Angels and Demons, two different beings, yet two identical beings. I wonder, why do you Humans call those creatures I sent 'Angels'? Wouldn't it make sense that, since we are perfect beings, but we fell from the 'heavens', that we are 'Demons'? Which form would you like me to take for you, my Shinji-kun? An 'Angel', or a 'Demon'?

Neither; I want you to take the form of a Human.

But, Shinji, didn't you realize it? All three of those beings, they're all one and the same. You created me, Shinji, and you killed me. Can you deal with that Fear? That Hate? That Desire?

No…no, you're lying! Just…just shut up! I don't want to hear any more of this!

…Fine. But, I warn you; I will not show myself to you until you can accept the truth.

A/N: Actually, I know exactly what I'm gonna do after this fic. I've decided that this is going to be the prequel, and once I come back, I'll post the sequel. I even have the entire plot line down in my head.

Anyways, please review? Please? I know it was probably really creepy, but you can at least say that! Say ANYTHING! Just please review?