The dreams didn't get better, they got all the more vivid with each one. I was suddenly no longer sure of things. A certain frailty is added to people's personalities when they actually realize that in their dreams they might be foreseeing their own demise. Vivid certain death every night, it was getting to the point where I didn't want to sleep. Kadaj noticed this when we were in Costa Del Sol. He started watching me more; I started to notice that I was too unsocial to actually work with other people. I was like that before but it had gotten worse apparently.
It all apparently came to a head that night while I was reading a book on my bed and Kadaj sat on his staring at me. I felt his eyes on me before I even looked up. I slowly put my book down and stretched.
"Is something wrong?" Kadaj asked with those neon eyes scanning me.
"Honestly?"
"That would be nice," he chuckled.
"I've been having dreams about Sephiroth since I met you… and they have been getting worse" I shook my head "I feel silly actually saying this"
"How worse… I was under the impression that you weren't afraid of him" he stood up and then sat down next to me. I scooted away from him and shook my head with a slight frown.
"Then you would have the wrong impression… just because you feel you should do something doesn't mean fate feels the same,"
"Do you really think that he could kill you?"
"I believe that anything is possible… I talk a good game" I laughed "But… in the face of things… I'll stand and fight but I know better than anyone else does that I am not invincible" he kissed my forehead. "Maybe the dreams are a sign that I shouldn't be doing this with you" I stood up and stretched again before yawning.
"Why?"
"Why? Because dearest Kadaj as much as I like you… you could still possibly be tempted by Jenova and I know, I couldn't go through with killing Sephiroth, if I knew that under the facade was you"
"I'm truly touched" He stood and pulled me into his arms "Don't worry Seraphim, I've been ignoring Mother, and I am going to keep ignoring Mother… at least you want me, she just wants Sephiroth," he smiled and cupped my chin in his hand making me look up into those amazing eyes. He leaned down and kissed me, it was a soft kiss the kind that only lasts a moment but means more than hours of making out. "If it comes down to it… and you die I will go against him" I swooned in his arms, feeling light headed and breathless all at the same time. He had changed my mood completely with a touch. I looked into his eyes, he was my weak spot. He managed to worm himself into my life and make himself the chink in my armor. Staring into those eyes made me realize that I couldn't do this with him.