Here's a short update, I really was working on my other story, but this chapter popped in my head and I had to continue with this one.

III – Part 3

Derek stormed out of the bar, the last thing he ever wanted to remember as that day. He could still see the look on her face when she stood in front of the exam room watching Meredith and him embracing and kissing. When they broke free of their kiss that is when he saw it. It's funny because after the way he had treated her during her entire stay in Seattle, he never doubted for one second that she had still been in loved with him. That instant he saw all the feelings for him drain from her face, he knew she would file the papers and never look back. She would never give him a second thought.

He saw a look of disgust crossed her face. He knew it wasn't aimed toward him but at herself. She just stood there stunned for a moment not acknowledging the crowd around her. The detective came to her side and whispered something in her ear, she nodded. And the detective spoke up, "I'm sorry to break up the party but Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd must come down to the station with me." The detective guided Addison out by the arm. That was the last time he ever saw her. Since their divorce was a no fault one and they had already agreed on property settlement, she simply flew down to the islands and filed the divorce papers.

Less than five days after the incident a messenger delivered the finalized divorce papers to him. He had been ecstatic, he found Meredith and they celebrated. He smiled remembering how happy they were in the beginning. They both had two days off and flew down to Vegas and got married.

They had been happy the first two years. Meredith was happily working through her residency and he was running the neurology department. He wasn't prepared for her resentment when she became pregnant. He was thrilled at the prospect of being a father. He had always wanted to be a father, but Addison and he had put it off to build their careers and by the time they would have been ready, they had grown apart. He knew Meredith wanted children too but she was upset with the timing. She wanted to wait until she at least finished her residency or better yet wait until her fellowship was over. She did not want to be mommy tracked. She loved their daughter every bit as much as he did but it still put a strain on their relationship.

He guessed he couldn't really blame her reaction because he remembered he had reacted the same way, when Addison had thought she was pregnant during the beginning of their marriage. He freaked out because he didn't want parenthood to interfere with his internship. Of course Addison was thrilled at the prospect of being pregnant and their having a child. When it turned out to have been a false alarm, he was so relieved. She had been so disappointed but seeing his relief, she had made the decision to wait until after they had both finished their internships and residencies. Then it was put off again to finish their fellowships. By the time she thought Derek would be ready he was so engrossed in his work they barely saw one and other. The idea of having children just never came to be a realization.

Derek walked into his daughter's hospital room and smiled down at his little girl. He brushed the dark curls as she slept soundly. He sighed, he didn't know what he would do if he lost his little girl. She needed a bone marrow transplant and neither Meredith nor he was a match. It was unfathomable to him that with the large family he had that none of his sisters or their children were a match. Meredith and he even contacted her half sisters but they were not a match either.

He had wanted to try to have another child in hopes that it would be a match but Meredith told him that it was an insane idea. There was no guarantee that the child would be a match. She felt it was a horrible idea to have another child solely for the purpose to be used as a donor for its older sibling. So instead they put her on the list and hoped to find a match.

He heard someone enter the room. "I thought you went home," she said leaning in to give him a kiss and then wrinkled her nose. "I wish you wouldn't do that," she said with a frown.

"Do what?" she said gruffly.

"Visit our daughter after you've been drinking," she scolded.

"I had two drinks, I'm not drunk," he snapped back at her.

She took him by the arm and pulled him from the room. "She does not need to be woken up by our arguing Derek," she said with a raised voice after they exited the room.

"I still don't understand why you won't even consider trying to have another child Meredith," he looked at her with hurt in his eyes.

"Derek we have been over this before. I will not have another child just so it can be a donor, it would be unfair to that child." She shook her head disappointedly.

"That's not the only reason, I want another child" he pleaded with her "I know she would. . ."

Meredith's anger flared. "Don't you dare say it, don't you dare bring her into this Derek."

Derek gave her a pained look and turned and walked away. Of course she didn't want him to bring Addison up. She had always been a sore point in their relationship. Every time Meredith did something Derek didn't like or agree with he always would say Addison wouldn't be like that or Addison would do it, if I really wanted her to. There was more then one occasion Meredith had screamed at him to leave and go find his precious Addison.

The woman may be physically gone from their lives but her presence was always felt and overshadowing their relationship. Meredith had no doubt that Derek loved her but she also knew there was a part of his heart that would forever be locked away from her, a part that Addison Forbes Montgomery-Shepherd would forever own.

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Richard Webber sat back in his chair with his fingers steepled in front of him. He had the latest lab report in front of him. Ellie Shepherd was a very sick little girl. He knew this was a long shot but he had to call her. If there was any chance, even if it was a small one he had to call her. If there was any chance that she could help Ellie, Richard knew she would. Addison was not a petty woman. He picked up the phone and started to dial.

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