Hey Girls. I am back again. (was mostly out of town… I never thought that House sitting could be exciting lol) anyway….
Thanks for all the lovely reviews I got. They really made me feeling or squishy and pink, haha
Ciaobella06 – haha true -.. being stunning as Addison is not a bad thing AT ALL. So you want a girl... kay ;)
Nashi – aw. Thank you a lot. Sorry it took so long to update but I wasn't in town. And I love watching the daddies with their little girls.. so you are the 2nd vote for a girl :)
cda685 – Thank you :o) I am glad you like it. And you are the 3rd to vote for a little girl.
loves2writestories – I hope so too ;) lol hehe are you a lil physic.. if so .. you can join me .. I have the ability as well :D and btw I still have to catch up on your story.. sorry for not reviewing. And you are # 4 for a girl
xXjess886xX – She is on her way. And thank you. Hope you like the next part too.
Michele – You're welcome and you are # 5 to vote for a little girl. Oh you were talking about OTH… sorry didn't think about that.
Liz Sherman – not just you.. I guess .. we all were.. I don't know why Shonda keeps doing that. Seriously. I wonder who will be her punching bag next season. And let me tell you, a review is never dumb at all. I would have been happy with "dang didn't see that coming ;)" and you are # 6 with a girl.
Murgy31 – haha .. yes Alex would do that.. hehe. Okay so you are # 7 to vote for a girl.
Claire1 – did I scare you for a short little bit? Hehe sorry for that. And we will see what he does when he talks to her .. if he does.. hehe. And I also have this thing for father / Daughter.. and I also think I am more of a baby girl person anyway.. so you are # 8 to vote for a girl.
Salmon scrubs – thank you :o) so you are # 9 as a vote.
greysanatomy4life – so we now have already 10 votes for a girl :o) Emily? I love that name... seriously... but I already had another name in mind... but we will see about that ;)
friendsqueen216 – Thank you. This is a great compliment for me. And yeah I doubt my story will happen... don't think Shonda likes us that much for it to be included into the actual show lol. And no .. not another love triangle .. think we had enough of those on the actual show. # 11 for a girl.
Addicted1 – lol well.. if you are angry.. thinking isn't really a good option haha.. and I love the way you are thinking.. haha twin girls for mark .. lol I would laugh so loud.. and you are # 12 to vote for a baby girl.
Anto.icaro – Thank you. Glad to hear that. And here we have vote # 13 for a girl.
The Vanilla Latte – Thank you .. hehe glad you liked it. And thanks for the huge compliment. And you are vote # 14 for it to be a girl.
Noticeable801 – well when you saw the pictures that's all about it.. I could tell you that my dirty mind worked overtime when I saw it .. but oh well.. lol. So you vote girl? Then you are # 15 to do that :o)
Emily – lol thank you :o) I like to be amazing. Glad you like the story.
Alice – Thanks Alice. That's good to know .. and here it comes.. we have our first vote for a boy :o)
McAddex – thank you a lot, and another vote for a girl.. so that's # 16. :o)
Miranda – you are welcome :o) glad you liked the chapter. Here is the update … and you are # 17 :D
SammiJ – Thank you. That's really sweet to hear. I hope you like what happens next. And yay with you we already have 18 votes.
Dr.McSatan – you and me both. But I guess last night reached new standards of angriness. And I didn't want to scare you.. well maybe a little ;) lol so girl or boy.. I will count your vote for each of them.. so that makes 19 for a girl. .and 2 for a boy :D
PaoHalliwell – thank you.. so we now reached 20 votes for a girl.
Claire – Aww hon. .don 't worry. And you are not last if that helps. And there is nothing to forgive babe. Haha you didn't really think that Addie could move on that fast. Hey I am not Shonda .. I don't write crappy storylines. (sorry .. I don't want to offend Shonda here.. but I am really smad about the finale). Thanks for your nice words hon. I am glad you enjoy the ff. and you are vote # 21 for a girl.
Ingridmill – lol well.. you know... men.. you always have to tell them right away.. hinting won't help ;) and you are vote # 3 for a boy.
AddisonMD – Sorry about the cliffhanger. But here is the update. Hope you like it.
Ekagrey – Thank you. Here is the next chapter :o) and you are vote # 4 for a boy.
Suz – lol it is funny to call someone that when it's my name :D lol you don't like my A/N´s? ;) Sorry but sometimes I need to rant and I know other Addie fans get when I am saying. Lol don't be sorry. I like the shoes :D hehe.. did you just called out a request for Shonda? Forget it... she wont do it anyway. And well... even grown up people can be stubborn sometimes. .especially those two. And thank you hon. Glad you liked it. And your vote is last... so we have 22 for a girl
ALL IN ALL WE HAVE 22 VOTES FOR A GIRL AND 4 FOR A BOY.
A/N: okay I was debating on whether to update before or after I saw the finale. I should have updated BEFORE.. because what now follows is a rant about how Shonda made me wanna drown my sorrows in a bottle of vodka. I mean seriously? That's it? She had one whole season built up of A/A just to make Alex fall in love with his patient? Seriously? She had to repeat the intern / Patient storyline? Cause it worked out so well with Denny and Izzie, huh? I can't believe it ... we got all the cute little moments.. "I'd notice" .. Eyesex... little talks here and there.. and then .. THAT. They ruined the couple with the most potential on the show.
I mean sure we knew that it had to end some way with Kate getting her own spin off (congratulations btw) but seriously.. there were BETTER WAYS to end that. Like goodbye sex... a kiss.. some "I love you" scenes would have been good.. Addison telling him that she is going to leave.. Alex telling her to stay... We all hoped for SO MUCH MORE. I just cant understand why Addie cant be happy once in a while. And hey.. Addie is hot and smart and beautiful and talented. Why in hell doesn't Alex want her?
I liked Ava and Alex.. as FRIENDS. Gosh .. why can no one of the writers see how much potential as a couple Alex and Addison have? Why does Shonda makes it her mission to piss off as many Addison/Alex fans as possible? I mean it is no secret that she used Addison as punching bag throughout most of the season but this is just too much.
Anyway.. all I can hope for.. is that the spin off will be a LOT better.. although if Shonda doesn't like Addison.. I have the feeling we get to see Addison suffer a whole lot more. But what's become my mantra these days? Oh yeah... Hope dies last...
Let's face the bright side of life. KATE WALSH GOT ENGAGED!. Congrats girl. She deserves to be happy. Seriously she does. I wish her good luck with Alex. I hope he is the one who makes her truly happy.
Okay on with the story. And thank you Claire for beta reading this part. you rock little sis.
Previously on "Open your Eyes"
"Just tell him how you feel. Give him a chance. He came after you. That has to mean something. I know that. Trust me. He loves you just as much as you love him"
"I know that… I know he loves me. He told me even before I told him." She sighed. "You are right..." She looked around suddenly alarmed "But I don't even know where he went."
"I would try the airport."
"Right… thank you." She turned around "Wait… I need to take the day off."
Peter rolled his eyes "Go Addison.. I will explain it to the chief."
She smiled at him gratefully, nodded and left.
Chapter 3
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way I'd take back those words that hurt you and you'd stay
I don't know why I did the things I did I don't know why I said the things I said
Pride's like a knife it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons they wound sometimes.
Addison left the hospital, a cool breeze hitting her face. She took a deep breath and was about to hail a cab when she heard footsteps behind her. Something about these movements made her turn around and she gasped in surprise when she saw Alex staring at her.
"What are you still doing here?" She asked in shock, putting a strand of hair behind her ear.
"I… I don't know… I just couldn't leave." He eyed her, taking in her beautiful face noticing that stupendous glow which surrounded her. "Where are you going?" He asked quietly.
Addison darted her eyes away from his "I wanted to go after you, to make you stop."
"Why?"
"Apparently for the same reason you couldn't leave." Her eyes met his again and she saw all the hurt she felt for the last 6 months mirrored in his own eyes.
"I miss you." She finally admitted
"Yeah… I figured that." He answered bitterly, staring at her growing belly.
"Alex… it's not what you think. Peter is just a friend."
"A very good one I might add."
"Alex… just let me explain!" She threw her hands in the air, waving around furiously trying to get his attention.
"You don't need to. I get it." His voice grew stronger. "I mean… obviously I am too late and I hate myself for losing you, but it took me a while to figure out your stupid letter." He took a deep breath and ran his fingers through his hair.
"You left Addison… you left in the middle of the night and I found that freaking piece of paper sitting on your pillow. Do you know how that felt? Do you have a single idea how much that hurt?" He looked at her, the fire burning in his eyes.
"Yes… yes I can. Damn it Alex. I know exactly how that made you feel, because I felt exactly the same. I didn't want to go. I wanted nothing more than to wake up in your arms for the rest of my days, but I had to leave. I didn't want the mess that I had become to ruin my life.. or yours."
"Oh right... so you just took your bags and left without a second thought."
Addison started to get frustrated. "I did not leave without a second thought. I spent about one hour pacing through that little hotel room, looking at you, trying to figure out my next step. I spent even more hours in bed, lying awake, listening to your steady breathing, caressing your face and thinking of myself as the luckiest woman on earth."
"Then why did you leave?" Alex asked again, his voice now thick with emotion.
"I told you Alex. I was a mess. I was hurt… I had to get my life back into place."
"So… did it work?"
"No." She shook her head and ran her fingers through her dark red hair, trying to figure out what to say next. "All I did was thinking about you, and I hated myself for leaving the only good thing in my life behind."
"So you started screwing around to forget me?" As soon as the words left his mouth he regretted them. "I am sorry... I didn't…"
"Yes you did." Tears started to well up in her eyes "It's good to know that you think that highly about me."
"Addison... I am sorry… but seriously, look at you, you are pregnant and Peter... you two... seem to be pretty close."
"He is gay for crying out loud." The red haired doctor yelled not caring about the people around her.
"He is…?"
"Yes. Gay... totally... think Queer as folk kind of gay."
"Oh..."
"Yeah."
"So you didn't…"
"Sleep with him? No!" She looked at him, the hurt still visible in her eyes. "He is my best friend. He helped through a lot. Peter has always been there for me, comforting me, he was my shoulder to cry on."
Alex swallowed. "I am sorry, I assumed that you two are a couple."
"It's all right, you didn't know."
"I could have asked."
"Yeah, that might have been a good start." She started smiling wryly.
Alex didn't dare to look at her. "You do have a boyfriend, though, don't you?"
"No Alex, I do not have a boyfriend. You know, no one really falls for a pregnant woman." She swallowed hard and continued "And even if there was someone showing an interest in me… there is only person I want to be with."
Now Alex looked up, meeting her beautiful emerald eyes. He saw her smiling at him and without even noticing it he laced his fingers through hers.
"Oh really?" He playfully asked cocking an eyebrow.
She laughed "Yes really… you…you…"
"Be careful with what you are saying." He grinned at her but soon became serious again and a lump started to build in his throat.
Addison noticed the change in his behaviour and lightly touched his face. "What is it?" She asked in a whisper.
"I know it's not my place to ask you this... after all I wasn't a part of your life for the last 6 months, but…" His other hand landed on her protruding belly softly.
Addison laughed slightly "Alex... you really don't get it do you?"
He removed his hand and stepped away from her quickly. "I don't know what's there to laugh about Addison. Do you know how hard it was for me to see you... like this? I mean... I didn't think that your world stopped moving after us... but I thought that it would at least take awhile for you to commit to someone else."
"I didn't commit to someone else."
"Then until you sleep with someone else."
"I didn't sleep with someone else Alex."
"Right… so you got pregnant like the virgin Mary?"
Addison rolled her eyes and smacked his forehead. "Think Alex. Just try it... it might be unusual at the beginning but you will get used to it."
"Ouch... what was that for?"
"Like I said… Think!" She took a deep breath "I am 6 months along. 6 Months 1 week and 2 days to be exact."
"That's not possible, by that time you were still in Seattle. By that time we were…"
Addison looked at him, waiting for the information to sink in.
"Oh my god." He finally breathed and looked up at her.
"It's yours." She nodded feeling her heart pounding in her chest.
Alex face went pale and his hands started to get sweaty. Addison looked at him and started to get worried.
"Alex… say something… please." She begged him
"I… I am going to be a father." He coaxed out of his dry throat.
She gently squeezed his hand "You are. In about 3,5 months you are going to be the dad of a beautiful baby girl."
A slight smile appeared on his face and the drained colour came back, flushing his cheeks.
"Oh my god. I am going to be a father." He squealed with delight as he picked Addison up and swirled her around with joy.
Addison laughed along with him, pleased about his reaction and the sight of happiness on his face.
"Please put me down Alex." She said as her laughter subsided and he reluctantly complied and let go of her.
"I am sorry I didn't tell you any sooner." She said honestly, looking down. "I wanted to call so many times but I had no idea of what to say. I thought that you were mad at me or that you didn't want to talk to me at all… so I chickened out. But I promise you I would have called. I wanted you to have a place in our daughter's life."
Alex nodded "I know." He softly ran his fingers through her hair "I tried to call you about a thousand times but I was afraid of your reaction."
"We are both pretty stupid, huh?"
"I guess you can say that." He smiled and she smiled back.
"So… we are having a little girl?" He asked as his hand made its way back to her stomach caressing it softly.
"Yeah." She nodded, bending her head as a tear slipped down her cheek "Don't worry… those are happy tears."
He laughed "I will never get those kinds of things." His other hand lifted her chin up so he could look into her eyes "I am going to kiss you now, you're okay with that?"
She laughed softly and nodded, closing her eyes. She could feel him coming closer and his hot breath lingered on her lips for awhile before he finally closed the last remaining space between them and his soft lips landed on hers.
The kiss was soft, sensual but was carrying a lot of underlying promises, tenderness and passion.
After they parted their foreheads remained touched "Come back with me Addie." Alex breathed out as he looked at her.
She was silent and moved away slowly. She gasped for air and her hands started to get sweaty. "I am sorry Alex… I… My life is here now… I … I can't go back with you."
TBC
Thats it for chapter 3 :) I really hope you enjoyed reading that part and that there are still some Addisex fans around after last night. If you are still there and like my fanfic, please leave a review. It doenst take long.. and I really need some cheering up after the last episode... oh btw .. I guess you guys want a happy ending for this fic, right? yes? no?