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TO UNDERSTAND

'You can't have meant for this to happen surely…? You can't have…'

'Ginny… I…'

'Explain Harry… Explain now!'

Chapter 3: Too Deep.

Snape… Rodolphus… Malfoy… Black… All the deatheaters that have wrecked countless lives…Avery…Nott…Crabbe…Goyle… Are going to wreck countless lives…

I should be happy! I'm going to meet my parents, Sirius and Dumbledore again…But all I can think about is how close all those murderers are…all within my reach… I'll be in classes with them from now on, eating with them; living with them….I could get to them so easily… I could stop them before they kill all the people that they're going to kill… Stop them all from joining the deatheaters! … Stop a whole generation of servants to Voldemort! …But how? ... Kill them? Slaughter them all where they stand…? That's what they'd deserve...but no… I'd be put in Azkaban for sure! They'd think I was mad! They'd blame Dumbledore for letting it happen! My parents would watch and think me a monster! They wouldn't understand …Even Ginny …I don't think I could ever just kill them anyway, even if I wanted to! Not… Not even Snape …But I could change them… Get to them before they become deatheaters…Change time…

What the hell am I thinking?!? How the hell could I change them? They were born into families that were bad from the start…they've probably had Voldemort's ideals brainwashed into them, since they were able to take notice…but it matters not what someone is born…but what they grow to be… Dumbledore was right, it's not too late for them…I could at least try! …but how can a Gryffindor get into the inner circle of those Slytherins… A Gryffindor couldn't… the amount of prejudice between those two houses is much too high…but if I were a Slytherin…? The sorting hat always said that I'd do well in that house … What if this time I'm sorted, I don't tell the sorting hat to put me in Gryffindor…? I'd be able to influence them pretty easily if I was one of them…

'Sherbet dib dab…' said Ginny beside me 'I guessed it first time Harry!'

The gargoyle slid apart and we both stepped onto the moving staircase.

Become a Slytherin? … What am I thinking? How can I even be considering this? I'm here to meet my parents. Get to know them but…

Frank Longbottom. Rodolphus drove him mad….

Sirius Black. Bellatrix killed him…

Albus Dumbledore. Snape murdered him…

I can't just sit back and let them lead their lives, knowing what lies ahead…. But… what about Ginny? I can't leave her on her own in Gryffindor, not when it's my fault that she's here in the first place….but….I won't be leaving her! She'll be in Gryffindor and I'll be in Slytherin, that's all! We're siblings now, remember? I'll have an excuse to talk to her…

Who am I trying to kid? How the hell do I expect to get Bellatrix Lestrange…Black, to trust me if I talk to Gryffindors...? This won't be fair on Ginny…How do I even know that I can change anyone!

'Do you think he's in there?' asked Ginny as we reached the top of the staircase, pointing to the huge oak door.

How do I even know that I can change anyone?

'There's only one way to find out.' I said and banged the eagle door knocker 3 times.

'Come in.' said a familiar voice from inside and I pushed open the door.

There he was. Albus Dumbledore was sitting 5 metres away from us his blue eyes twinkling gently as he wrote something on his desk. I winced as a picture flashed in my mind of him lying crumpled on the floor his limbs at odd angles and I swallowed hard.

'No going back now.' she whispered beside me and our grip on each other's palms tightened a notch.

'Please sit down.' said Dumbledore, pointing to two familiar chairs and we did, feeling more and more nervous about what we were going to try to pull off. What I was going to try and pull off.

'And to whom do I owe the honour of meeting?'

'Um…' said Ginny nervously

'Harry and Ginny Threston.' I said quickly.

Dumbledore smiled and placed his fingers together.

'Well, I am Albus Dumbledore' he said smiling 'and I am also assuming that you both wish to join this fine school?'

'Yes.' I said confidently.

'And how old are you?'

'17.'

'Both of you are?'

'Yes.'

'Are there any preferred subjects that you would like to take?'

'umm….'

He was letting us enrol? Just like that? No questions asked about where we came from or…or anything?

'Potions, Defence against the dark arts, Charms, Transfiguration, Herbology, and Astronomy.' listed Ginny quickly, seeming to gain her confidence.

'Yes… I think that will be fine.' He said softly writing something on his desk again 'I'm assuming both of you can do magic?'

'Yes…' I said slowly

'I am sorry' he said smiling at my reaction to what was seemingly a very obvious question. 'It's just that we do have children of no magical quantity that do try to enrol every once in a while and I was just checking I hadn't made the wrong assumption with you two.'

So he's as polite as ever…

'Are you aware of the house system we have in place at Hogwarts?'

'Yes.' said Ginny quickly. 'We've been told before.'

'Oh excellent… Then all I need to do is sort you and off you trot! Your head of house will give you your timetables in the morning, after I have informed them of your addition to the school.'

So who will be giving me my timetable…? McGonagall or Slughorn…?

Dumbledore stood up and plucked the sorting hat off a shelf behind him, placing it gently on the desk.

'Ladies first?' he said politely and Ginny picked up the hat and let it drop over her eyes.

So I'm going to go in Slytherin? Is that what I'm going to do? I'm going to try and gain friendships with murders and criminals… What am I doing?!?

'Gryffindor!' the hat shouted and Ginny beamed happily.

Well that's Ginny where she belongs…. Now am I to follow her?

'Mr Threston, if you please?'

I looked Dumbledore in the eyes before putting the hat on and taking a deep breath.

'Hmm…' The hat murmured inside my head 'What have we here then…?'

Here we go…

'Not a bad mind… There's talent here…My, my quite a bit of it…'

If it means I've a talent for bad decision making, I guess its right.

'A certain disregard for rules I see… Though you'll try your best…'

I'll try my best to do what? Change evil? Or make the most of this time with Sirius?

'But where should I put you?'

This is it. What should I do?

'You look like a bit of a Slytherin to me…'

Do I meet my parents…? Or try and save their lives…?

'Hmm… yes. I think I've made up my mind.'

Now or never… If I don't object now it'll be too late…What am I going to do…? I'll regret this. I know I will! But….but I guess I've made up my mind too...

'Slytherin!' the hat shouted to the room and my stomach lurched.

Oh shit…There's no going back now.

I took off the hat with shaking hands and looked at Ginny beside me. She looked totally dumbfounded.

'That can't be right.' She said faintly, staring at me bewildered.

'Oh, just because you are siblings does not always mean you will be put in the same house.' Said Dumbledore cheerfully, not understanding her reason for confusion 'Though you will still see each other in lessons and during the day so no need to worry,'

I didn't look either of them in the eye. I couldn't. What have I done!? I've wrecked probably my last chance of getting to know my parents! I'll have Sirius glaring at me in the corridors! A friend of Snivellus Snape…

I looked at Ginny who looked angry and confused but unable to say too much in case Dumbledore grew suspicious and I instantly felt dirty. I've tricked her. She stayed thinking that we'd stick together and now I've gone and done this. I'm a Slytherin. What I always dreaded being.

'Do you want me to ask another student to show you to your dormitories?' Dumbledore asked kindly 'It would probably be best if you started lessons tomorrow as the day is nearly over!'

'No thank you.' said Ginny coldly; still staring at me 'We can find our own way, thank you Professor.'

'No thanks needed Miss Threston.' He replied 'I hope you have a wonderful time while you are with us.'

'Good bye Sir.' I said miserably 'Thanks.'

'Goodbye Mr Threston.'

We left the office and climbed back down the stairs in silence. As we stepped out into the corridor Ginny rounded on me.

'How did this happen?!?' she yelled. 'How?!? Did it pick up on your…your parceltongue or something?!? Is it just because it doesn't know how you got that scar!?! I mean why?!? WHY?!?'

'Ginny calm down...' I said miserably

'Calm?!? How can I be calm Harry?!? How can you be so calm!?! You're in Slytherin! Is that hat broken or something? Has it's … its stitches come loose or…or something?!?'

I said nothing and just stared at floor. How could I explain?

'I think we should go right back up there and ask you to get sorted again Harry… Come on!'

She grabbed my sleeve and started to pull me back to the gargoyle but I wrenched myself out of her grasp.

'No Ginny.' I said firmly 'It's put me in Slytherin and that's final.'

She looked at me as though I was somebody completely different, a total stranger.

'What are you saying?' she hissed. 'You're taking this as though…As though you expected to be put in Slytherin! You wanted to be put in Slytherin!'

I stared at the floor and stayed silent. What could I say? She walked closer to me and lifted up my face to look at hers.

'What have you done?' she said quietly. 'You can't have meant for this to happen surely…? You can't have…'

'Ginny… I…'

She walked away from me her face confused and alienated. She was giving me the 'stranger' look again and I didn't like it.

'Explain.' She spat harshly. 'Explain now.'

I tried to walk closer but she turned her back to me coldly.

'I'm waiting Harry.' She said and I could tell her voice was shaking.

I sighed heavily and placed my forehead against the cold stone of the corridor wall. What have I done? This was all a mistake, one, big, massive…mistake.

'When I got sorted the first time the sorting hat tried to put me in Slytherin.' I said in a monotone voice and Ginny didn't move 'I said to the hat over and over again that I didn't want to be in Slytherin and eventually it put me in Gryffindor.'

'Okay, fine.' spat Ginny sounding angry 'but what did you do this time? Just…just didn't say anything? Just let it put you in Slytherin?'

I stayed silent, pushing my head harder against the stone.

'Why?' she spat. 'Why the fuck didn't you just tell it no this time?'

'Because…Because I can't just sit there in Gryffindor while all those soon to be murderers in Slytherin grow up to be what they'll…what they'll become! This school is teeming with soon to be deatheaters Ginny…I can't just let them grow up to be what they're going to become without doing anything!'

She turned round slowly as though she couldn't believe what she was hearing.

'What are you planning to do then Harry?' she said quietly 'Murder them all in their beds or …or give them a lecture? Is that what you're planning?'

'No!'

'Then what?!?' she said, suddenly yelling.

'I'll …I'll change them.'

'Change them?!?' She laughed weakly. 'You seriously think that you can give them a talk on muggleborn rights and change the idealisms that have probably been drilled into them since they were born?!?'

'No!'

'THEN WHAT HARRY?!?' she screamed and I suddenly realised that she would never get it.

'YOU WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND!' I screamed back.

'TRY ME!'

'I'LL TALK TO THEM! FIND OUT WHY THEY'RE ALL GOING TO BECOME DEATHEATERS! TRY AND CONVERT A FEW IF I CAN!'

'WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU COULD CHANGE THEM HARRY?!? WHAT SERIOUSLY MAKES YOU THINK THAT YOU'VE GOT THE 'ALMIGHTY TOUCH OF JUSTICE'?!?'

'I DON'T THINK I CAN DO ANYTHING BUT I CAN BLOODY WELL TRY!'

We both stood glaring at each other, our breathing heavy and eventually Ginny turned away from me and put her head in her hands.

'I thought that you wanted to see your parents Harry… I thought you wanted to see Sirius again… I guess I was stupid to think that…'

'Ginny I do-'I said getting frustrated.

'No you don't.' she spat. 'All you want to do is act the hero, to go off on your own to try and save the world…like you always do, leaving all the other people behind.'

'Ginny it's not like that-!'

'Don't lie Harry! You were going to do it tomorrow! Pack up your stuff and leave with Ron and Hermione without telling anyone…without telling me… Without giving any explanation…'

I froze. How could she have found out about that? Had she heard us talking in Ron's room…? If so how much of that conversation had she heard…?

She wiped her sleeve over her eyes and sniffed loudly walking quickly down the corridor. When she got about 10 metres away she stopped.

'You know Harry…' she half sobbed. 'You're right... I don't understand…And I don't think I'll ever want to either.'

'Ginny-!'

'Not anymore!'

She stalked away from me and out onto the main staircase disappearing up the stone steps and I stayed where I was.

What could I say to her?!? I can't explain why me, Ron and Hermione are going to leave…were going to leave… She can't know about the Horcruxes or the prophecy… We need to keep that a secret...Okay, I should have told her I was going to leave… We should have decided to tell Ginny but I thought it was for the best... And now I've gone and got us into a whole new mess now… Why hadn't I just taken us home? Why?!? Why the hell did I have to make this whole situation even more complicated than it already is!? We're forbidden to mess with the past! I should have just taken this chance to meet James, Lily and Sirius again and…and left it at that! …but no… Because I'm Harry fucking Potter and I have to act the hero! I have to spoil things! I have to always be the one to get into the deepest of messes…and drag everyone else in deeper with me…

Hey. Lovely bit of Angst there, lmao! I'll have the next chapter up soon but to get it up ASAP you'll have to review! Thanks/Diolch

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