True Self Chapter 4: Worries and voice, a gakuen alice fanfic

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Disclaimer: It never belongs to me but to… Higuchi Tachibana

Summary: Mikan is strange lately. Her smile has faded a little but it bright its entire colour now. She's different… who is she now? Please read on to find and RxR plz

Chapter 4: Worries and… voice.

12.51pm same place…

Let's see what our little (?) characters are thinking right NOW

Let's begin so with... Natsume's POV

Everyone was looking each other and there was a silence really uncomfortable as if they were all waiting for something to happen or so waiting that someone particular showed himself or herself from the crowd… well it was suspense, if you want. It was so tense that nobody dared to say anything either making a sound or move.

It was what I saw and felt…

Only one sound could be heard by everyone, it was the DOKI DOKI sound.

What to do now? It was what I asked to myself.

It confused me totally and I worried about her, and also I was concerned about her… huh… wait a minute… did I just said that I was concerned and worried… but her situation made me worried a lot… what is this feeling… what if something happened to the baka youjo? And what was the meaning of what Youichi said… Oh Kami-sama… it confused me…

'Why am I confused and worried at the same time? I don't understand at all.' Asked at myself.

'You are because of her.' Said a voice in my head, without paid attention.

'Huh… WHAT?' Shouted I at myself.

'Who are you? And where did you come from?' Asked a puzzled Natsume.

'Well I'm a witch, an ancestor of you, coming from a far, far, FAAAAR country, my little Natsume…I'm you baka boy.' Said the voice, with a little chuckle from behind.

'Don't call me like that.'

'Why not? You really are a BAKE BOY… well… whatever…' Said the voice.

'How come you are in my head? How could this happen? What is the meaning of this? And why…' said I cutting him.

'OI… Will ya stop chitchat non-stop? It annoyed me your stupid questions.' Shouted the voice in my head, which was about to knock me down. 'That is not important to know who or where or when or why and more over. What important is YOU and HER.' Told me the voice with a concerned voice. 'Huh… it's more HER than YOU for the moment. So like I said…'

'Hey… don't shout once again or so I'll burn you even if…' Said I really annoyed by the voice. And I was really late to shout at him since he didn't shout in my ears, or so thought, for a long moment ago.

'How could you do something like that since you can't reach me. Stupid Baka Kuro Neko!'

'WHA DID YOU SAY?' Yelled at myself really angrily.

'I'll find a way to soon or later.'

'Oh really… I'm waiting for it patiently' Said the voice sarcastically.

I wanted so much kill that voice. How? I don't know myself. But someday if I encountered him the first thing I'll do was burnt that big baka tong…

'Oi, don't you dare to think it will ya.' Said the voice really irritated while cutting my thought of torture.

'Huh. I think you should let down your heat or so everyone here will die because of you.'

What does he mean…? Thought I.

When I blinked, I saw everyone sweating and some of them were on the floor trying hard to breathe or find some fresh, they were all fighting with the hottest heat, except Hotaru, Ruka, who were in one of her invention, and Youichi who was on my lap.

"Invention n°0273, Cool Down Room. As the name say it can prevent you from any heat, just go in and you are cooling down." Explained the Inventor girl Alice to nobody.

"Here you go again, talking to nobody" Said Ruka sweating with a nervous smile.

Me too I was sweating not by the fact she talked to nobody, which was a habit, but by what I did. I heated the classroom without knowing it. Well it was his fault after all. I didn't care at all.

'Hehehehe…' Chuckled the voice.

'What do you want in the end? Will ya let me think peacefully?' Asked I.

'Huh now I think about it, it's like it was…'I looked at a certain boy, who was hiding under a table and didn't dare to come out. 'Yeah it was him… they are the same' Thought I.

There was a silence in my head. It made me thought that it was gone. I was relieved. For what? For being able o think peacefully of course. I felt at that time I smirked at the moment.

I was more thinking about that little girl. I was really anxious, confused, worried, concerned… what the… it's the first time I had that kind of feeling, except for Ruka or Youichi. And why was I thinking about that Idiot?

'It's maybe because you like her?' Said someone without me noticing it again.

'Me like her? No way…who would anyway?' Asked at myself.

'You sure?'

'Huh… well… and why would I like her? And how could thing like that would happen? I only teased her and all…even if I do, she won't like me in return…'

'Hum… good point… but you won't know it if you won't tell her your feeling… and for the reason of feeling something for her… it may be because of her little cute smile?'

'Her smile? Huh…'

I had a flashback… no many flashback of her stupid annoyed stupid smile and felt I was blushing. I hid it immediately with my bangs covering my face, so nobody could see it, except for, maybe, someone.

(AN: there are 3 people and am sure you know who. They are soo obvious.)

I was gazing on my memories of her smile.

'You see… you like… no love her plus you care a lot about her… a LOT… ' Said once more someone emphasising on the last word in my mind, when suddenly I snapped out of my 'little' world.

'Huh… you here again…? I thought you were gone?'

'Well, well, well' Chuckled the voice. 'No as you see. I told you I'm a part of you so I can't go anywhere, if you can't realize these vital points. Either accepts them, and this will be really easy to bear, it's your reality 'Natsume'.'

I felt that I turned red not because of what he told me but by his presence. It annoyed me so much that I felt a murderous feeling travelling all over in my body.

'Will ya leave me alone, will ya?' Asked at myself once more again.

'No' He answered me with a little chuckle which annoyed me a lot.

'If I let you go like that, I won't be satisfied with that or so I'm not'

'WHAT?' Shouted at myself to the word satisfied.

'I want you to admit IT' He said to me teasingly.

Seems that he like a lot to tease me. If only I could kill him right away, I would be in peace and… I would be SO satisfied by that.

With what he said, I could feel my eyes were about to come out of my orbs. They were so widened that it hurt me a lot.

'What… what do you mean by that?' Asked I fuming furiously.

'Oh! Come on boy, just tell it that you LOVE her.'

'Shut up!'

I was about to… no… I needed to burn something and like that I will be satisfied… on something I could feel free to burn without hesitation… but couldn't do, something stopped me to do so…

'Say you LOVE Mikan-chan and you CARE ABOUT her' insisted the voice.

'Shut up shut up will you or…' threatened I the voice but didn't work, I was cut by him.

'Or What? You can't reach me at all.' Said the voice happily. 'The only solution if you want me to let you…'

'In your dream, stupid voice!' I cut him irritatingly knowing what he wanted to say.

'Oh so… I will tease you until the end, until you say YES…'

My head was full of these words repeating all the time. I was about to explode but restrained myself until I reached my limit.

'Will ya…' Said I without knowing that I stood up suddenly, making Youichi also got up. "SHUT UP!"

I shouted… no… yelled that made everyone looked at me with a but-didn't-say-anything-Natsume-kun/san look.

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Second... Hotaru's POV

It was what I saw and felt…

Only one sound could be heard by everyone, it was the DOKI DOKI sound.

What could have happened to her? Thought someone, a girl voice.

That baka... always making me worried about her...

POP (sound... like a nerve had appeared)

If I found out what did happen to her... I promised that I won't let her go off if it's something really... stupid

'Are you sure that is what you want to do?' Said a voice.

'huh?' I could feel that I blinked many times before realized that a voice was been heard in my own head.

'What... who are you?' Asked I totally confused and... angry.

'huhuhu...'

Was that a chuckle or what? I said to myself really surprised.

'No... and yes... huhuhu...' Said the voice with... a vicious voice...

'OI... don't say that will you... am not vicious at all...'

I could hear that she (because it's sound like a girl) was really angry at what I just said. And I also could say that she was pouting. I felt my face was forming a little smile.

Strange she reminds me of someone... but who?

'You must be joking right?'

I was surprised by it. Seemed that she knew me really well, but I can't it.

'What do you mean by that?' Asked I to her.

'Well... you'll discover it later on...' Paused and sighed could be heard and felt. 'Better for you to discover and show them you true self...'

'What do you mean by true self

'You know what it means... well better let you discover it by yourself. Ja ne, Hotaru-chan.'

With that I could feel that she was gone for sure.

"Huh... ho-hot..."

Hot? I heard a familiar voice. I turned my head toward the voice and what i saw was... everybody trying to cool down themselves. It took me sometimes before I realized that the room was full of the heat of someone... or could say the scariest Alice that someone could have... Natsume's heat.

I could see on his face that he was really irritated by something. I saw just some inch of him a boy with blond hair and blue eyes cooled himself with his handkerchief, Nogi Ruka.

I didnt know why but... i felt that my cheeks were... warmed.

'What is this feeling? Why... my cheeks... no... it couldn't be it...'

I was half shocked. Right now I... 'I'm blushing'

"AH... I'm dying..." Said a girl voice... and fainted.

I looked at the girl on the floor and raised my eyebrow; I wanted to take a picture of her but... 'No... It's not available to be sold.'

It was true the heat began to be really unbearable. I took out something from my pocket.

'Huh. Finally it's useful to use it now.'

I looked at the little yellow capsule and threw it in front of me. It took the sharp of a little room. From outside, I had nothing to tell... it was a room with a door, a window and also a mailbox. Inside, well it was a room after all, there was a little desk, files cases, a bed, a mini-kitchen, so meant that the room filled with all item that could be used to any catastrophic element.

I turned my head from my invention and looked for someone.

"Nogi" called I the particular boy. He lifted up his head and looked at me with a puzzled face, and sweating.

'He's so cute.' Said I with a... 'What am I thinking right now?' Shook I the idea out of my mind.

"What is it Imai-san?" Asked he to me pointing something at my back.

"Invention n°0273, Cool Down Room. As the name say it can prevent you from any heat, just go in and you are cooling down." Explained the Inventor girl Alice to nobody.

"Here you go again, talking to nobody" Said Ruka sweating with a nervous smile.

I saw that Natsume also realized that he heated the room without knowing it at all. I turned my back to him and went inside my invention. Looked at him and...

"Wanna be cooled down?" Asked I with my usual monotone voice and my unemotional look. He looked at me really confused and he seemed to doubt me.

"Hum... You don't want to come in..." Turned my back to him. " Ok... just do as you like. If you want that much to be roast by your best friend."

I turned my head slightly to him. Before I knew it, he was just behind me. We were... only an inch from each other, my nose touched his. I felt that my face had turned to a... 180 red shades. I turned brutally my head and looked to the opposite side.

'Calm down, Hotaru... Calm down...'

DOKI... DOKI... DOKI...

'Huh... My heart hurt me a lot...'

I clenched where my heart was.

'Huhuhu…'

'Not you again… I thought you were gone.'

'Hum… no.'

POP.

'I won't be able to go if you don't do what I said.'

'And what did you say?'

- Silence -

POP.

'You joke right?'

'Huh… I think she's angry.'

'YES I AM. You didn't listen to what I said. Oh my… well… whatever. You'll discover it later but for now…'

'Strange… why I feel some chill suddenly'

'Well it's maybe me… why don't you use this chance to… chit-chat with him?'

- Silence -

I felt some chill but also I felt that I was blushing really hard. And really strangely, I felt that someone did grin in my mind and did heat as well my back (in my head).

After that, I didn't hear at all the voice again. I took a cup of tea.

"Huh… Imai-san… are you feeling well?" Asked me a blond haired guy really worried.

I looked at him and drank the hot tea. I took another cup of tea and led it to him. He hesitated, and I knew why. I put four ice cubes and led once more towards him. He took it instantaneously and sipped in one gulp. (not sure if it's the right word). He sighed in relief, looked at me, and opened his mouth…

"Than-" He began to say but cut by someone's shout.

"SHADDUP" yelled a boy.

I looked out my room and saw Natsume stood up with Youichi beside him. Everyone looked at him with a but-didn't-say-anything-Natsume-kun/san look.

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Third… Ruka's POV

It was what I saw and felt…

Only one sound could be heard by everyone, it was the DOKI DOKI sound.

Mikan-chan… what happened to you? Thought someone, a boy voice.

I patted Usagi's head that looked at me straight in my eyes. I was really worried about her. I looked up and saw Natsume deep in his thought, Youichi on his lap weaped away his tears, Hotaru was also deep in her thought and, for the first time, I saw her first expression: concerned and worried look.

'huh' I looked at her expression and…

'What was that?'

I saw a scary look writing on her face, that would automatically make run away a kid, even me. I even heard a… POP sound but not sure.

'Huh… what now?'

This time she had a surprised look. After it was a confused face… and so go on. I took a look at her face.

'It's funny to see her expression in one time.' Thought I. I giggled after all kind emotion show on her face. I really appreciated this moment.

FLASH.

I immediately turned my head to the opposite side.

'Huh… just now… I saw something that wouldn't be seen…'

I turned 180 red shades… that was really hard… and brutal.

'Huh… my heart is skipping… I think it will soon or later go out of my chest…'

'Hehehehe.' Chuckled a voice, a male one.

'Why don't you just say that your heart right now is… reacting to HER smile?' Said the voice more clearly.

'Reacting-' Said I passing out for a second.

'Huh… who are you?' Asked I finally realizing it.

'Well let's say that I'm your inner soul.' Said the voice ironical.

I could swear that I saw (heard?) him grinning.

'My… inner…soul?' Repeated I the last words.

"Huh... ho-hot..."

I could see on his face that he was really irritated by something. I was only some inch of him so i was really sweating to death. The room was heating really badly. I took my handkerchief and began to wipe and cool myself.

Just in front of me I saw Hotaru...

'Huh... did her cheeks... just turned... 180 red shades?'

... blushing.

Sawing it, I was also blushing hard to it. She seemed to be really shocked by it... or maybe not.

'Why am I blushing too when I look at her?' Asked I to myself.

'Well it's maybe because... you like... no... you LOVE her.

3... 2... 1...

'WHAAAAT?' I screamed in my own head and...

'OUCH... you 'lil brat... how dare you to...'

... it hurt my head.

'Humph... it's YOUR fault for saying NONSENSE...' I paused, breathed and blushed. 'Ok... maybe I-I-I'm falling f-f-fo-for HER bu-but... tell me how this can be possible?'

I asked to myself and waited for him for answering me but it never came. I sighed in disbelief. I really wanted to kill this voice and now...

'You asked me something that even I don't know at all... you really a baka pheromone Alice boy.' Said suddenly the voice.

... I was thinking some weird thought.

'HUUUH.' (that was a hurt sound if someone wont figure it out)

I felt that my heart just stop beating for some time... second when I heard the voice talking once again. It startled me a LOT. I thought that he'd gone for sure but not.

'You freaky moron... don't do it again will you?' It was almost a shouting.

Strange to say it but I could feel that he was trying hard to cover his ears from my shouting.

'Ok. Ok. Ok. I wont do it again... so stop… yelling here will you?' Said he with a pleading voice. And I was happy for that.

'Huh... now I think about it... you just call me... freaky moron?'

My eyes were wide suddenly. I just realized what he meant and suddenly I remember the situation. My head began to break into a thousand of pieces.

'Huh... I cant... take it any... more...' My head hurt me a lot. I felt that I was about to struggle Usagi. When...

"Nogi" called me a girl voice. I lifted up my head and looked at the girl with a puzzled face, and sweating.

"What is it Imai-san?" Asked I to her pointing something at my back.

"Invention n°0273, Cool Down Room. As the name say it can prevent you from any heat, just go in and you are cooling down." Explained the Inventor girl Alice to nobody.

"Here you go again, talking to nobody" Said I sweating with a nervous smile.

I saw that Natsume also realized that he heated the room without knowing it at all. I turned my back to him and went to the invention. Looked at her and...

"Wanna be cooled down?" Asked she with her usual monotone voice and her unemotional look. I looked at her really confused and I doubted about her. She seemed to look though my mind.

"Hum... You don't want to come in..." Turned her back to me. "Ok... just do as you like. If you want that much to be roast by your best friend."

She turned her head slightly to me. Before I knew it, I was just behind her. We were... only an inch from each other, my nose touched her. I felt that my face had turned to a... 180 red shades. I turned brutally my head and looked to the opposite side.

'Calm down, Ruka... Calm down...'

DOKI... DOKI... DOKI...

'Huh... My heart hurt me a lot...'

I clenched where my heart was.

'Hihihi...'

'I think I heard someone laugh.' Stopped myself. 'Huh. Impossible.'

'Why not?'

'HUUUH.' It startled me... once again.

'YOU...'

'OK.OK.OK SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO STARTLE YOU...sooo please... don't shout?'

Myself was... pleading me... so hilarious. I wanted to smile wildly but... I just looked at the girl behind me.

'Well maybe I was REALLY in love with her.' Thought I smiling slightly to her, enough to her to not see it.

After that, I didn't hear at all the voice again. I saw her taking a cup of tea nowhere. She had something that look like she was feeling uncomfortable.

"Huh… Imai-san… are you feeling well?" Asked I to the raven black haired girl really worried.

She looked at me and drank her hot tea. She took another cup of tea and led it to me. I hesitated. She put four ice cubes and led once more towards me.

'How did she... oh... whatever.'

I took it instantaneously and sipped in one gulp. (not sure if it's the right word). I sighed in relief, looked at her, and opened my mouth…

"Than-" I began to say but cut by someone's shout.

"SHADDUP" yelled a boy.

I looked out the room and saw Natsume stood up with Youichi beside him. Everyone looked at him with a but-we-didn't-say-anything-Natsume-kun/san look.

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