"It's like I want you when I can't have you, and when I can have you, I don't want you."

I helped Nate and Lucas get the house ready for the party after I got home from lunch. We moved all of the expensive furniture out of the way so there was more opened space and less of a chance that things would get wrecked.

I went with Nathan to get drinks from the convenience store. I waited in the car.

Nathan walked back out with a few cases of beer and several bottles of vodka in different flavors. I was in shock at how much he had gotten.

He got into the car and saw my face. "Fake ID. My name is Harold according to this bad boy," he patted his pocket where his ID was peeking out of.

When we got back to the house, Rachel was there with Lucas. You could here her giggling from the back room. Nathan and I walked in on Lucas tickling her on the couch.

"Clearly, you've been productive since we left," Nathan commented while putting out the drinks.

"Well, I can't keep my hands off this one," Lucas said looking at me. Jealousy hit me instantly. "She's just so gorgeous!"

Rachel laughed and got up. "Let me help you," she said to Nathan, winking.

"It's fine, I got it," I said easing between the two. She already had Lucas and she was not getting Nathan too.

"Fine..." she said nastily, she then coughed saying, "bitch."

Rachel was definitely top of my list of the girls I did not like here. I helped Nathan set up drinks and cups.

"The only rule is don't be boring and dress cute wherever you go. Life is too short to blend in."

It was party time. The house was filled, the music was loud. I had been in my room getting dressed. I wanted to make my appearance a little later than everyone got there. I had a short black dress on. I walked down the staircase to see Nathan at the end of it.

"Holy shit, you look... incredible... seriously," he said sincerely.

"Thanks," I said flattered. I felt myself blush. "You look great too," I said honestly. At first, you wouldn't be able to tell that Nathan and Lucas weren't both assholes, but Nathan was clearly the sweeter brother. He had his asshole side, which was a turn on, but he was nice. Lucas on the other hand was always an ass.

I walked through the house with everyone saying hi to me and telling me how great I looked. I needed a drink desperately. I got to the makeshift bar and poured myself vodka with orange juice. Lucas was at the other side of the table eyeing me. We made eye contact and he raised his eyebrows at me. I smiled back at him. I wanted to make peace with him. He was being so selfish by being mad for me turning down having sex with him. Him being mad was ridiculous. I walked over to him.

"Ready to forgive me yet?" I said as I reached him.

"Depends, ready to give it up yet?" he smirked as he pulled me closer.

"Not just yet, maybe in the future though," I flirted. I took a gulp of my drink. Was I ready to lose my virginity? I had always imagined it being with someone I cared about, but Lucas was so... tempting. Exciting. Experienced. I finished my drink. Showing Lucas the empty cup, I said, "I'm gonna go get another. Don't move."

He nodded and spanked me playfully as I walked to the other side of the table. I poured myself another drink and chugged it. I walked back over to Lucas, the alcohol hitting me.

"So, Rachel, huh?" I said.

"Yeah, she's good in bed," he shrugged as if it was no big deal.

"Why won't you just let yourself fall for someone?" I said, the room beginning to spin a little.

"No one in this town is worth it," he sneered.

"It's 'cause of that Brittany girl, right?" I said knowing he would flip out, but I needed to know.

"Brittany is none of your business," he said angrily slamming his fist on the table.

"Give someone a chance. People suprise you." I walked away to go find Nathan. I saw him standing with Haley and another girl who's name I didn't know. I sidled up to him.

"Hey gorgeous," I said downing my third drink in five minutes.

"Hey," he put his arms around my waist.

"Hey Haley, where's Tim?" I whispered but loud enough so everyone around me could hear.

"He's on his way, I think..." Haley said looking around the room.

I tugged on Nathan. "Come with me," I said.

He nodded and followed me. I walked outside the house, into the backyard by the pool, with him right behind me. We were standing in front of the back brick wall of the house. I leaned up against him and pulled him close. I could feel him breathing over me.

"What are you doing, Brooke?" he said seriously, still leaning over my face.

"You," I said and giggled.

He sighed. "Brooke, I care about you. When you're ready to grow up and can go out without getting wasted or rotating between me and my brother, you let me know who you really want." He walked away.

I stood there in shock. I suddenly felt myself get sober and decided I was done partying for the night. I went back into my room, undressed, put on shorts and a big t-shirt, closed my door and watched TV. Tears began to fall down my face.

Who did I want?

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Once again, thanks for all the great reviews! I really like this story, so I'm gonna focus on it until I get more readership on "Remember Me" (the sequel to "It's The Heart That Brings You Back"). This is more fun to write and a lighter read than the other. SOOO, when I get more reviews on those stories, I'll continue writing them! Thanks for all the people who do review!