'Everyone thinks that I'm this happy girl. They don't really know me, do they? Everything on the inside of my closed doors is where my world of happiness ends.' She thought this as she walked into her room and sat on her unmade bed. Her eyeliner was smudged and streaks of tears were visible. She got up off her bed and walked over to the mirror. As she wiped away the excess make-up, she thought to herself. 'So much for the last night of summer. Now, I can't even avoid seeing all those lovey dovey couples. I just wish Sean would have broken up with me sooner, rather then 15 minutes ago.'
Sean had come back to Degrassi, but just for the summer. The moment that he saw Emma at the beach that morning he knew what he had to do.
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At the beach 2 months earlier.
Sean: Emma. Hey. He had an awkward smile on his face as he said this.
Emma: Sean! What are you doing here! She got up from her beach towel and gave him a huge hug.
Sean: Um, I'm back for the summer. Ya' know, to hang with Jay. He paused.
Emma: oh. Great. She tried to sound happy, but Sean could tell by the expression on her face, that she wasn't.
Sean: Emma. He paused again. I came to see you.
At this Emma smiled and just blushed.
Sean: So, yea, I was wondering if you maybe wanted to go out tonight. Just us.
Emma nodded her head while smiling.
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Ever since that day they had been inseparable. Well that is, up until tonight, Emma had thought things were going great between them. She had thought wrong.
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At Jay's house.
There was a party at Jay's house and Sean and Emma had just gotten out of the car. Sean had been acting strange all night. Emma knew that Sean was leaving for Wesaga Beach in the morning, and she dreaded it. She at least thought she would have one last good night with Sean before he left. But before they entered the house Sean stopped Emma at the door.
Sean: Emma listen, I'm leaving tomorrow, and I just want to have a good night with Jay before I leave. So I think I should tell you this now.
Emma was nervous. She wasn't sure what to say.
Emma: Okay, no problem.
Sean: No, Emma you don't get it. I'm breaking up with you.
This time Emma was speechless. All she did was nod. But then with a smile on her face, walked into the party. Once inside, she had drink after drink, nonstop, until someone brought her home.
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She continued to look at herself in the mirror. She had been surprised at what happened that night. Sean had broken up with her, but that's not the only thing that surprised her. The person that brought her home was the one who surprised her. Jay Hogart. But right now she didn't care about anything. Right now, she just wanted to be numb. So she opened the drawer and pushed some things away until she found it. She shook two pills out and swallowed. She had gotten the pills from a dealer on the street. They had told her they were pain killers. That's what she wanted, something to get rid of her pain. She held the container in her hand, and then decided to take more. She wanted everything to go away.
Her mother had been calling her to come upstairs for awhile now, and Spike was getting nervous. As Spike walked down the stairs she noticed that Emma was laying on her bed. 'She never sleeps during the day' Spike thought as she walked over to Emma's bed. She shook Emma once "Emma, get up, time for dinner." She waited a second. "Emma" she said again, this time even more scared.
"Emma wake up, please, Em don't scare me." A tear rolled down Spike's cheek.