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A/N: This chapter starts off right where the last one ended.

When breathing became an option Rory pulled away and rested her forehead against his, "I shouldn't have done that." She breathed out looking directly into Jess's eyes.

Jess swallowed, breathing heavily, "No. Don't say that, Ror."

Rory sat up while she strattled Jess, "No. I can not be doing this. How can I be so stupid? I just forgot everything between us and kissed you. Not that the kiss wasn't amazing because, as always, it was, but I just shouldn't have done it."

Jess sat up putting all of his weight on his forearms, "Rory, listen to me, what you just did there, kissing me, there is nothing wrong with that. You're not dating anyone, and I'm not dating anyone. No harm done."

Rory shook her head and got off of him, "No! Jess, we can't just start over where we ended things. So much stuff happened… we need to talk about it."

Jess nodded and sat up, "Then let's talk."

Rory sat on the edge of his bed, and Jess scooted over to give her more room. Rory sat beside him and crossed her arms over her chest, "I'm going to get down to the point Jess. What the hell was your problem at the party?"

Jess sighed and looked up at the ceiling, "I wasn't going to graduate. I felt like I let you down. I let Luke down. Everything that everyone said in my life was true. All of my life everyone I met pretty much told me I would fail. That I would never amount to anything. I wanted to prove them wrong so badly, Rory, but I didn't. I proved them all right. I wanted to be in a good mood for you at that party. I really did…"

Rory nodded, "Jess, you could have talked to me. You could've told me all of this then, and I probably would've had sex with you. Not at Kyle's house, but I would have. When I kept telling you to stop and you wouldn't it made me angrier than I already was because you weren't talking."

Jess sat up all of the way, "Honestly, I don't even remember that. I'm glad you stopped me. I was so drunk, Rory, I had drank a lot so I could just wash away all of the events that happened earlier in the day. The only thing I remember was kissing you on the bed, fighting with you, then walking downstairs and seeing you with Dean, and then fighting with Dean. And Rory I also wanted to tell you, I wasn't going to fight him. He punched me and then I just broke loose everything I had been holding in from when I first met him came out. Then the thought that I would never be good enough for you like Dean was crossed my mind and I hit harder."

Rory just sat there, stunned, he never really opened up this much. That had to be the most he has told her in the whole time they were together. She just sat and listened to what he had to say and it actually made some of her hate towards him go away. When he started talking about Dean, Rory unconsciously reached over and intertwined her fingers with his.

"Jess, why did you leave?"

Jess looked down at her hand before looking up at her, "My dad came back, Luke kicked me out, I had no one to run to, or at least that's what I felt like. I was mad at Luke, because he kept Jimmy from me. He saw him, and didn't even let me know my own father was here. I didn't want to let you down, I know that is starting to sound like a broken record, but it is true. I hated the thought of letting you down. But most of all, I hated letting Luke down."

Rory nodded, and put a stand of hair behind her ears, "Dean got married." It was out of blue, but she knew Jess wanted to stop talking about the previous subject.

Jess finds a spot on the wall, and looks at it like he is concentrating. He didn't want to look at Rory, because of the sadness he heard in her voice, "I'm sure he'd pick you over her." He muttered, when all was silent.

Rory looked up and stared at the side of Jess' face, "What?"

Jess looked down, then turned to her, "I said… I'm pretty sure he would pick you over her. He loves you Rory, he always has and always will. He can give you what you want, and as much as I hate it, I can't lie. He's good for you. You could have him."

Rory's temper rises, "I don't want him, Jess! Why can't you see this?! I wanted us, and if not us, then I don't want anything… or anyone! I don't want Dean!"

Jess sighed, "Then why did you bring him up?!"

Rory drops her arms to her sides, "Because! I wanted you to see it!"

Jess furrowed his brow, she was confusing him so much tonight, "See what?!"

Rory moans, getting sick of this little game, "I wanted you to see that I didn't want him! I wanted you to get it through your head that even though you left me I still wanted you! Not Dean… you were wrong. You said you could never compare to him, but Jess you did. You were better than him. Or at least in my eyes you were. I didn't care what half of the town thought, or what my mother thought Jess… I wanted you. I picked you. Not Dean."

Jess breathed in deeply, "Why? Why do you want me?"

Rory snapped her head towards him, "Wanted… as in past tense."

Jess nods in understanding, "Then why did you kiss me?"

Rory scoffs, "Don't hold that against me. It was an in the moment kind of thing."

Jess rolls his eyes, "Sure it was."

Rory sighs, "Well I won't do it again. That's for sure."

Jess shrugs, "Okay… you don't have to."

Rory, "What's that supposed to mean?"

Jess lays back on the bed, again, "Nothing… let's just go back to sleep."

Rory nods and stands up, walking back over to her bed, "Jess?"

Jess adjusts himself on the bed, "Mhm?"

Rory sits in her bed and brings the covers up to her chin, "I wanted to kiss you."

Jess laughs slightly, "I know."

Rory, "Conceited."

Jess, "Just smart."

Rory lies down and closes her eyes, trying to drift off to sleep, "Jess?"

Jess sighs, "Yes Rory?" His voice full of sleepiness.

Rory shrugs, "When are you leaving?"

Jess, "As soon as I can."

Rory nods, upset, "Ok."

Jess, "Night."

Rory, "Night."

And they fall asleep, having to wake up tomorrow back in reality. Where the world is against them and nothing they do seems to be right. Where they can never be together, without there being a big battle between someone. Back to Stars Hollow.

AN: I didn't like this chapter that much… but I needed it.