Blue lay on her bed, curled up like her kitten, Hitomi, who was sleeping on the pillow next to her. Her eyes still stung from her tears, but for some reason they just wouldn't stop pouring from her eyes. It was completely ridiculous! The reason she avoided boys in high school was because they were insensitive and blind to a girl's true feelings.

"Why does this have to happen to me?" Blue asked to no one in particular. Her face was still pressed against her pillow, but talking seemed impossible. Her mouth was numb, not to mention she didn't even want to think about the kiss she'd just gotten from Hige. That was completely wrong! He was dating Christie and that was just so out of place to begin with.

Blue realized that her tears finally ceased their flow and she rolled over to look at Hitomi, who was still asleep. She made small purring noises and Blue watched her back rise and fall as she took in slow, deep breaths. At least someone would get an easy sleep that night. Blue pushed herself off her bed, not realizing before how tired her body was. The stress from just the last hour had taken a terrible toll on her body, but she walked over to the fog covered window that her desk sat in front of. She sat down in the chair and looked out of the window, thinking about everything that'd happened in the past year. It seemed so long ago since she met Hige, since she finished High School...But in reality it was only a short time away.

She pulled a red diary from between a few books stacked near her laptop. The cover was a tough fabric and it had an Asian design on it with a pink ribbon to mark her place. It had been so long since she'd written in it. Blue toyed with the thought of reading some of her old entries. It could bring back a lot of bad memories, but she always liked to see how much she'd grown in the past months. With a shrug, Blue flipped the book open to a random page.

March 4

Dear Diary,

Today was so much fun! Well, except for the school part. Pops finally gave me permission to move out a few weeks after this New Year's and I moved in with Hige. It's a bit weird, I'll admit, but I'm really starting to enjoy it. He has work while I have school, and I usually get home before he does, but today he was here before me and surprised me with Chinese! I love Chinese food, and I don't think I ever told him that. Anyway, we ate and then did some other things that I will NEVER write down in case someone were to get a hold of this diary. Ha! But I bet it's obvious anyway...

Blue laughed softly as she read the last few sentences. Had she really been that carefree so long ago? She leaned back in her chair and looked up at the window, still covered with mist from the cold. She could see a faint outline of the full moon in the dark sky, and for some reason it invoked in her a feeling of peace, even though everything seemed to be very chaotic around her. Blue sighed and flipped to another random page.

April 23

Dear Diary,

I absolutely love Spring Break! Well, okay, so Spring Break was a week ago, but there is only a little bit more time left until I finally graduate. I really should write more in here that way my entries aren't so long. Everyone seems to be converting to online journals, but that just seems foolish to me. Although I must admit that writing with a pencil hurts my fingers sometimes. Oh well, the things I do sometimes.

Anyway, this Spring Break Hige and I went out of town to the beach with a few people from school. No one really important, just some kids I talk to in my English class. All we really did with them was sleep in the same cabin...condo...place...Whatever you call those houses at the beach. It was fun, minus the fact that Hige spazzed about other guys possibly seeing me in my swim suit. It was really funny actually, and I love the way he's so protective. But I'll never tell him that...

"Yeah, he sure is protective," sighed Blue out loud, wondering just why everything had turned out the way it had. Why did the whole thing have to be crazy? Why couldn't her and Hige have just parted ways like everyone else when they break up with their lovers? Hitomi mewed from the bed. Blue looked up and saw her little kitten sitting on the edge of the bed, obviously wanting attention. Blue smiled and decided that it would be much more comfortable to read, lying on her warm bed with a ball of soft fuzz purring on her tummy.

June 7

Dear Diary,

Today was completely awesome! I've already been registered and accepted for college, so now all I have to do is chill out this summer! Hige has this week off, so we plan on spending a lot of quality time together. Lately, we've been watching a lot of movies, which is tons of fun. It's just so nice to be together. I'm so excited too! This relationship has lasted so long, and I feel as if I know Hige from somewhere. Another life maybe? But I'm really not sure if I believe in that stuff. Even so, I'm certain he's the one I'm meant to be with.

I always feel so unlike myself when I write in this diary. But I guess it's a place where I can just voice every feeling I have, which is nice. I don't know why I seem to sound so cheerful when I write when in real life, I'm really quite mellow...

"Ow! Snap Hitomi, stop clawing at me!" Blue hissed at Hitomi as she retracted her claws from Blue's shirt. Blue placed her diary face down on her bed as she scratched Hitomi gently behind the ears. "Try finding a less painful way to get my attention. Yeesh."

August 22

Dear Diary,

Yay! Six Month anniversary! So much fun, really. That's really all I have to say about that. On the sad side, Miko died the other night. He was a really old cat, but I'm glad he wasn't suffering or anything. It's about twelve at night right now and due to such anniversary activities, I'm really tired. If I don't turn out the light soon, I'll probably get attacked by Hige in the most unusual of ways. How fun. Maybe I'll leave this light on longer...

Blue felt an unsettling wrench in her stomach as she thought about that night. She just remembered everything she was missing now from her life. It was strange how just being with someone who loves you for so long can cause you to rely on their affection and support just to help you get through the day. Blue shut her diary and put it on the table next to her bed. She was too tired to put it on her desk, and no one would look at it anyway. After placing Hitomi, who was now sleeping, on her own pillow, Blue rolled over and turned off her lamp, soon slipping into an uneasy sleep.

So, my wonderful readers...Just a look into the mind of Blue. Some of these dates actually have a sort of significance in my own life, actually. Mwahahaha! Fun to be like F. Scott Fitzgerald. OMG the best author btw. Tender is the Night...such a good book. You guys should check it out.

Anyway, the next chapter...I bet you can guess what shall happen. I like putting small doses of stuff into my stories, to be honest. My mum doesn't like me doing that, but these are my stories, and well, I would just be thinking this sorta stuff on my own anyway, so why not write it down? shrugs So I hope this chapter was enjoyed. I had fun writing it. Don't forget to review!

Aeorith