A/N: With school I've gotten next to zero time to type my fan fictions. Sorry that I've been lacking extremely in that area. It doesn't help that for my creative writing class we are now writing short stories and I have to put all my writing focus into that instead of my fics. Oh well, at least I'm not just quitting on my fics. Enjoy the chapter!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything from Teen Titans.

Chapter 16

Journal 4: Part 3

Continuation…

"Oh! This is just dandy!" Red X muttered sarcastically more to himself than to me.

"At least you have a reason to be arrested," I whispered back at him with distain. "I don't even know what I did to deserve this crappy punishment!" The thief looked down at me with a raised eyebrow in either confusion or interest; it's hard to interpret expressions when that person has a mask on.

"Surrender now or my squad will be forced to open fire again," the strict woman behind us shouted harshly. I cringed at the sound of the cocking of guns. She wasn't kidding, unfortunately.

I didn't know exactly what to do at this point. On one hand, I could stand up and talk with these police guys in high hopes of working the random arresting thing out peacefully with them. But then there was that chance that they wouldn't care what I had to say and pulverize me with bullets so I would end up like the cabinets around me which looked similar to splinters at the very moment.

Evidently, Red X already had figured out what he was going to do to get out the mess. It was just bad luck that his whole plan of escape depended solely on me.

"Hey! What are you – ah!" I cried as the thief forced me to my feet by yanking on my hair. I was afraid he was going to make me bald or something by the way he wrenched me up. Before I could protest or the guys with the guns could shoot, Red X had an arm wrapped around my neck while the other by my side with the X razor pressed against my stomach.

"Shoot and he's dead!" he yelled at the police woman and her trigger happy gun squad. The lady's eyes narrowed into dangerous slits of pure hatred. I would have shivered from the coldness of her stare, but I was too busy avoiding getting my stomach sliced open.

"I thought you were on my side!" I screamed at Red X. I cringed slightly as my anger toward him flew from my body for a second. One of the light bulbs above a dude with a gun exploded from my uncontrolled power and sprinkled glass on top of the stunned guy.

"I wasn't on anyone's side, shrimp," Red X whispered sharply into my ear from behind. I flinched as the blade sliced through my shirt and rubbed against my skin. The cool blade against my heated skin sent an unwanted shiver down my spine. I had to fight against the instinct to get my butt out of there. "Don't move," Red X told me emotionlessly.

My heart rate was sky rocketing by now. I stared at the police woman aiming her pistol in our direction. My stomach seemed to leave me as I saw it in her eyes. She didn't care about safety. She was going to shoot!

"Don't you dare, lady!" Red X yelled at her. The tone of his voice told me he was almost desperate. He had seen the crazy look in her cold eyes as well. She cocked her pistol with a foreboding look coming to her features. "You got to be kidding me," he hissed to himself. Apparently, he hadn't predicted this kind of outcome. I sure hadn't either.

Suddenly I felt a searing pain on my side. Without warning Red X had kept true to his threat. He ran the edge of the red blade across my side right below my rib cage. The pain was almost agonizing. I gave a loud shout of pain as the wound seemed to flare. Red X let me drop to the splinter covered kitchen floor on my hands and knees. I lightly pressed my hand against the wound and stared in shock at my own warm blood dripping down my fingers. I was in trouble.

Red X crouched down to my eye level as the gun squad fired again. He grabbed a fist full of my hair again and hissed into my face, "This is how's it going to go down. You have Raven's powers. That means if you get angry enough you can do anything with them for a short while. If you don't get angry soon, I'm going to force you."

"I'm not your dog. I can't sum up that much anger on command!" I told him.

"Think of something, kid, or we're dead," the thief said, glaring daggers at me. "Here's a good thought to chew on…your crappy life so far."

I glowered at him, wishing he would just shut up. The pain in my side wasn't helping my situation. I was quickly loosing blood and was getting dizzy. If I didn't stop the blood flow I could pass out. I almost just wanted that to happen, but self preservation had finally kicked in, and I was determined to set my life back on track.

I coughed as the gun fire created a cloud of smoke and dust. The cabinets around us were smothered into saw dust. If I didn't act, Red X and I could end up the same way. The police woman was now despising us because of that stupid stunt Red X pulled. I would bet she wouldn't hesitate to blow the thief's head off at this point.

"I should just kill you now or something," Red X said to me. "If you don't become some use to me soon I'll seriously get rid of you, shrimp! You listening?" He asked while shoving me against the island. "What makes you the most pissed? C'mon! Think!"

"Stop yelling at me!" I yelled at him which didn't make sense to either of us. Yelling at someone to stop yelling was just pointless, but I was getting deeply frustrated at his actions. "I'm freaking trying!"

"Well try harder! Tick tock. Time's a wasting. I'd say I'm getting old but we won't get a year older if we're dead in the next few seconds!" Red X said, his face in mine, invading all my personal space. I closed my eyes to block him out, but then the pain exchanged places with him and I winced.

Suddenly I broke that boundary in my head between being in control and loosing it all. I remember everything what I did but I wasn't in any control. I opened my eyes as my body suddenly burst into black flames. Red X backed away with slight fear spreading across his masked eyes. Even though I was mad at him I remember desperately screaming at my body to not hurt him. I needed to focus on the others behind me.

My body stood up and slowly turned around. The black flames that had consumed my whole body and threatening to take over my very mind flickered dangerously around the air silently. I stopped all the bullets aimed directly at me by simply putting up a large force field. With a small push of my hand I made the black shield slam right into the gun squad and police woman, forcing them all to the ground.

I turned back to Red X and saw him standing there with shock on his face. My body started to walk toward him but I refused with my mind to go any farther with this power surge. It was too terrifying and dangerous. I was scared out of my mind of this form I was now in. My anger, frustration, and pain had triggered something deathly threatening. I never wanted to return to it again. What if I couldn't control it at all?

Just as quickly as it had started, my fire was put out and I fell to my hands and knees. I gasped for air as if I had been kept underwater for too long. The pain at my side returned with a sharp sting, sending waves of intense heat shooting in every direction from my wound. I sucked in a deep breath and tried to ignore it by looking up and searching for a way out.

I was surprised when I was met with the face of Red X. I could literally feel his smile under the mask. His relief and happiness washed over me. I couldn't help but return it with a pathetic smile. I was on the brink of passing out and I was actually smiling. Can you believe how weird I am?

"You did great, kid," he told me with a small laugh at the irony of the situation. "Just never look yourself in the mirror the next time you pull that stunt."

"I'm never doing that again," I swore to him in a whisper. I was dead serious. Having almost no control of your body is a terrifying experience. It was a good thing I didn't let my mind get controlled as well. If that had happened I don't know what state the city would be in by now.

"One last trick, shrimp," Red X said. He quickly picked me up and walked me over to the sink's window. "We need to get out of here. Know how to levitate?"

"I've only had these powers for a week! I've never tried!" I shouted madly back at him. He still expected so much out of me for some reason. At least Slade didn't expect me to have all the powers of Raven at first. Actually, that was sort of his downfall.

"A week?" Red X asked in surprise. "But you seemed like a pro back when we were fighting."

I pushed the guy away with a sigh of frustration. Wincing the whole time, I climbed onto the counter and forced the window open. I felt terribly faint. If I didn't hurry I was going to pass out right there in the kitchen. I was one hundred percent sure Red X would have left me there if I did. He was a good guy but only to an extent.

The fresh breeze from the nearby sea brushed against my body, promising sweet freedom of the confides of the building. I bit my lower lip and stuck my head outside the window to get a good quick look around. I was at least three stories up from the lazy street below. I could see Titans Tower on its island off to my right. I had to be on the outskirts of Jump City.

"How does Raven levitate?" I asked Red X while putting my head back into the room. I jumped off the counter and staggered to a cabinet in the island that held a few dishrags. I grabbed a few and wrapped then around my side to stop the bleeding. My hands shook drastically the whole time. I was wasting time.

"I'm not sure," Red X said in deep thought. We both glanced over to the gun squad and woman who were out cold. My shield must have been stronger than I had imagined. I hoped none of them were dead. I didn't want any blood on my hands.

"But you knew Raven would go out of control if she got too angry," I claimed. "How can you not know one of the more simple powers she has?"

Red X shrugged as his only defense. "I know that from watching the team for so long, shrimp," he said. "I have no clue how she flies and that crap."

"Some help you are," I muttered. "What about the front door?"

"Not likely," someone said from behind me. I spun around and saw the cold police woman there with her automatic pistol aimed in my direction. My eyes flickered upward as a red haze flew over my head. The red X lodged itself into the ceiling above the woman. Upon impact the thing exploded. The woman cried out while ducking and putting her hands above her head.

"Don't just stand around," Red X said to me. He grabbed my arm and dragged me over to the sink. With much unknown strength or maybe with just plain adrenaline, he picked me up and shoved me out of the window. I gave a sharp yell and desperately tried to cling to something before falling. I latched onto the ledge of the window but was too weak to hang on. Red X swore loudly as he tried to grab my hand but wasn't fast enough. I was falling.

Air battered my worn body. I let out a loud scream while plummeting to what I believed to be my sudden death. My mind raced as my heart seemed to pause. I only had seconds to live.

"Azarath, Mentrion, Zinthos!" I yelled, only a few feet away from doing a fatal face plant in the pavement of the street. I gasped as my body stopped and suspended me there in mid air. My heart was thumping loudly now. It took me a second or two to get my wits back together.

It was really quite easy to suspend myself there, but moving was the hard part. I shot back up to where Red X was waiting for me at the window. I went too far and he had to jump for me to catch him. I then focused on going forward and screamed as I shot through the air like a bullet. Red X was screaming as well as he clung onto my wrists.

"Stop!" he shouted at me. I glanced down at him with wide eyes of fright. I had no idea how to get back down. His eyes narrowed. "Don't tell me you don't know how! Just calm down and focus on the ground or something."

I shook my head and tried to think of a way to stop. I focused on a descent and smiled as my shooting path sloped downward. I then thought of simply not levitating anymore. In seconds, the connection was cut off and we were freefalling. We both landed roughly in a dirty alleyway and rolled to a stop.

Red X moaned in pain as he rested there in a cold puddle of water. The cool, damp cement of the alleyway made me shiver with every breath. I couldn't get up. I was way too weak from blood lose and my extensive power use. All I could do was roll to my back and stare up at the boiling rain clouds threatening to drench the city soon.

"Crap!" Red X swore as he got to his feet and raced over to me. I could feel his eyes look me over. His guilt and regret bombarded my thoughts and I winced. I didn't like this new power of mine. Every ones' feelings were so open to me now. I feel like I'm barging into some personal life of theirs every time I feel their waves of emotions.

"Please tell me you are in college to be a doctor or something," I muttered sarcastically up at him. He was silent as he kneeled beside me, either thinking deeply or in shock. I hoped it was the first of the two.

"She can heal herself," he thought out loud. "But not in this way."

"You're not helping, man," I told him. "Actually, you've been a real pain in my ass for the past few hours! If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be in this mess!" I shot him a piercing look while snarling at him in frustration, "Either leave or do something useful!"

Red X stood back up with conflict brewing inside of him. He then kneeled back down next to me and examined my makeshift bandage I created out of dishrags. He carefully put it back together. It had loosened because of my crazy levitation flight. I winced as he tied it really tight and stood back up.

"I'm going to a payphone," he told me. "I'll call a hospital or something. The wound is not that serious. You can keep awake for at least a few more hours if the blood clots. Hang on, shrimp."

"No, I have to leave this city!" I urgently said to him. "I can't sit here waiting for help for an hour. Just help me up."

"No way!" Red X retorted. "You wouldn't be able to take two steps by yourself. You need help. I can't give it to you personally but a hospital can. Wait here for them."

I rolled to my side to make eye contact with him. If I went to a hospital Slade and any other person could look at the records and know instantly I was there. I couldn't risk that. I could not go to one. "Don't call anyone!" I shouted at the thief who was already half way down the alley.

"Sorry, kid, for everything," he called back. There was a pause as I helplessly watched him walk away. He turned again once more and said, "You were a mistake." And then he was gone as he rounded the corner. I was abandoned and alone, left there to shiver in that alley with no uplifting thoughts to help me.

I somehow managed to crawl over to a brick wall that chilled me to the bone, but I needed the support. I had left the backpack awhile ago and kept notebook papers in my side pockets of my pants with a pencil, so that is how I've managed to write all this to you. I-

I hear footsteps! That can't be good. Guys, I don't know when I'll be able to send you another note. But this won't be my last. I don't have anymore time. The footsteps are getting closer. It could be Slade.

Gene

End of Journal Number Four

A/N: I have the ending for this fic all planned out and I can't wait to write it. Sorry again for not updating in forever. I'll try not to wait that long for this next update. Please review! Thanks!