Edward's Point Of View
I jumped from Bella's window and just ran. I had to get away; get away before I could make myself turn back. I blocked my mind of thoughts. Thoughts of Bella's body, her stomach, her breasts. I couldn't go back. I didn't know if I had the self control to stop if we got going. I never believed that there could be a stronger desire than the one I felt for Bella's blood. But I could feel it now. It coursed through my essence, making me gasp, torturing me. I wanted Bella's body. The want was so bad that I cried out. Oh, god, the agony. But I couldn't turn back. No, I couldn't do that to Bella. Innocent Bella. Run, just run. Oh, god, her face. She pleaded with me, begging me to keep going. Oh, how I wanted to. How I wanted to be inside her. No I thought, mentally slapping myself, Not Bella.
Carlisle Point Of View
My son crashed into the house, his face contorted with pain. I was at his side in a moment.
"Edward, what's wrong?" A gasp escaped his lips.
"Bella." He moaned. I felt my chest clench.
"What, Edward, what? Is she hurt?" I whispered, feeling relief when Edward shook his head. Alice was suddenly by my side.
"Alice what's wrong with him?" I asked her, lifting Edward into my arms. His eyes were closed, his eyelids fluttering. Alice closed her eyes, opening them in a flash.
"oh." She murmured.
"What is it?" I was beginning to become nervous. Alice eyed Edward for a moment.
"I Saw Edward and Bella having…Sex."
"No!" Edward moaned again, beginning to shake. I looked at him. Then I turned to raise my eyebrows at Alice. She shook her head.
"No, she was still human." I felt my mouth hang open. How was that possible? The blood lust would be… unbearable. Not to mention that he could kill her if he wasn't paying attention when he touched her.
"Did he bite her?" I asked urgently. Edward began to shake harder. Alice shook her head.
"Not Bella!" Edward roared, and then collapsed.
"What happened?" Alice asked, staring down at Edward's blank face. Oh. Edward had realized as I had, the dangers of... intercourse with bella. He knew he would hurt her if they… slept together. He would never do that to Bella. But the want. It was breaking him.
"He wants her, but he knows it can't happen without him hurting her." I told Alice.
Edward's eyes flickered.
"Carlisle?" he whimpered. I nodded to him,
"I'll… I'll hurt her. I know. But I want her. I want it so bad it hurts." I nodded again. He gasped in a breath.
"Shit!" Alice muttered, opening her eyes. I looked at her questioning.
"I keep seeing it happen. In the car, on his couch, in her room, in some meadow…" Alice voice trailed away, and we both turned to look at Edward. He was shaking his head.
"I Won't! Alice, tell me I won't. Tell me I stop." Alice shook her head yet again.
"It just looks so... clear." She told him, her eyes full of sadness for his pain.Edward moaned again.
"But I'll hurt her." He sobbed. I looked at Alice. But what could we do.
Bella's Point Of View
Edward hadn't been back since that night. Fear filled me. I didn't mean for it to go so far. I… it just felt so right. Like the ring. I didn't want it to stop.
The morning after Edward fled out of my bedroom window he didn't come to pick me up. Okay, I tried to calm myself down, maybe something came up. I drove to school slowly. Deep inside I knew he wouldn't be there. But I couldn't crush the hope. He wasn't. I felt my heart break. None of the Cullens where there. I began to hyperventilate. Did they…Leave? No! He promised. Fear began to consume my body. Maybe their just on a hunting trip.Yeah… that was it. He would come over later.
He didn't. Oh god. He left me. No. he wouldn't. He said he loved me. He asked me to marry him! He wouldn't. He loves me. Then where is he? I couldn't take it any longer. I would have to go see for myself. I groaned, knowing I would not be able to go until morning. Charlie would hear my truck from a mile off. I lay on my bed, making plans until fatigue took over and I feel into restless sleep.
In the morning I faked cramps, purposefully taking Charlie out of his element. He tentatively called me out of school and asked, with embarrassment, if I needed him to take the day of work. I told him no, that I would be fine. It was a girl thing. Charlie left the house in more of a rush than usual. I showered and dressed quickly. Leaving a "buying tampons" note to Charlie in case he came home early to check, I rushed out of the house, grabbing the key to my truck. Sliding into the cab, I couldn't help but think that he might be gone already.
Edward's Point Of View
Bella. I felt my body coil at the thought of her, pushing me deeper into my daydream. Bella sat alone in her truck, beckoning to me. I moved closer opening the truck door, pushing her against the opposite side. She began to moan as I …
"Edward." Alice's voice interrupted my sexual fantasy.
I lifted my head from it perpetual place on my couch, staring at Alice. Suddenly Bella walked from behind her, he brow eyes wide with fear. Her beautiful brown eyes. So innocent. Sensual. God, I want her. Look at her shirt. Is she trying to tempt me? Just one touch …STOP. Bella looked at Alice, her eyes widening. Alice nodded in encouragement, turning to leave. I sat up quickly.
"Alice, you can't leave me alone with her!" I pleaded.
"I think you have more self-control than you give yourself credit for." Alice said.
"I. HAVE. NO. SELF. CONTROL!" I roared, sending Bella quivering against the wall. Alice just turned on her dainty heels and left.
Don't look at her I thought to myself lowering my head back to the awaiting cushion, closing my eyes. She looks amazing, so seductive. Look at her skin, so pale against the blue shirt. Like the skin on her… I felt a tentative finger on my shoulder. I didn't want to open my eyes. To feel what I know I would when I looked at her. I kept them shut.
"Edward?" Bella's beseeching voice floated to me. Oh, her voice. Like music. I wonder what it tastes like. Oh, just one taste. I moaned aloud.
"Edward, do you… I'm sorry about… I … I just thought you wanted…" her voice trailed of at my lack of response. If only she knew how much I wanted it. How much I wanted her. I knew I wasn't going to be able to handle it much longer
"Bella..." my voice cracked, "I think you should leave." I heard her intake of breath.
"What did I do Edward…Please, tell me!" her voice was desperate. I despised the thought of telling her how…wanting I was. She would be disgusted. But I couldn't let her blame herself. Taking a deep breath I sat up, still not opening my eyes.
"You did nothing, Bella." I whispered to her, hearing the deep feeling in my words.
"Then why won't you look at me, Edward." I could hear her tears. Oh god no. she so beautiful when she cries. I unclenched my eyelids.
"Because, you're too exquisite Bella." I muttered. Suddenly, Bella's face was twisted in hysteria. She didn't get it. She didn't feel it. What I felt every time I looked at her. Her face. Her body. Her curves. Her lips, her luscious lips…
"What are you talking about? Is this some prelude to 'I don't love you Bella'? Is that what this is? GOD EDWARD! YOU ASKED ME TO MARRY YOU!! DAMIT,YOU PROMISED ME ETERNITY!" I watched as her anger faded, only to be replaced by sadness. "You promised." Tears fell endlessly from her eyes. Suddenly I couldn't take it any more. I pulled her onto the couch, pushing her back against one of the arms. She looked at me, confused, gasping as I pushed my lips on hers. Yes, god yes. I needed more of her. I found myself slipping my hands under her shirt, unhooking her bra. I looked at her, begging. Slowly, uncertainly, she lifted her arms. That was all I needed. In haft a second, her top haft was bare. I moaned, leaning my head down to her erect nipples. I grabbed one into my mouth, caressing it with my tongue. More. I ran my hands lower and lower.
"Edward…" My name escaped her swollen lips. I froze. But I knew. If Bella said she wanted it, I knew that Alice's vision was about to come true.
"Bella, do you…" I trailed off hoping she understood. I felt a shudder roll down her back.
"Keep going Edward." She whispered.
"Okay." I murmured, beginning to kiss my way down her body lingering at her pelvis. Bella moaned, running her hands down my chest. I pulled of my shirt, pushing my chest against hers. Her hands reached down to unbutton my pants, pushing them down. In a swift movement I kicked them off. It took haft a second more for me to completely undress her. God, she's Beautiful. I wrapped my hands around her ass, my erection hovering just above her opening. Bella screamed out my name, begging me to come into her. I thrust my penis down, felling her shudder as it traveled down her wet passage way.