Author's note: I just wanted to let all of you know, this is my first fan fiction. I will try not to get OOC with any of these characters, and this starts a month or two after New Moon. (I know it sounds like all the rest of the stories, but I haven't read one like mine yet) Thoughts heard by Edward in italics

I'll try to post a few short lines of song lyrics that I think fit the chapters. If you have any suggestions, I'd like to hear them.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, I wish I did, but it belongs to Mrs. Meyer, and I cannot take credit for it. All I can take credit for are my ideas.

"You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me"

Because You Loved Me – Celine Dion

Edward's POV

I thought bitterly about the conversation we had just had. Bella once again begged me to change her, and for some reason this time I was thinking about it. I sighed lightly and laid my head gently on her hair as she slept lovingly in my arms.

"Edward, please, I love you…" She mumbled in her sleep, and I held in my breath. Even in her dreams she had no desire not to be a vampire. I couldn't make this decision now, so I decided to skim the thoughts of the others in this house to take my mind off of things.

That thought was short-lived. They had all heard my argument with Bella earlier, no doubt, and that was on all of their minds.

He should just change her already, we all know it's what they both want, and I'll have my own shopping buddy Barbie doll for the rest of FOREVER. I hope you heard that Edward. Alice thought.

I don't know why, but ever since I met Bella I've found that she is the only human that does not tempt me, maybe she did towards the beginning, but I've gotten better. Maybe I'll hug her tomorrow even; I bet she feels like I dislike her… I hope Edward didn't just hear that… I chuckled softly at Jasper's thoughts, then I heard him from down the hall say "Well, I was hoping you didn't hear that, but I guess my hopes are short-lived my brother."

Hmm. Maybe if I lent Bella one of my 'alone time with Emmett' outfits Edward would be lusting after her enough to change her? I DO want her as a sister, I like her very much more than I thought I would… Only Rosalie would think that if Bella could make me lust after her enough I'd cave in.

Edward, I hope you can hear me, I want my little sister soon or else I'll have to kick your butt… or I could throw your Volvo—WOW. Rose looks hott, I wonder how long it'll take to get her-- Uck. I pulled my mind out of Emmett's thoughts before his head went totally in the gutter.

I wonder why Bella won't let me change her… it would be quicker since that boy is so darn stubborn. Those were Carlisle's thoughts of course.

Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, I know you can hear me and I want my daughter soon. Wow, Esme must like Bella a lot more than I thought she did; which is definitely saying something.

I decided since Bella would not wake for a while that I'd browse through Jasper's thoughts… They were by far the most intellectual (other than Carlisle, who had long ago learned to block his mind).

I snickered at what I heard and I knew that Jasper was too preoccupied to be thinking logically. Eww; I can't tell those two to get a room, they are in one, maybe I should tell them to get a separate state so I don't have to feel all that lust; but maybe… Alice darling—

I sighed heavily and turned back to my dear Bella. It was undeniable; I wanted her so badly it hurt. Yet how could I tear her away from a life that I knew she loved? She then mumbled, "Edward, you and your family are the most important things in my life… most important." Then she rolled over in my arms. I smiled a little to myself, even in her sleep she always had the answers.

"Alice." I called lightly, and I could tell she was already right outside my door. Sorry Jasper, I'm stealing her for a little chat. I thought as she glided in. Her face was beaming and I could tell she already knew. I looked at her for a fraction of a second and said "Vision." It was not a question.

She shook her head and smiled. "This is going to be so fun!" she said in her 'soprano voice' as Bella called it.

I shot her a look and said, "And how are the next few days going to be fun?" I spat at her.

"You'll see, and I know you'll love it." She said and then glided through the door and back to Jasper, no doubt.

I stared down at my angel who had come to me from the havens and I knew I would soon damn her for eternity.