CHAPTER 16 - Too Hard To Feel, Too Hard To Say
Brooke had never liked to be left alone with her thoughts, so instead of wallowing in the mistake she'd made by accusing Lucas of something she didn't really think he'd done, she got her books together and headed to class. However, when she'd actually got to class she realised that there wasn't any point in being there because all she could think about was Lucas, and how she should be at his dorm right now apologising. The bell rang out and broke Brooke from her thoughts, she collected up her things and made her way to her locker where she was met once again with Haley
"So, have you been to see him?" Haley asked, knowing that Brooke would have too at some point
"Who?" Brooke shrugged it off like she didn't understand what Haley was saying
"Err, Lucas" Haley replied, obviously
Brooke sighed and shut up her locker before turning to Haley "I said some pretty horrible stuff, he probably doesn't even wanna see me"
"Are you kidding?" Haley tried to get Brooke to focus upon her and what she was saying "He'd take you back in a second" she smiled at the brunette "Go talk to him, he's worth it isn't he?"
"Yeah. Yeah, he is" Brooke nodded and gave a sight smirk "I'll go see him after class" she thanked Haley for her support and walked away, thinking everything was going to sort itself out and by the end of the day she'd be happy again. But, Rachel, hearing every word that had just been exchanged between the two had different ideas
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Lucas stepped out of the shower, and wrapped a towel around his waist before grabbing another towel and quickly drying his now spiky blonde hair with it. He exited the bathroom, and walked through the empty dorm to his bedroom and it was there that he was met with the shocking image of Rachel sprawled out half naked on his bed, he instantly turned away and gripped the towel around his waist firmer, as to make sure not to drop it and reveal something he really didn't want Rachel seeing.
"What the hell are you doing?" he yelled aggressively with his head still turned in the other direction, and his eyes half shut "Put your clothes on!" he demanded, collecting the items of clothing that belonged to her and tossing them over in her direction
"You know what Lucas? you can fight it all you want but I know you want me" she informed him, whilst sliding back into her denim skirt
"Oh my god" a voice came from behind Lucas, and he didn't have to turn round to know who it belonged too "Nice Luke…that's real nice" Brooke shot Lucas a look of pure hatred before turning and leaving the door she wished she hadn't entered just moments ago
"No, Brooke!" Lucas followed her out of the dorm, still dressed in nothing but a towel. He did have to admit that what Brooke had just walked in on didn't look good, but he hadn't done anything wrong and surely he could convince her of that "That wasn't how it looked" he said, reaching for her arm and spinning her around to face him
Brooke gritted her teeth hard "I cant believe I was so dumb to think you'd actually changed!" she pointed her perfectly manicured nail to the tip of his nose
"I have changed" he tried to convince her "Please just hear me out" he pleaded as he saw her itching to walk away
"Well go on then!" she screamed back at him, knowing that whatever he had to say wouldn't change her mind about what she'd just seen
"I got out of the shower…and she was just laid out on my bed" he told her the only truth he could before she rolled her eyes "Nothing happened alright, I would never do that to you" his tone became stronger as he could see her slipping away from him "I'm not like him, Brooke. I'm not Wayne!" he could almost envision her thoughts, and so could see how she was comparing him to her cheating ex-boyfriend
"No, he was man enough to admit to his mistakes" she glared at him like he was scum "Don't follow me, don't call me, don't even talk to me. From now on were strangers" she acted like he meant nothing to her, all the while she knew he meant everything and that's why it hurt even more to walk away
"Brooke, please!" he shouted after her like he'd done so many times before "Brooke!" he yelled once again, knowing that he couldn't move another inch, not dressed in just a towel "I love you" he whispered under his breath as her tiny figure finally disappeared from his view
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It was the first time since Lucas could remember that he didn't actually want to be around his buddies, that he didn't want to talk about the latest 'totty' or who won last nights football game. The truth was he didn't care about any other girl, and he hadn't bothered to watch last nights football game, all he'd done lately was think about Brooke. He tried to shut it out, he really did but the more he tried to forget, the more he ended up remembering.
Whilst standing over at his locker, Lucas noticed Rachel and Chris deep in conversation, like they were plotting something, which Lucas only just realised that they were "You just cant stand to see anyone happy, can you?" Lucas spat at Rachel as she brushed past him after she finished talking to Chris
"Excuse me?" the red head talked to him seductively
"You and Keller…you set me up" he stated, becoming increasingly angry "You knew Brooke was coming over so you thought you'd mess with her head" Lucas kept his voice low, but his tone cruel
Rachel rolled her eyes, and rested her shoulder on the locker beside Lucas' "So, I lied" she admitted "What's the big deal" she shrugged it off "What's so special about Brooke anyway? She's just a regular chick, well except for the few extra pounds…" she smiled at her own humour but Lucas didn't seem amused in the slightest "She's just like everyone else, she's just like me…" Rachel spoke coolly, like Lucas attitude didn't affect her
"She's nothing like you!" Lucas yelled as he slammed his locker door shut "I don't want you Rachel, I never have and I never will" he leaned into her aggressively
"The only person I ever wanted cant even bear to look at me, and that's all your fault!" he could feel his body heating up, and the rage building inside him "So, why don't you surprise us all, do something good for a change…put it right!!" he glared at her with disgust before shaking his head and walking away
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In the last few days all Lucas had gotten from Brooke was coldness. He'd tried to talk to her so many times, 16 to be exact, but every time he tried to do so she'd just shun him. He didn't blame her though, no matter how much she'd tried to hide it, he could still see she was insecure about what happened with Wayne and now, as far as she was concerned he'd done the same thing. He loved her, he knew that now, he just didn't know how to tell her, he'd never feared anything in his life, but what he was feeling now scared him more than he could ever had imagined. He sat at the outdoor lunch table alone, it wasn't often he was alone but right now he didn't care, the only thing he did care about was sat across the courtyard from him, and she was talking to the thing he couldn't care less about, Chris Keller. Little did he know, that Brooke hated Chris just as much as he did, and the conversation they were having wasn't one full of sexual tension, well not on Brooke's part anyway, she hated Chris just as much as she wanted to hate Lucas
"So, I heard what happened between you and Lucas…" Chris sat down next to Brooke "Now that you've got him out of your system, I think its time you got a real man" he flirted much to Brooke's displeasure
"What? Like you?" she scoffed
"Hey, if that's what you want, I'm not gonna argue" he cocked one of his eyebrows and moved in closer
"Go to hell" the clearly irritated brunette shot back at him. Chris knew he'd get a cold reaction from Brooke, but that didn't stop him from coming over to her, he knew it'd anger Lucas and that's exactly the reason he turned and smiled over at him. Meanwhile, Lucas knew if he continued to stare at the sight in front of him, he'd crack and when Chris purposely smirked over at him he couldn't stand it any longer.
He threw his things to the ground and ran over to Chris, he grabbed him by the scruff of the neck and lifted him from his seat before punching him and knocking him to the ground "Tell her the truth!" Lucas handled the situation the only way he knew how
"I don't know what your talking about, man" Chris pretended to be oblivious to what Lucas was referring too
"You twisted son of a bitch!" Lucas leant over him, and began punching him once again, whilst Chris didn't make any attempt to fight back
"Do you honestly think this is gonna help?" Brooke screamed, grabbing Lucas from off of Chris
"Tell her what you did!" Lucas shouted down at Chris, who was still laid on the floor, blood pouring from his lip
Brooke threw her arms by her sides and span Lucas around to face her "Whatever he did…he didn't force you sleep with Rachel" she stated bluntly, and stopped him before he had a chance to deny it "You think this is the answer to everything don't you? You think by beating the crap out of someone, you'll get what you want" she screamed at him, whilst the tears threatened to fall "You wont, Lucas. Not from me anyway" she said, more calmly before staring into his eyes. She wanted him to say something meaningful to her, she wanted him to do something to surprise her. She wanted him to tell her he loved her there and then, in front of the many people that had gathered around for the fight, she wanted him to just forget about his reputation for just one second but she knew that was impossible for someone like him. And, as he turned away and walked back through the crowds she knew that his pride was more important than anything he ever felt for her.
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