Sweet girlfriend of mine, chapter 3

The next morning, when Miley arrived at school, she immediatly noticed that everyone was looking at her. Teenagers are weird. They're always staring, they're always observing you. Do you have to much make up on ? Are you too fat, too thin ? Do you have style ? Are you a geek, a prom queen ? It was the cruel reality of highschool. Hopefully, it will soon stop ! They will all grow up...

She decided to not give them too much importance and just kept walking. She was a few steps away from her locker, and this is when she saw it. She gasped, her heart missed a beat.

In front of her locker was a huge poster of Lilly and her. Kissing. Miley looked around panicked. The students had stopped to see her reaction. Some was laughing, others just stared, other was concerned.

This can't be true, this can't be happening. It's just a nightmare. Come on, wake up, wake up, wake up !

But, it was real. Miley ripped out the poster, and ran away with it.

''Who would do something like that ?!'' Miley exploded, showing Oliver the picture. They both were outside, siting on the piece of grass, away from the school and the students. Miley was unable to face all the gossipings, and chatting, and laughings, and...

''I don't know... But we will find out.'' Oliver replied, trying to sound as conforting as he could be.

''And Lilly who's not here... She's gonna have a heart attack when she's gonna see that.''

Yeah, especially since it's a kind of deja-vu for her...''

''What do you mean ?''

''Jane... remember?''

''Oh yeah, riiight. I didn't think about that.'' They stayed silent a moment.

''Maybe we should do everything to stop her from finding out.'' Miley suggested.

Oliver had a small laugh. ''It's highschool Miley, you can't keep anything secret, especially when everybody knows.''

Miley sighed. She felt violated, she felt angry, but worst of all, she felt ashamed. Ashamed ? Ashamed of her relation with Lilly ? Ashamed of loving Lilly ? What was wrong with her? How could she even think that ?

Oliver and Miley were at the beach. Oliver wanted her to chill out and just get her mind out of everything that happened. But Miley couldn't forget.

''I'm gonna have to change school... '' she whined.

''Miley ! Enough already ! It's just a stupid picture ! Nobody cares!''

''Nobody cares... You naive little boy... !''

Lilly arrived at the beach at the end of the afternoon. She had to spend the day to a skateboard competition. Oliver and Miley were sitting at Rico's.

''Hey guys !''

''Lilly !'' Miley screamed, more surprised than anything else.

Lilly wasn't supposed to be there.

Lilly laughed seeing her friends' reactions. ''You should slow done on the coke guys...''

''Yeah. Tsss, this stupid drinks ! Pfff ! '' Oliver babbled, trying to sound coherent, but failing. Lilly raised her eyebrows, completely confused by his behavior.

''Okay... so how's school ? What did I miss?''

Oliver and Miley exchange a worried look.

''You know, the usual. Class, teachers, lunch, homework. Boooooriinnng.'' Miley said, a little too loud to sound sincere.

''OK, what's wrong ?'' Lilly asked concerned. ''you're acting really weird...''

''Nothing's wrong, Lilly.'' Miley sighed. She was going to take Lilly's hand, but suddenly stopped. Lilly stared at her, even more confused. Miley looked down, guilt all over her heart.

''Hey guys !'' they heard someone said. It was Kyle, a 9th grader, like them. ''So erm girls, how're things going wuth you guys? I think you're hot !'' he asked, teasing.

Lilly shrugged. ''Good... erm, thanks...'' She didn't know what to say. We're hot ? What the...

''Yes, thanks Kyle ! Buh bye now !'' Miley quickly said. That boy was going to screw everything up.

''Yeah come on Kyle,'' Oliver said holding by his shoulders rescuing Miley. ''There's some hot babes on the beach. Let's take a walk to paradise.''

The boys stupidly giggled. Lilly looked at them leaving, still kind of surprised by all this. She slowly turned to Miley. ''What was that all about ?''

''No idea...'' Miley lied. ''Guy's stuff. Come on, let's go to my place.''

The girls left, Lilly following a jumpy and stressed Miley, and Miley being followed by a lost Lilly.

The girls were quietly laying on Miley's bed. They could hear the noise coming from Miley's alarm clock. Tic tac, tic tac...

Something was definitly off with them. Miley didn't kiss Lilly, and Lilly didn't dare doing it because Miley seemed distant.

''Miley...?''

''mmm?''

''Are you mad at me or something ?''

Miley straightened, looking at Lilly beside her. ''Nooo ! Course not!''

''So... How come you seem to far away from me ! I mean, yesterday, it was like we couldn't be apart, and today; it's complety the opposite !''

Miley sighed. Lilly was right. She was avoiding any contact with Lilly. The truth was what happened at school had waken up some questions. She wanted to talk about that with Lilly. But could she do it without revealing everything ?

''well...'' Miley looked at Lilly. She was waiting, staring at her with concerned eyes. Miley could also see something else in these eyes. It was fear. Fear of what she was going to tell her. For a second, Miley thought to go back and not say anything, but, for their relationship to go anywhere, she had to mention this.

She took Lilly's hand, hoping it would relax her. But Lilly seemed even more worried.

''Listen... It's been two months that we're together now. And it's been great... really !'' Miley started.

''But...''

''But I... I... have doubts...''

''Doubts... about...?''

''About us, about the kind of relationship we have.''

''OK Miley, just stop being criptic and say what you mean.''

Miley sighed again. OK, I'm going to say what I mean.

''I don't want to be a ''lesbian''.''

Lilly processed the info. Miley didn't want to be a lesbian.

''Ok, Miley, I'm still confused.''

''I Love you, you know that. But I'm not sure I'm ready to be in a relationship so hard.''

''Hard because we're two girls...?''

''Yeah...''

''Miley ! Who cares ?! It's not like everybody knows. The most important thing is us. IT's us being happy. We'll tell everyone when we're ready.''

''Yeah...'

''why are you so worried about that now anyway ?''

''I don't know. It just striked me.''

''Mmm, Lilly said not convinced. ''Lesbian is just a word you know, it shouldn't define who you are...''

Lilly sat closer to Miley, waiting for a sign she was feeling better.

Miley was having a fight with herself. What Lilly had said was completely true. She shouldn't worry about anyone but her. However, it was easier to say it than actually do it...

She looked at Lilly, still waiting. She smiled slightly and gave her a kiss. Lilly wanted more, but Miley pulled out. Strangely, for the first time, she felt like kissing Lilly wasn't right. It hurt her, but not as much as seeing this beautiful girl siting on her bed, a glimmer of pain in her eyes.