Chapter 31

We arrived back at the mansion after a long and tiring day at the mall. Sarah had practically dragged me through every single baby store she could possibly have found. It was actually cute to see her looking at clothes and matching them to socks, and little hats.

We unpacked the car and dragged in her eighteen bags full of clothes. Okay, I lied. There weren't eighteen but it sure did feel like it. I mentally called for Jean to meet us downstairs, and sure enough, she was there in less than three minutes.

"Hey guys. Have fun?" asked Jean.

"Oh it was wonderful! I found so many cute little things for the baby, and, I never knew there was so much stuff for a baby! They have everything you could ever think of! It's amazing!" said Sarah excitedly.

"Yea, it was a thrill ride." I said sarcastically.

"Oh hush, you were fine after I gave you ice cream." scowled Sarah.

"Well of course! I needed sugar to keep up with you!" I said.

"Whatever." said Sarah.

"Alright, let's get these things upstairs before you two kill each other." said Jean.

We all laughed as we grabbed the bags and headed inside.

It had been weeks since Logan had left, and I was getting more and more concerned. He checked in every thirty minutes like he said he would, but that still did not ease the tension and worry that built up inside of me.

I was becoming a wreck. I hardly slept or ate and I was becoming a bit moody. Jean and Sarah tried to keep my mind off of everything by having me clean things, or help with the kids. Jean had me down in the infirmary most of the time, helping kids with cuts and scrapes, but I was scared that if I wasn't focused I could hurt someone. Jean assured me I would be fine, but I wasn't. I wasn't focused, I zoned out too much and I barely payed attention to anything the kids said.

Sarah tried everything she could think of to try and cheer me up, but nothing worked. She would get fed up with me and walk away in a huff. I tried helping her out with some things so she wouldn't overdue herself, but she was so moody that me, along with the rest of the school, tried to steer clear of her as best we could.

One evening, Jean and Sarah managed to get me downstairs to watch a movie with them. We were about thirty minutes in when me and Sarah announced we were hungry.

We all got up and went into the kitchen, hunting for food. Jean got herself a small sandwich while me and Sarah piled up the food. We both got sandwiches, some pickles, chips, and a soda.

"You guys eat way to much." said Jean.

"I'm pregnant." said Sarah.

"And I am just hungry." I said.

We all ate our food in a slow fashion, and talked about random things. I made myself another sandwich and ate it quickly. After that, I was still a bit hungry so I went into the freezer and pulled out my hidden stash of cookies n cream ice cream. I went into the fridge and pulled out the Hershey's syrup and sat back down at the table. I poured the syrup in and took a big bite. I ate about two more spoonfuls when I noticed Jean and Sarah looking at me.

"What?" I asked, my mouth full of ice cream.

"Dude, you just ate two sandwiches, some pickles, chips, an apple, you drank a soda and now you're having ice cream." stated Sarah. "I'm pregnant and I don't even eat that much."

"Well I haven't been eating much lately because I have been so stressed. I mean, Logan has been gone for weeks now, and I think I am finally getting better at him being gone." I said.

"Uh huh, so, you're just eating a lot because you aren't stressed anymore?" said Sarah.

"Yea." I said.

"Yea, right. Okay look Wings, have you been feeling alright?" asked Sarah.

I laughed. "I feel fine, why?"

Sarah and Jean both gave each other a glance as if confirming what each other was thinking.

"What?" I asked again.

"Wings, I think you're pregnant." said Sarah.

I almost choked on my ice cream, but thankfully I swallowed it in enough time.

"What?" I asked. "No, I am not pregnant believe me."

"Well then what else is it? Uh?" asked Jean.

"Look, I have been concerned about Logan and I haven't eaten. So now, I am making up for it. Plus, I am just starved! I am not pregnant guys alright?" I said.

"When was the last time you had your period?" asked Sarah but it was said more as a statement.

"Uh, sometime before Logan left." I said.

"Yea, and you haven't had it since have you?" said Sarah.

"Well, no, but that's just because I am stressed." I said.

"Oh will you cut it with the stress crap already! It is not because you are stressed! You haven't had your period because you are pregnant! Will you just except it!" yelled Sarah.

"Well if I am pregnant, how come I haven't thrown up yet, huh! If I was pregnant I'm sure I would have known about it!" I countered back.

"Well, Pix, sometimes you don't know if you're pregnant until later, and with you being so preoccupied with Logan and the infirmary, maybe you just missed it." said Jean.

"How could I miss something that huge?" I stated.

"Please Wings, I'm just pointing out what I am seeing." said Sarah in a quieter tone.

"Look, I understand that you guys are worried about me, but I am fine. There is nothing wrong with me. I am not pregnant, I am just-"

"Stressed." They both finished off for me.

"Yea." I sighed.

I stuffed my mouth full of ice cream as I slunk back in my chair. The table was quiet as everyone finished up their meal quietly.

"Will you please just take a test?" asked Sarah.

"If it will shut you guys up then yes!" I yelled.

"Yes!" said Sarah.

"I'll go get it." said Jean.

Jean went downstairs and grabbed a pregnancy test from the infirmary. She brought it back to the kitchen and I went into the bathroom in the hall.

"Come out here when you're done so we can know together!" said Sarah.

"Fine." I said.

I went into the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. I heaved a big sigh and went to work. When I was done, I opened the door and went back into the kitchen. I sat down at the table and placed the test in the middle. We all crowded around, waiting for the time to be up.

The moment of truth finally happened when my watch began to beep. I stopped breathing for a moment and closed my eyes.

"I can't look." I sighed.

"I'll do it." said Sarah.

She grabbed the test and looked at it. I looked at her face, trying to get any kind of reaction from her, but she was a blank slate.

"Well?" I pleaded.

"What does it mean if there is only one line?" asked Sarah.

"I'm not pregnant." I breathed.

"Oh." said Sarah.

"Well that's good right?" I said.

I couldn't help but feel a bit sad at the thought of not being pregnant. I always thought it would be so wonderful. A few tears came to my eyes as I tried not to let them fall.

"Well, there is always next time right?" I said, tears falling down my face. "No big thing."

"Yea. It's okay." said Jean.

"Okay I lied." said Sarah.

"What?" I said.

"It's not negative, it's positive." breathed Sarah. "I wanted to see how you would react."

"I'm pregnant." I stated.

"Yea." whispered Sarah.

"Oh God." I choked.

Tears instantly fell from my eyes and down my face. Sarah and Jean both enveloped me into a hug, trying to console me. It's not as if it was a bad thing, just that it was so unreal.

"I can't believe this." I said, pulling away from them both.

"I know. I couldn't either at first, but, when it finally sinks in you will. Plus when you start getting all of the side effects it really makes you realize." said Sarah.

I laughed and wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Well I guess it's safe to say that our dream of being pregnant together has come true." I said.

"I know! Now we can go shopping together and everything." squealed Sarah.

"Don't get too far ahead of yourself." I said.

"Oh fine." she huffed.

"You alright with this?" asked Jean.

"Well I guess I have to be. I just wish Logan were here right now so I could have someone to blame." I said.

Jean and Sarah laughed at my statement.

"Oh believe me honey, you'll have plenty of time for that." said Sarah.

"Thanks Flip." I said.

"No prob. For now though, you have us, and if there's anything you need, please tell us." she said.

"Well, I might steer clear of you though, you get really moody." I said.

"I do not!" huffed Sarah.

"Yea you kind of do." said Jean.

"Whatever." said Sarah.

We all laughed at her anger, but she soon cracked and was laughing with us.

"Well guys, if it's alright with you, I think I am gonna go and lay down upstairs. I just got really tired." I said.

"No problem. Remember, if you need anything-"

"I'll come find you Jean." I finished.

Sarah stuck her tongue out at me and I laughed as I walked out of the kitchen, up to Logan's room. I needed to be near him. I opened his door and shut it with a click of the lock all with my mind. I laid down in his bed and wrapped myself up in his blankets.

A thousand thoughts were running through my mind at what my current state had become. I couldn't believe that I was pregnant. Never in a million years would I have guessed I be pregnant. I guess I always new somewhere, but was too scared to realize it, so I buried it with lies of stress and worry.

I closed my eyes, trying to calm my mind down and focus on the future, and what it would hold for me and my baby.

Woohoo! I finally updated. Sorry it took sooooo long, but college is really time consuming this semester. I'm really trying to update as much as possible, so please bear with me. It would mean the world to me. So, here is the latest, i hope ya'll are pleased and let me know what you think!!