Chapter four: Please…. Take me instead

"Kou-chan! Calm down! He's dead!" Junpei shouted, holding back his lover. 'Seeing him would only make you more upset!" he added, keeping his hold on his hysterical boyfriend.

Kouichi tried to break free to see his son, tears still streaming down his cheeks. "You don't care about him do you?!! You're not even sad or anything that he's gone!" he screamed, still squirming in his boyfriend's arms. Ishizu let out a small sigh, walking over to the drawer to find a tranquilizer to calm Kouichi down. "NO! Kyoshi-chan!" he shouted, he had already named the baby a week ago… sure he didn't tell Junpei yet, since he thought he wouldn't like the name. But still… he thought it was a cute name for their son. 'Wake up! Wake up!"

"He's dead. He's never waking up" Junpei said simply, making sure he didn't let go. He's breaking down… I should have made him get rid of the baby when he first told me he was pregnant…. He thought, letting out a small sigh.

Kouichi finally broke free of his lover's hold, sliding off the stretcher and went over to where his baby was. He was beautiful… he had raven colored hair like Kouichi… the teen opened one of his son's eyes for a moment to see what color it was… dark brown… like Junpei's… the teen leaned in, giving his son a kiss on the cheek. "Wake up Kyoshi-chan… please wake up… please…" he pleaded as his tears fell down onto the baby's face. He froze for a moment, seeing the child move his hand slightly… "Kyo…shi-chan?" he whispered quietly, and then turned to Ishizu. "Sensei! Sensei! My baby! He's moving!" he shouted, with a small smile on his face.

Ishizu and a nurse or two went over to the newborn, seeing if it was alive. "Impossible Kimura-kun… he was born dead!" she exclaimed, as Junpei pulled Kouichi back.

"I told you that you shouldn't see him… we can always have another…" Junpei whispered, kissing along his lover's neck.

"It would never replace our first born Jun-chan… I want Kyoshi-chan…. I want him" the teen whispered, biting his lower lip.

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"What is going on in there? Kouichi-kun was screaming…." Takuya muttered, scratching the back of his head. "And It wasn't because of childbirth… I know that much…"

Kouji shrugged, putting his hands in his pockets. "They won't let us in… or tell us anything" he said with a small sigh, looking down at the blue tilted floor. Nii-san… I'm worried about you…

Izumi rose to her feet… standing on the chair in the waiting room. "Come on! We should get in anyway! Kou-chan's upset, and if it has to do with the baby we should be there for him and Junpei-kun!" the blond exclaimed, clenching her fist triumphantly, as she hopped off the seat and started to the room. She came back to the waiting room with a doctor holding her by the back of her pink long-sleeved shirt, telling her she wasn't allowed there. "Oh damn… we have to sneak in…" she said with a wicked grin.

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"Jun-chan! I told you he moved! I'm not crazy!" he shouted, wanting his lover to loosen his grip on his wrist.

"Kou-chan… you're just imagining things… a child who was born dead can't live at all…." Junpei replied with a small sad sigh.

"No! I didn't do anything that could have killed him! I didn't smoke! I didn't drink! I didn't do any shit that was bad for him!" he shouted, "He has to be alive! They're just something wrong with him! He has to live!"

Ishizu glanced at the two as the nurses tried to help the baby, "the causes of still borns are unknown… you didn't do anything wrong, Kimura-kun…."

Kouichi stayed silent, staring at the floor as a few more tears ran down his cheeks. This is just a nightmare…. I'll wake up soon and everything would be alright… Kyoshi-chan would be safe in my arms… and everything would be perfect… please….. He thought, as he sat back down on the hospital bed. "Kyoshi-chan… Kyoshi-chan…" he whispered, Why did you have to take Kyoshi-chan…. Why not me… he's only a baby… he thought, as if he was talking to God right now. I hate you… I hate you… you took him away…

Please…. Just take me instead

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Yeah, he's kinda freakin' out right now… well wouldn't any Mama… err Papa…? I'm a little unsure how to end it but I'll just go with the flow D