O.k. For those of you who asked for longer chapters, this one is a couple hundred words more than the others have been. Don't get used to it though. The main reason it is so long is because it was insanely difficult to write so I didn't have the patience to pare it down.

Just to give you an idea of what I went through writing this: Originally the entire chapter was written from Addison's point of view. Then I rewrote it as a sort of half and half thing and then I rewrote it again entirely from Alex's point of view.

Reviews would be a nice way to reward me for all that hard work and so far people have been great about reviewing so keep it up. Here it is:

Chapter Six: The Moment of Truth

For a moment he thought Addison might pull away, but she didn't flinch and he soon felt her dissolving into the kiss. Slipping his fingers into her hair he tilted her face up to his and felt her lips part beneath his own. He couldn't believe she was kissing him back. In less than a minute she had conveyed a spectrum of emotions ranging from misery to anger to this. He hoped he wasn't taking advantage of her but her words echoed in his head. I just want to stop thinking about you... thinking about you... He realized she had never finished her sentence but it was enough to know that he was on her mind and to taste her lips again. He gently nudged his tongue into her mouth, tangled his fingers in her hair.

He could feel her breathing getting shallower and pulled back to let her catch her breath. Without the light from the open door, he'd had the presence of mind to close it behind him, he could barely make out her face, lips swollen, eyes glimmering in the darkness. He noted however, that her hands were still draped uselessly on her knees, reminding him of how he had frozen when she kissed him in the bar. It was incredibly satisfying to see her so immobilized and he leaned in to kiss her again.

Suddenly her hands left her knees and she grasped the collar of his scrubs. He dragged her to her feet, felt her arms snake around his neck and her body press against his as she kissed him fiercely. His needed no further encouragement. Addison was in his arms. Nothing else mattered.

There was a frantic urgency to their movements. Addison fumbled with unbuttoning her shirt while Alex unclasped her skirt and slid it down over her hips. Both garments slithered to the floor simultaneously and joined the growing pile of clothes that by now included his shirt, her lab coat and both of their pagers.

As he helped her step out of her skirt and lifted her onto the examination table Alex searched Addison's face for signs of doubt. In the darkness it was all but unreadable. He almost wished he had turned the lights on when he entered the room, but not quite. He was afraid of what he might see if he looked into Addison's eyes. If she regretted this he didn't want to know.

They didn't speak. Neither could think beyond their immediate need to get nearer, fit closer, feel deeper, kiss harder, taste more, hold on tight.

Afterwards there was a moment before either of them had breath to speak when Alex trailed his fingers over Addison's skin and watched a bead of sweat roll slowly off her shoulder. He waited for his breathing to return to normal. The sex had been intensely passionate and had left him completely exhausted. Beside him Addison, staring silently at the ceiling, looked equally fatigued. He remembered her raking her fingernails across his stomach just hard enough to send shivers through his body and leave faint red scratches on his skin. It was an incredibly hot memory but it didn't compare to simply lying next to Addison and watching her breath. He would have been happy to lie like that forever, or at least a little longer but Addison suddenly plucked his hand from her skin and slipped off the table. She wordlessly began gathering her clothes and he sighed and reached for his boxers.

They dressed in silence. As his thought process returned to normal Alex began to wonder what had happened and what exactly it meant. It worried him that she wasn't speaking. She wasn't looking at him either. He felt an overwhelming desire to hold her against his chest and stroke her hair again. He wanted to whisper to her, what? That she was beautiful? That he thought about her... constantly? It suddenly occurred to him that while she had confessed to at least thinking about him, he hadn't said a word about his feelings for her. She had let down her defenses and he had kept his mouth shut. He realized that if this was going to work out the way he wanted it to he should say something and say it soon. He was about to speak when Addison drew a long shuddering breath and broke the silence.

"Oh my god," she whispered.

"I know. That was pretty amazing," he replied hesitantly, hoping he'd guessed her meaning. He hadn't.

"No. Oh my god, Alex. How did this happen?" There was weariness and a hint of panic in her voice. "I thought you didn't want to be just another intern sleeping with your attending."

"I don't," he found himself saying. This was the moment of truth. God, Karev, don't blow it now. It suddenly occurred to him how easy it would he to just leave it at that and pretend nothing had ever happened. Her back was to him again. She was straightening her skirt. He wouldn't even have to see her face, wouldn't have to know if she was disappointed, or hurt, or worse indifferent. How badly did he really want Addison? Bad enough to tell her how he felt? Yeah... that badly.

"I mean, I don't want to be just sleeping with you," he continued. "This isn't just about sex for me."

A barely perceptible sigh slumped her shoulders before she turned to face him, drawing herself up to her full height. Suddenly there was no trace of the frantic, emotional Addison he had found minutes earlier, huddled in the dark with tears in her eyes. Suddenly she was Doctor Addison Montgomery, the woman who never lost control.

"Don't say that Alex," she said evenly. There was a hard edge to her words. "This doesn't have to mean anything." There was a long and agonizing pause before her eyes hardened, a cruel smile twisted her lips and she added, "It happened but it doesn't have to happen again."

His own words, from the supply closet. It was the cruelest thing she could have said and he could tell she knew it. She was glaring at him defiantly a slight smile still on her lips and fire in her eyes. Suddenly he was angry. She was above him. They both knew it. She was out of his league, but she had no right to toy with him like this.

"You said you couldn't stop thinking about me," he whispered icily. "I heard you say it. Are you just going to pretend that didn't happen?"

He expected her to falter but she didn't miss a beat and once again his own words left her lips and tore into him.

"What did you expect me to do?"

"This is so fucked up." He was glad he could at least pretend to be angry about it when really he was hurt and confused. He stalked past her on his way from the room and met her gaze with an angry glare. She didn't flinch, didn't turn to watch him leave. Her back was still to him as he softly closed the door.

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O.k. Hopefully you don't all hate Addison too much at the moment because I intend to explain her feelings later on. She comes off pretty bitchy here but I hope you'll be able to sympathize with her in the end.

Well I couldn't just let them get together, now could I? That would have been incredibly boring. Don't worry though. This is not going to be one of those fics that drags on forever. I have a definate idea of how I'm going to end it. In case you haven't noticed so far the only two characters have been Alex and Addison. Well that is about to change. The next chapter is from Mark's point of view and should be up in a few days. I will also be bringing in some Derek and a tiny little bit of Christina, George, Merideth and maybe Izzie.

Feelings of inadequicy about having only one story posted along with incredible amounts of frustration with writting this chapter have led me to do a couple oneshots and start working on some other stories. I'll probobly have them up in the next couple of days so check them out.

O.k. That's all for now.