Gone
A week had gone by and Lily still wasn't on speaking terms with Jenny, Amy or James.
She had just had dinner and was sitting in the NEWTs study hall and was trying to focus her Charms homework.
But there was things distracting her.
She looked over at the other side of the room, where Amy and Jenny were comparing answers and passing notes. Then, she watched them laugh at some joke Amy had told.
She stared at them, longingly, wishing she was there with them, laughing with them.
She sighed and tried to focus on her textbook but miserably failed, once again.
She looked around the classroom and then, her eyes focused on another person.
James.
The word echoed in her mind, as she stared at him. He was doing his homework and seemed to be lost on a question. He ran a hand through his, already messy hair, with a confused look on his face.
Lily couldn't help but smile and think it was cute. She found it ironic how she had always complained about how he showed off his messed up hair, but now she found it somewhat attractive. Then, she remebered. They weren't talking.
At Prefect meetings, James just ignored her and refused to meet her eye.
Lily thought about Jenny, Amy and James.
Lily had felt angry with them at first, but now she realised something. They were right.
But what got her most was that, she had lost her friends...and James.
For that, she hated and blamed herself.
"They were right. I am selfish and arrogant and I never give anyone a chance. I hate myself! Why didn't I give James a chance? He must have really loved me to put up with me and wait for me for all these years! I loved him all this time, I won't deny it. Why did I have to realise it now! We could have been great together! But I've just blown it!"
After thinking this, she felt a tear of frustration slide down her cheek.
At her frustration, she picked up her Charms textbook and hit herself hard on the head with it.
Suprised at the pain, she staggered back at fell onto the floor.
She picked herself up put her hand over her aching head.
When she looked up, everyone in the room was looking at her. They began to snigger.
Lily blushed, and sat back down on her seat, her face hiding behind her hair.
She looked up just in time to see Jenny and Amy roll their eyes and turn back to their work.
She saw James follow suit.
When she saw it, she had an aching pain in her heart.
She felt like crying again...she began to wonder if she'd ever win them back.
The bell rang, dismissing the class and startling everyone.
But it had a opposite effect on Lily. It gave her an idea.
She would talk to James...
It was nine o clock at night when, James walked out of the class, with Sirius and Remus.
They were talking about a prank but James' mind was somewhere else.
Lily.
He had felt so hurt when she had yelled at him after the Prefect Meeting.
But, he had to move on, now.
It was good for both him and Lily.
If he didn't move on, he'd be like this forever.
It was time to move on completely and this time, he meant it.
A voice interupted his thoughts.
"Um, Prongs? Are you with us?" Sirius asked.
James nodded, and said,"I need some fresh air. I'll see you guys, later."
James went outside and walked by the lake. He leaned against a tree and closed his eyes.
He was beginning to think about his situation when another voice interupted. He half groaned and opened his eyes.
Standing infront of him was a very pretty Ravenclaw girl with honey blonde hair and sparkling blue-green eyes.
Her name was Katelin Ford. She was one of the smartest witches in Seventh Year and was kind to everyone.
"Um, James...are you alright?"
James blinked.
"Er, well. I- um. I-I mean, yes."He stuttered.
She smiled, making herself look even more pretty.
"You don't look okay. Come on, you can tell me."
"It's just, well...i don't know what to do. I really liked this girl but she hates me. I've like her for ages but recently, she blew up at me and she hates me even more. She's done it before but this time, it's different. I really don't know what to do."
Katelin's eyes softened.
"I know how that feels. Y'know rejection and hurt. My parents were murdered a while ago and my boyfriend, Amos Diggory, broke up with me."
James looked at her. For some reason, he felt so relaxed with her. It was good having someone know exactly how you were feeling.
Then, he decided.
"You know what?"James said, suddenly."I'm gonna move on. It's no use chasing after her. It's a waste of time."
Katelin nodded, understandingly."Yeah. I did that, too. I found out Amos was cheating on me with my best friend, Charlene."
James held her hand softly. They both looked up at the stars in the dark sky.
"It's a beautiful night."Katelin said, softly.
"Yeah."James replied, just as softly.
They looked into each other's eyes.
They began to lean towards each other.
Lily was looking for a certain person, everywhere. But he wasn't anywhere in sight. She had been running around the castle.
She ran into Sirius Black.
"Er, hey, Black. Have you seen James?" She asked, gasping for breath.
Sirius looked suprised and said,"Um, yeah. I've seen him. He told me he was going outside."
"Oh, thanks..."Lily said, before she started running off, again.
Before she got far, she heard a voice say,"And it's James, now, is it?"
She turned and smiled at the grinning face of Sirius Black.
She ran, making her way towards the exit of the castle, knocking people over.
She finally got outside and saw two people sitting by the lake. Not bothering to give them detention for staying out late, she went to the Quidditch Pitch. But he wasn't there.
She went near Hagrid's Hut but he wasn't there, either.
She was about to give up and walk back in when she noticed something.
The people sitting by the lake were, now, kissing passionately.
Screwing up her face in disgust, she turned to walk back in.
But she stopped.
She span around and stared.
She gasped as the couple kept going on.
Her eyes filled up with tears
It was James. James who was by the lake.
Tears fell down Lily's cheeks.
She turned around and ran back inside the castle, towards her dormitory, sobbing. She burst open her bedroom door ran in. She fell into her bed and cried.
She cried harder as she realised.
Realised the fact that James had moved on.
Moved on and was gone.
And what hurt most? She'd never even given him a chance.
She'd lost what she never had, but why did it hurt so much?
A/N: Well, what did you think? Before you start throwing stuff at me for making James go for someone else, hear me out... I can't make up my mind, whether i want James to end up with Katelin or Lily at the end of the story... So you guys, review and tell me which one.
And Katelin isn't horrible, she is a nice, kind person. So, anyway, please review and tell me what you think of the chapter and who should end up, together.
Thanks for reading!