I woke up on the coldest hardest ground you could imagine; I didn't even have a blanket around me. The first thought when I looked around the cave was Kadaj. I hoped that they hadn't gotten their hands on him. Then it slowly sunk in where I was and what was around me. I was in the cave by the crater where we found Lucrecia's soul two years ago. I could feel it still, someone who was unwilling to go back into the lifestream like a cold hand on my back. As I noticed what surrounded me my eyes went wide. I was lying in the midst of hundreds of beds. Also my pack, sword and jacket were nowhere to be found. My hands and ankles were tied as well so when Yazoo walked over to me I was virtually helpless.

"Mother speaks to me now, all because I captured you, she really doesn't like you Seraphim" he laughed "You took her precious Kadaj from her, I'm surprised that she doesn't want you dead now… Your fate will be decided by Sephiroth" he grabbed my hair and dragged me through the cave.

"What's with all the beds, Yazoo?"

"Oh you really don't know do you… the cult of Jenova, they are always happy to help us" The cult of Jenova had started sometime after we killed Sephiroth, it had grown but I wasn't expecting them to actually know anything about Jenova. They were all just Sephiroth enthusiasts who thought that he wasn't dead and that he would rise again with his mother and cleanse the planet, maybe I was wrong seeing as that was what was trying to happen.

"They all have the stigma don't they?"

"Impressive, too bad you will be dead in a matter of days" Yazoo threw me into the corner, I hit the wall hard, but not as hard as I had before. "Loz is out looking for mother as we speak"

"I know about Nibelhiem" this got Yazoo's attention. He tilted his head to the side letting his mass of silver hair fall over his shoulder.

"You know absolutely nothing" he picked me up by my neck and held me in the air. It was then that I saw the most disturbing thing ever, I saw Sephiroth in his eyes as I struggled to breath. It was then that his cell phone went off, it took me a moment but I did eventually notice that it was my ringer. Yazoo dropped me and then kicked me into the wall, I cried out when I made contact with the hard rock. He smiled when he looked at the caller Id on my phone. "I'll be sure to tell Kadaj you say hello" he flipped my phone open "Brother… we need to talk… oh she's here… yes she's alive… only until Sephiroth comes… Mother said so… yes she talks to me now too… you've been ignoring her Kadaj, Mother doesn't like to be ignored… you want to talk to her? What ever for?" he chuckled "... And all along we thought your will was Mothers…Poor Kadaj, now I know why mother sacrificed you" he closed the phone and walked a few steps before he turned around and cast sleep on me. I went slack immediately.

I hate my dreams, I would rather never dream again then to have one dream amidst a million nightmares. This time I was on my knees with my hands tied behind my back. There was a coarse rope tied around my neck and someone was pulling it tight. I was surrounded by hundreds and hundreds of people. I could hear the cheers.

"For their Crimes against Mother, they are to be punished as Mother has seen fit, to die by the hands of Sephiroth" It was Loz's voice, I soon saw boots and I knew who it was standing in front of me, I knew it even before I saw the gleam of Masamune out of the corner of my eye. Sephiroth. I turned my head to the side and saw Kadaj next to me, tied in the same manner, struggling to get free, Sephiroth swung Masamune down and decapitated Kadaj with easy, his head rolled over closer to me and landed face up. I looked into those dead eyes and started to cry. I screamed and that was when Sephiroth swung Masamune again.

I opened my eyes to find Kadaj standing over me shaking me awake. He smiled when our eyes met. I could see that next to him he had my sword and pack. We didn't say a word to each other, and I was glad because I knew if I did I was going to start crying. He helped me stand only for me to find out that I could barely walk. He threaded my Sword through my belt for me and then flipped me over his shoulder. We walked right out the front door, no conflicts no nothing which could mean only one thing, Loz had found Jenova.

When we were outside of the cave I got a good look at Kadaj's face, I was trying to see Sephiroth like I had seen in Yazoo's face. It took a few minutes but I saw it, Sephiroth looked out from his eyes with a grin. Mother smother, it was Sephiroth who spoke to them, the voice of Sephiroth was a powerful thing to those with Jenova cells… except for me apparently.

"We have to get out of here before they come back" Kadaj said as he put me down.

"Where did they go?"

"Loz was sent to follow the Turks; apparently the Turks and Loz had a little run in with Cloud, they weren't too far from here so we need to leave now" I nodded and got on the bike Kadaj got on behind me and put his hands on the handle's "I don't want you to pass out and cause us to crash"

We didn't stop until we reached North Corel. I didn't ask him how long I had been out for, I didn't want to know. The idea of missing days angered me, then again so did the idea of having to be rescued I did not like the damsel in distress deal, that wasn't me at all, when I haven't been thrown into a wall several times of course. A thought popped into my head.

"Kadaj, we need to buy Materia"

"I already did that, we also already have a room at the inn here" there was a bit of amusement in his voice.

"How hard is it to ignore Jenova's call?" I asked right as he stopped the bike, he stared at me for a moment, and turned his back.

"Harder than anything you could possibly imagine, it's like being on fire and trying not to burn… if anyone can do it I can" he turned back around and helped me off of the bike.

North Corel was a lot brighter than it used to be, it wasn't scattered with junk and all the tents were gone, replaced by new stone buildings. The one time I saw Barrett after we fought Sephiroth he said it was starting to look like it used to. I never really thought about it until now. Destroying Sephiroth the first time was some sort of catalyst that brought the whole world together again, and righted a lot of wrongs. These thoughts filled my mind as Kadaj helped me up the stairs to our room.

He opened the door for me to reveal one bed in the whole room. One large bed, I stared at it for a moment and was afraid to cross the threshold. I didn't want to sleep in the same bed with him, again. I looked at him and he cracked a grin.

"It was all they had," he tried to look innocent and failed, Kadaj was many things but his eyes always told on him when he tried to act innocent, there was nothing innocent in those eyes. I entered the room and closed the door behind me.

"Oh, now where are you going to sleep" I laid down on the bed and stretched my whole body hurt. He lay down beside me and stroked my cheek while he propped himself up on his elbow.

"Right here" he smiled a very dark and sinister smile.

"Get that idea out of your head now, I'm in pain and bruised to high hell, I am many things at this moment, sexy isn't one of them." He leaned over and kissed me. I rolled out of the bed, I pulled a muscle in the process and ended up crawling on my stomach to the bathroom. He turned the water on for me and sat on the side of the tub. He took off his gloves, and that made me notice one thing, I had never seen him without his whole get up on. He had long slender fingers that made him look like he would have been good at playing piano. Then he started to unzip his shirt and I looked away he laughed as he pulled off his shirt and set it on the sink, he set his gloves neatly on top and put his sword against the sink.

I got a glimpse of the tattoo on his arm as I tried to pull myself on the tub. Kadaj laughed because my eyes went wide but they went wide for a reason much different than what he was thinking. I knew that font I knew what that number meant. The number 3 was perfectly tattooed on his arm, I looked up at him. I could say ha I knew it you're a clone. The number was different, not the same as the other clones,

"Where did you get that?" I pointed to the tattoo,

"Oh this, I've had it as long as I can remember, Yazoo and Loz have one too, Loz is 1 and Yazoo is 2" He stared at it for a while and then shook his head. "You know what it means don't you" I just stared at him and nodded.

"You're a clone… I think"

"You think" he suddenly looked sad

"The only clones of Sephiroth I have ever come in contact with couldn't put two sentences together… all most all of them ever said was Reunion and Jenova" I shrugged "You're probably not a clone, but that is a Shinra tattoo" I lifted the sleeve of my t-shirt and showed him mine. Seraphim-1 was tattooed with the Shinra font on my shoulder. He reached out and touched it; there was a small smile on his face once again. He turned the water off and helped me to my feet.

"Are you going to be able to get undressed or do you need help"

"No I'm good"

"I'm going to stay in here and make sure you don't fall and drown" I nodded and he walked over and sat down on the toilet lid. I turned my back on him but I knew he was watching me undress, I could feel his eyes. I shook my head, he was a clone, my suspicions were true, he was a clone, and still. I looked over my shoulder at him. He was staring at me. I shook my head again and kicked my clothes into a pile and got into the tub. The hot water felt so good on my skin.

"Hey, Kadaj"

"Hmm?" he stood and walked the few feet over and knelt beside the tub.

"What do you remember? About your past,"

"Not a whole lot, it's all so hazy… what about your past Seraphim"

"I was borne in Shinra labs, Doctor Gast was studying both of my parents, and they were both Cetra… my father died in an experiment before I was borne, my mother died weeks after... I was injected with Jenova cells they were trying to recreate the Sephiroth experiment, they called it project Seraphim. This all when I was not even a week old, I underwent several treatments of Mako radiation therapy just like they do to Soldier candidates, but this was all before I was old enough to talk. I trained with both the Turks and Soldier, and that was my life until I turned eighteen, then I contacted Sephiroth and helped him get Jenova so he could get me out. Once I was out I ran into Cloud and then well I helped them kill Sephiroth, my life hasn't been that exciting" I laughed and grinned.

"At least you have something to say I can't remember most of my past"

"Sometimes the past isn't meant to be remembered, sometimes we're meant to make the most of the present" I kissed him softly. He pulled away.

"I'm going to lay down, tomorrow we're leaving for Gongaga right?" he stood.

"Yeah, after I call Cloud of course"

"Cloud?"

"Yeah, Cloud is supposed to, help us… for all I know they've already been to Gongaga" he shook his head.

"Oh no, I would have felt it… I have a connection to mother that's greater than my brothers" I nodded and got out of the tub. He seemed mesmerized by my body, I was one of those people who was too comfortable nude. I wrapped the towel around me and stretched my body felt much better, I got dressed again and grabbed a potion out of my bag and drank it.

"Much better"

"You aren't going to leave me again are you?" the statement took me by surprised I faced him.

"Kadaj, I promise I will never leave you again"