The Aftermath of a Deal by Nehebka
Chapter 2 Torn Apart
Alex entered the NICU where Addison was checking on a baby.
"Hey, I've heard that you've got an amazing surgery today and I'd really like to scrub in if at all possible", said Alex.
She didn't listening him, she was staring off into space. When she realize he was looking at her expecting an answer she snapped out of the trance she was in. "What?"
"Are you ok?" asked Alex concerned.
"Yeah" said but he raised his eyebrow not believing her. "Well, I've had better days" she confessed.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he said as he pushed a strand of Addison's hair back behind her ear.
"Not today Karev" answered Addison.
"If you change you mind, you know where you can find me" said as she was leaving the room.
Once in the corridor, Addison saw Derek walking in her direction. She turned around only to run into Mark.
"Addie, I've been looking for you" Mark said. "We need to talk".
"No we don't, it's all been said… and done"
"Please!" Mark's voice was pleading causing her to turn around.
"What do you want to talk to me about?"
Mark shifted uncomfortably "I ...I know…" he finally said
"You know what?" she asked raising an eyebrow and sighed. "Look Mark, I need a little time to take some space and clear my head" said as she turned around and left.
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That day Alex didn't saw Addison again. He was concerned about her. He knew something was wrong and that she was far from fine.
"Hey, have either of you seen Dr Montgomery?" asked at two nurses.
"Not since this morning" answered one.
"Yeah, an hour ago I saw her. It seemed that something was bothering her. She told me everything was ok, that she just needed some fresh air. But I think she went upstairs to drink-"
"No way" the other nurse interrupted her.
"Yeah, although she tried to hide it I saw she was holding a bottle and-"
"Ok ladies thanks for the information" said Alex and left.
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At the rooftop, Addison looked down at the cars below.
"Dr Montgomery?What are you doing out here?, it's freezing!" Alex asked concerned as he opened the rooftop's door and found her there.
"Karev, hi! Well I felt the need to do some drinking. Actually, I felt the need to do some crying, but my tear ducts seem to be too proud, so I decided to do some drinking instead" she said pointing the bottle she was drinking.
"You're drunk" he said to himself. "Do you want to - " Alex asked slowly.
"Talk about it?" Addison finished Alex's sentence. She glanced down at her hands and the bottle she was holding.
"Okeeey" she said. "You wanna know what I figured out?", she said staggering around the rooftop with the bottle in her hand. "My life…is a joke." She slammed the bottle down. "A biiiig joke."
"I think you had enough", Alex replied as he tried to take the bottle from her hands and stop her pacing but she pushed him away. "Come on, it's getting cold, we should get inside"
"No!" Addison protested as she ran her hands swiftly and hastily through her hair. "I'm not going anywhere." She said as she took another long gulp. "My life is a mess. Seeing him and her, it's overwhelming. And then there's Mark and our stupid deal which he couldn't hold out. Isn't that the most ridiculous piece of crap that you've ever heard?" she said as she start sobbing.
He approached her and gently lifting her chin to look at him. She turned away from him, looking down at the ground as she shrugged.After hiccupping a little she regained her balance and raised again the bottle to her lips.
He stared at her for a minute before replying heatedly. "Okay." Alex backed off. "It's okay."
"Don't tell me that!" Addison raised her voice. "Don't say it's okay. Don't do that. Don't…don't do that." She mumbled disoriented. "I-I". She paused, rubbing her temples. "I'm sorry…I-I" she winced.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I just um…I'm kind of dizzy all of a sudden… ". She felt herself growing faint. It became harder to breathe…harder to stand. Alex caught her as she collapsed at the door
"I gotcha, I gotcha", he said with relief.