Sam was exhausted. Sam hadn't slept well since... well he supposed before he got sick and certainly not since Kara was taken from him. But now that he had her back, he felt much of the tension begin to flow out of his body. At first he had been too jazzed up at finding her and rescuing her to even think, everything happened so fast. Now however as he gazed down at her sound asleep on their bed, he was able to process just what this would mean for them. They were once again together and they would start building a life together again.
Sam wasn't hungry and he didn't have the heart to wake her so he removed her boots and made her as comfortable as he could without waking her, stripped off his clothes and slid into their bed with only his boxers on. He'd be hard pressed not to make love to her as he wanted, but he realized that the moment he pulled her against his chest and laid his head down, he was in no condition to do anything but sleep himself. "I love you Kara," he whispered in her ear before falling alseep.
Kara woke up in her bed and looked over to Sam's side. He must have gotten up already. The sun's rays were shiny through the window. She tossed the covers off of her and sat up. She felt a little sick to her stomach as she quickly got up. Her bedroom door opens and a little blonde haired girl came running in the room, screaming for her. She didn't look older than four years old. She jumped on the bed next to Kara and hid under the covers, giggling.
Down the hallway Kara heard Sam. The two of them must be playing hide and seek or some sort of game. "Lexie, your mother is not going to save you now," he said as he came in the room.
"I don't know what you are talking about Sam. I haven't seen Lexie since last night." Sam sat on the bed next to Kara and laid on top of Lexie. Kicking and screaming, she got out from under her father and left the room. Kara and Sam both laughed at her as she left.
"How do you feel this morning?" Sam asked just before he kissed her.
"Alright I guess, just feeling a little sick that's all," she kissed him again and stopped when the doorbell rang.
"I'll get it," Sam said. "You and junior just stay here," he rubbed her stomach and got up. Kara looked down at her stomach,s he was pregnant, very pregnant. She looked like she was ready to pop, maybe eight months along. No wonder I feel sick, Damn. Sam left the bedroom and walked down the hallway to open the front door.
Gun fire could be heard down the hallway. "What the frak?!" Kara got up from the bed, threw on her robe. She opened her dresser drawer and got her sidearm and walked down to the front door. Sam and Lexie were dead on the floor.
"I told you I would be back for you." She spun around dropping her gun, Leoben was standing in the doorway. He walked up to Kara and grabbed her by the throat and slammed her up against the wall. He was choking the life out of her and the baby...
Hours later Sam was jerked awake by screams. Screams ripped from Kara's throat. "No!!" Kara woke up screaming in Sam's arms. She'd sprung up in bed, tears running down her face calling out Sam's name. She was breathing hard and sweating, shaking her head trying to get the nightmare out of her head.
"Kara! Baby, it's okay. I'm right here. Shh, it's okay. You're safe and I won't let anyone hurt you again. Shh," he held onto her and soothed her shaking body talking to her as he would a child.
"Sam? Gods it was awful." Kara felt like someone knocked the wind out of her. Catching her breath she brought her knees into her chest and placed her head on top of her knees. She continued to let Sam rub her back. "Gods, its never going to be the same, is it?" Slowly she looked up from her knees and looked into his blue eyes. Her vision was so blurry from the tears, her tears were streaming freely down her face. Sam wiped her tears away from her cheeks and smiled at her. "I'm just one frakking mess aren't I?" She smirked then leaned on him as she rubbed her throat. To her that dream did seem so real. "He's always going to be in my head somehow. And I just can't seem to shake it out," her eyes traveled up to his and she raise her head up to him to kiss him. She was starting to feel better already. Just having Sam around her made all her worries go way.
Sam kissed her for a few sweet moments savoring her taste and reacquainting him with the feel and scents that were hers alone. He'd missed that so terribly much. Sam knew too that she was much too vulnerable. She was terrified from her experiences and even though she said that she wasn't harmed physically, there was no doubt that she was severely traumatized mentally and emotionally. The games that Leoben played with her mind would have broken a lot of other people, and Sam wasn't sure he himself could have kept his belief under the same circumstances.
"Kara, this will end. He's not going to control your mind sweetheart. You have to deny him that or he wins, don't you see? You're strong. Stronger than I am. I'm here to help you in anyway I can baby, but you can't let him gain a foothold in your head." Sam was leaning over her, his face inches from hers. "Kara, do you know the meaning of these tattoos?" He asked tracing his finger around the circle on her arm. "The circle is our love. It's never ending and eternal. The wings," He traced that part without even looking, "symbolizes how we will be able to soar above the adversity in our lives and come together that much stronger. No one can tear us apart, never!"
Kara's heartbeat slows down as Anders touched her skin tracing her tattoo. She missed him so much and she knew that he missed her too. Time was taken from them and they had to get it back somehow. Four months of not seeing each other changed how much they really do care about one another. He didn't play games with her, toy with her, tell her what she would do, and see the future like Leoben did. Sam treated her like a human and not a thing that you throw on the back burner and forget about.
Sam's hand cupped her cheek, and then she placed her hand on top of his. "You're right Sam, you're right. Eventually this all will be in the pass, just a bump in my life that I got over." She ran her fingers through his dark hair down to his neck. "It's just going to take time for me to get back to normal." She tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear. Her face had dried tears still on her cheeks. She looked like hell but he didn't care what she looked like to him. She was back, and back for good.
Sam saw the tear stains on her pale cheek. Gently he smoothed his calloused hand over her smooth skin and looked deeply into her clear eyes. "Yes, we will get through this. I don't pretend to know what lies in store for us Kara, but I do pray to the gods that whatever the future holds for us, it's that we're in it together." Sam kissed her deeply loving the feel of her melting against him. He gently and reluctantly ended the kiss and tucked her head back down on his shoulder. After a moment Sam asked softly, "Can you tell me what the dream was about? Sometimes it helps it not to return if you voice your fears."
Her hazel eyes traveled back up to his face. At first she didn't want to tell him but she wasn't going to keep secrets away from him. "Well it started off as a nice little dream but turned into a nightmare quickly," she sighed. "We were on Earth I think, well in a house, our house. I woke up in bed looking for you but you had gotten up already. I start to sit up in the bed and how I did it was weird. I also felt sick to my stomach" Her face crinkled as she talked and she started to talk with her hands. "The bedroom door fly's open and a little blonde haired girl around the age of four comes running in screaming "Mommy" on the top of her lungs and dives into the bed, hiding. Moments later you come in the room saying "Mommy is not going to save you now, Lexie," and sit on the bed next to me playing with her. She gets out and runs down the hallway into the living room. You ask me how I feel and kiss me. The door bell rings and of course I try to get up from the bed, but you tell me to stay put and rub my stomach. I look down and I'm pregnant again. You leave and open the front door and I hear two gun shots. I get up, grab my gun and walk down the hallway and see you and Lexie dead on the floor. I hear a man telling me that I will never escape him or something along that line and it's Leoben with a gun in his hand. He grabs me by the throat and starts choking me. And then...I woke up."
His heart broke for her. In the short amount of time that they had been married, the subject of children hadn't come up. He knew that eventually he'd like to have kids, but now it was too crazy to even think about. Anders wouldn't bring a child into a world where its life would be so uncertain. "It's over sweetheart. It was just a dream. I'm here for you. Feel me Kara," he instructed softly placing her hand over his beating heart. "It was only a dream." He smiled a little in the darkness at the thought of a little blonde haired blue eyed girl that looked like Kara or of a dark haired hazel eyed boy that resembled himself. His arms tightened about her. "Want me to tell you of a dream Kara?" He asked trying to think of anything that would keep her mind off the last few months of her imprisonment.