DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight/ New Moon. Nor do I own the characters that appear in Twilight and New Moon. Stephenie Meyers does.

(I know I said that I would have this chapter take place 4 months later, but I changed my mind. I did include Edward, though!)

Chapter 3: Too Much Alone Time is Never Good

(E. P.O.V.)

" Edward, we are taking your Volvo to the mall. This silver would look better with my outfit" Rosalie said as she and Alice was heading out the door of our new house.

"Sure" I mumbled back, refusing to open my eyes.

"Wait, honestly?" Alice asked in complete shock. "You NEVER let us use the Volvo"

"I honestly don't care Alice. Just leave" I moaned, wanting to be alone. I heard Rosalie and Alice sprint out the door quickly. After I was sure they were gone I shuffled up the steps and into my new room. I fell onto the leather couch with a thud and laid there, not moving a muscle, for the rest of the afternoon. Alice and Rosalie were out shopping or whatever they do at the mall and everybody else was out hunting. I finally had some quiet time to think. I was alone in Alaska, while Bella, my love, was still back in Forks. Today was Tuesday. She would be at school, probably eating lunch with Angela and Jessica. And Mike. I couldn't help but clench my knuckles the second his name popped into my mind. That cocky idiot who was completely and utterly obsessed with MY Bella. I felt my inexistent heart drop. She wasn't mine anymore. Now she could be Mike's. I looked down to find a ripped pillow in my hands.

"No, that isn't fair. I left her" I mumbled to myself. I began to dryly sob. I was sure that Bella had already moved on, or would move on soon. It was only a matter of weeks before she forgot all about my family and me. She was only human after all. I sigh and stared out the window at the snow falling heavily onto the ground. Even with my vampire vision I could not see more than a half a mile away. I sighed. Part of me wished that I had gone with my family hunting. Being home alone with nothing to do made it all that much harder to forget about my old life. I'm not sure how much longer of this I can last.

Finally I got up and put in a random CD. The first song was Claire De Lune. I quickly ejected the CD. I did not need any more reminders of her. I randomly picked another and when to sit back down on the couch. Capriccio Espanola by Rimsky-Korsakoff. It was random, but still worked. I needed something loud and intense to distract me. Today was one of the days that I wished that some of the myths about vampires where correct. I wish we needed to sleep in coffins, because when you sleep, you aren't actually conscious, and I wanted to be unconscious more than anything at the moment. I sighed and shirted my body. I missed music about half as much as I missed Bella (which says a lot) but I had not touched the piano since we left. It reminded me too much of her. I didn't need those memories right now. I couldn't go back to her. She deserved a complete life. She needs someone who can give her everything that she wants and deserves. With me gone, she will be able to find someone who will kiss her and hold her without wanting to eat her. I didn't want to deprive her of a complete life. She was too good of a person to deserve that. I had to think of the negative traits of hers. The unattractive parts. Reasons why I wouldn't want her with me for all eternity. But I could not think of anything. I even found her stubborn streak extremely attractive. Everything about her was perfect. Ugh. I couldn't do this. It wasn't fair! There is no way I could ever go back to Forks. She was more important than even my greatest desires.

Finally I heard the door open downstairs. They were home at last.

"Edward?" called a booming voice.

"I'm up here, Carlisle" I called as I sprang up from the couch. I ran my fingers through my impossibly messy hair, and tried to smile. I didn't want them to worry about me. Then I ran down the steps to meet them.

(B.P.O.V)

The rest of the week went by in a blur. So far, I managed to break three plates and two cups, trip at least five people with my crunches, fall down about seven times, and cry myself to sleep every night. I was a mess. Even Charlie, the most unobservant man in Forks, noticed. He made a comment over dinner the other night. He suddenly turned off the television and turned to face me. It took me forever to convince Charlie that I wasn't extremely depressed. Finally, after lying for about a half hour or so, he believed me. Either that or he realized that the conversation was going nowhere.

I tried to occupy my time as much as possible. Being alone with nothing to do was dangerous, so I made sure that I constantly had either a good book to read or homework that needed to be done by my side. My mind still wondered off to him though. I couldn't help it. I was frequently thinking about what he is doing now. I bet he is happy now that I am away. He is finally free. He doesn't need to save me anymore. One huge burden that he is finally freed from. I felt my cheeks redden as I thought about what an annoyance I must have been. How could I have ever thought that such a god-like creature could care about me. I was so embarrassed by what a fool I had been. I'm sure he met a great person. Someone prettier and more talented who can actually walk across a room without falling. That is what he deserves. A beautiful person, or better yet, vampire, to love him and give him everything he needs. I was so selfish to keep pushing myself upon him. He was just too kind to say anything. My tears were coming hard now. My pillow was damp and my eyes were stinging from the excessive amounts that I had been crying lately.

With tears in my eyes, I grabbed my book and began to read. I needed somewhere to escape, and nothing works better than a book.

Right when I finally got into the book, the phone rang. Reluctantly, I sat up and grabbed it.

"Hello." I said with as much enthusiasm as I could."Bella! OMG Bella! It's me!"

I gasped. I would recognize that voice any ware.

HAHA….sorry about the cliff hanger, but if you want another chapter, I suggest you review. I have the next one already typed and ready to go, but I refuse to post it until I get a lot more reviews. Sorry!