Disclaimer: There was one in the last Chap.

"It doesn't shine as brightly anymore. I'm sitting alone in bed right now, waiting for James to come home. I noticed the pendent on my neck and just watched it for awhile. Maybe it still is glowing as much as it used to. Maybe the outside of the pendent is dirty or old and that's why it looks dull. Or maybe I'm just trying to hide the fact that it's not shining as brightly as it did that night.

I remember the first time I ever saw the pendent. That night was a first time for a lot of things. I wrote about it in my last journal but I lost that one a long time ago. But I want to keep that night written because it was one of the most important nights of my life. I remember it so well, when I think about it, it seems like I can just relive it.

I sat at the edge of the lake and was very close to tears. James, my loving boyfriend of almost two years, had been ignoring me lately. Every time I tried to talk to him, he would find some excuse to leave or just give me one word answers. This was too much to bear for me. Or worse, what if he was seeing someone else? I wouldn't be able to bear that. I would probably kill myself if that happened. I knew I loved James. I had never said the words and neither had he but he had to love me! If he didn't I wouldn't be able to go on. I used to be the little loner bookworm. I had never had many friends. I always thought school was more important. Then James started to pay attention to me and he became my one friend. And when he first asked me to go to Hogsmade with him, on a date, I felt like I could fly. Almost immediately I knew he was the one I would be with forever.

I heard a noise behind me that broke my train of thought. Footsteps. I turned to see James walking over to me and I panicked. I tried to relax and look as normal as possible. James reached me and put a hand on my shoulder. "Can I talk to you?" he asked.

I felt my heart breaking. This was it. He was going to break up with me. I numbly followed him as he led me around the castle. I wasn't aware of anything around me and I couldn't feel anything except the pain of the situation. He finally stopped and I stopped and looked around. There was nothing special or anything. The castle wall was to my right and the Forbidden Forest on my left. There was a little area of grass in between and that's where James and I were.

James took a deep breath. "Ok. Here we are." He said. I was still out of it and had no idea why this area was where we needed o be. Then James took out his wand and started waving it and muttering. Suddenly, there was a door in the middle of the little field. It wasn't very special. Just a wooden door with a few carvings in it. But why a door? It didn't seem to do anything or lead anywhere. James opened it and ushered me inside. I was definitely not prepared for what I saw. It seemed to be a little area surrounded by a hedge of roses. I was so unprepared that I fell to my knees on the grass. But the grass didn't feel like grass. It felt more like a carpet of silky strands. James sat down next to me.

"Are you alright?" he asked worriedly. I nodded as he picked me up and led me to a little black garden bench and sat me down. "This place is totally privet. No one else can see it or hear through it or get inside it without me." he said.

Now I was really confused. This place was so beautiful and nice, and James had apparently worked very hard to make it. Is this really the type of place people break up in? Maybe he wanted me to be in a nice privet place to cry. I took a deep breath and braced myself.

"Lily," he said putting his hands on mine. "As you know it's been about two years we've been together. Two years of wonderful events with you But I think it might have to change." He said gripping my hands. I was so scared. He was really going to dump me! "Lily," he said looking in my eyes. "I love you."

I sat there looking at him dumbly. That was defiantly not what I expected. Maybe I heard him wrong. "What?" I asked.

He looked at me again with a grin. The grin that made my heart melt. "I love you." He repeated.

I sat in shock for a few more seconds trying to sort out what he had just said. Those three simple words were tangling my mind into millions of knots. "I… I…" Oh it was so hard to say anything! James just smiled and pulled a little box from his pocket. He held it out to me and I took it and opened it.

I had to squint to see properly. Whatever was in the box was shining with an unmatchable brightness. My eyes adjusted to the light and I saw the pendent. It was emerald green and shaped like a heart. It had silver strands running across it and the inside… I wasn't sure what the inside was. It looked like there was a sort of fire in the emerald. I saw that it was the fire that was emitting the glow.

"That flame," said James pointing to it, "Do you know what that flame is?" he asked. I shook my head as I was at a loss for words at the moment. "That flame is pure love. My love." He said. "That's why it's glowing so much. Because I love you." He had repeated the words. I was still trying to process all of this. He showed me his hand. He was wearing a ring that seemed to be the same type of emerald as the necklace I was holding. Only his wasn't shining. I panicked for the hundredth time that night. I loved him! I knew I did! But why wasn't his glowing?

"You need to say it." He said answering my unasked question. I looked at him stunned. His grin faltered. "Y-you need to say you love me to activate it." He said nervously. I still sat there stupidly. My mind wasn't working. I tried to speak but my brain wouldn't let me.

James frowned. "Unless you don't." he said sadly. "It's alright if you don't. This is probably too much. Lily I'm so sorry! I just thought-" But I cut him off. I couldn't let him think I didn't love him!

"Oh, James!" I said as my eyes filled with tears of happiness. "I love you! I love you with all my heart." I cried. There was a blinding flash. I couldn't see. I squinted and could barely see my pendent and his ring lighting up the area. I could feel the light too. It was the most wonderful feeling I had ever felt. We had to wait for what felt like forever before the glow dimmed enough for us to see. James wrapped me in a tight hug and then gripped my shoulders and softly put his lips to mine. It started soft but it soon became heated and passionate. He released me and I was about to complain when he held up the necklace.

"May I put it on you?" he asked. I nodded and turned, holding my hair out of the way. As I felt it on my chest I realized it was oddly warm. I had expected a stone to be a bit cold. But I smiled as I remembered it was filled with his warm love. He turned me around so he could see it on me.

"Beautiful." He gasped out. I blushed. "It matches your eyes." He said kissing my forehead. Then my cheek. Then my lips and we were involved in another sultry kiss. And it was there, in the little privet area behind the castle, I first made love with James Potter.