Note: Sorry, I was bored and added onto my story. Guess it's not such a one-shot anymore, huh? xD

Hikaru lay with Kaoru, their fingers entwined. The coolness of the bed sheets freezed the twins even more, except for their hands, which were touching the other person. Hikaru smiled at Kaoru's face and how his hair ruffled when lain flat against the bed sheets. Hikaru moved his leg, to make sure he was still real.

"What are you doing, now?" Kaoru whispered, a hint of amusement in his voice. "Silly boy."

"You should know," Hikaru meant to joke back, but by the expression Kaoru took on, he knew it was taken the wrong way. "Well, you should."

That didn't help. Kaoru turned over and faced their closet, tears tugging at his eyes. He refused to let them win; he refused to cry infront of anyone.

Hikaru huffed and wrapped his arm around Kaoru; he was secretly searching for warmth once the younger boy's hand left his. Hikaru brought his lips to Kaoru's ear and breathed on him, making Kaoru tremble if not for a moment.

"Stop it," Kaoru said, a cry barely audible under his tone. "Just stop it."

"No," Hikaru replied, a little annoyed that his brother refused.

Hikaru knew that Kaoru was infatuated with him, yet when Hikaru decided to play with Kaoru, he took it the wrong way.

"Just because I'm sensitive to you, you try to bug me. I don't like it, stop," Kaoru had yelled at Hikaru the night before. Hikaru closed his eyes and wondered, if their parents had been home more, would Kaoru have not turned out this way?

Hikaru had denied to liking Kaoru a million times before, but now he began to question his answers. "I don't like Kaoru like that." "We're just brothers." "That's just gross." Did Hikaru really see it that way? If he did, then why did he tug at his little brother's patience even when he snapped at him for playing around?

"Maybe I'm attracted to you?" Hikaru wondered out loud.

"Knock it off!" Kaoru snapped as he pushed Hikaru away and he faced his older brother, still holding back tears. "I hate that, don't play with my emotions!"

"Maybe I'm not playing with yours," Hikaru teased. "Maybe I'm playing with my own?"

Kaoru lowered his head and looked away.

"Don't even pretend," Kaoru scowled. "Don't even pretend that you feel the same way. That's cruel, it's evil, it's-it's-"

"Just what you want?" Hikaru wanted to say but didn't.

Instead, Hikaru scooted closer and wrapped his arms around Kaoru and pulled him close, feeling that their breathing rate was different and so was their heart beat. A tear formed at Hikaru's eye and he sighed and rested his head on Kaoru's. Kaoru's body was trembling, like he was having spasms or something. Hikaru finally scolded, "If you need to cry, then cry."

Kaoru shook his head and pulled away lightly and sat infront of Hikaru, refusing to look at his face. Hikaru scolded himself under his breath and tried to pull Kaoru close again. Kaoru shook his head again and he refused to budge. Hikaru could almost imagine how Kaoru was feeling. Angry for thinking that Hikaru was just playing; confused at how Hikaru treated him. Hikaru thought about it and realized he was confused himself. How did he feel? Angry that Kaoru wouldn't give in? But why would Hikaru be angry that his brother wouldn't play with him when Hikaru didn't even like Kaoru like that? Hikaru liked him as a brother.

Right?

The boys sat with their parents, sighing and groaning.

For some odd reason, Hikaru couldn't keep his eyes off of Kaoru.

What's wrong with me? Hikaru thought. Why did I get so freaked out about that experimental kiss we shared last week? Kaoru just asked for it so I gave it to him, simple as that. So why did I freak out like that? School's out now, but I still can't think straight. Maybe school was better, it kept my mind off of things.

"Hikaru and Kaoru," Mrs. Hitachiin's voice sounded loudly as she sat on the couch opposite to the one the twins were on. "We're here for two reasons right now, do you have a clue of what they're both on?"

"The way I can't keep my hands off of Kaoru?" Hikaru thought of saying. He shook his head and replied, "The family business?"

Mr. and Mrs. Hitachiin looked shocked, and when Hikaru looked at Kaoru, he noticed Kaoru's emotions were mixed with annoyance and shock themselves. Hikaru looked back at his parents and they nodded.

"This summer, we're going to work on it. This brings us to reason number two, we've heard that you two have been bugging eachother a lot lately," Mrs. Hitachiin replied, she seemed to be hiding something from the twins. "So Kaoru's coming with me this summer to work on fashion while you are going with your father to learn about electronics."

"What?" Hikaru questioned out loud. "Bugging eachother? What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"It's his fault," Kaoru spoke out, then he stood up and walked out of the room and left the house.

Bugging him? What's that mean? The way I can't not touch him? Hikaru wondered. Then this is all my fault.

The parents sighed and held the others hands. Hikaru noticed it and he felt like crying again.

I wish Kaoru was here again, like he used to be, when I could bug him. When our feelings didn't matter.

Kaoru stood with his mother, she was saying goodbye to Hikaru. Kaoru refused to look at Hikaru, he gave off an aura of severe anger.

"I hate you," Hikaru was afraid Kaoru would say.

Hikaru walked over and gave Kaoru a hug, and Kaoru had to try his best not to break down and cry.

"I-I'll miss you," Hikaru finally admitted.

"No you won't," Kaoru tried not to cry. "You won't. You-"

"I will," Hikaru objected and gave Kaoru a squeeze. "I really will miss you."

Kaoru trembled again and Hikaru asked if they could be alone. They shared a gaze and finally nodded and left Hikaru alone with Kaoru, still in their embrace.

"Hikaru?" Kaoru choked.

"Yes?" Hikaru whispered into Kaoru's ear. Kaoru finally broke down.

"Have you really just been playing with me? Because it hurts," Kaoru sobbed deeper and deeper and nuzzled his head into Hikaru's shoulder. "It really hurts."

"I love you, Kaoru," Hikaru finally admitted.

Kaoru's eyes widened and he tried to hug Hikaru tighter but Hikaru let go and walked away.

"I wanted to tell you that before you left," Hikaru replied as he walked away. "See you this fall."

Kaoru sent many letters to Hikaru. So many, that Kaoru wasn't sure if Hikaru got any when he'd gotten no replies.

But Hikaru got them; he got every last one of them.

Finally, Kaoru got a letter back.

Dear Kaoru,

I'm touched that you care enough to send these millions of letters, but please stop. I meant what I've said and I've thought about it. I really do love you as more than a brother.

That's why I ask you to stop sending letters, I can't take anymore of it. I'm sure you can't take writing anymore either. I love you Kaoru, but we just can't be together.

Lots of Love,

Hikaru Hitachiin

P.S. Tell Haruhi I think I love her.

Kaoru had smiled and closed his eyes and cried for long hours after that. His mother couldn't calm him no matter how hard she tried. She asked him what was wrong after three hours of trying to soothe him in his crying spasms.

"I love him, mommy," Kaoru finally answered, sobbing deeply. "And he loves Haruhi!"

His mother pulled him close and stroked his hair, holding him in a hug. Kaoru cried to her for more long and unbearable hours.

Kaoru reread the letter he'd written back. A letter he'd never send.

Dear Hikaru, or anyone who ever reads this,

I'm touched that you love me enough to send me one measly letter. I'm touched that you'd even think of me while you're off learning about electronics. Well, now you have a choice, you can take after dad or mom. Because I choose neither. I don't want any of this. I love you and you love Haruhi. I can't take that, because I've noticed that she looks at me, too. She looks at Tamaki, too. In the end, she's just going to break your heart because you'll find out that you're not the only person she's loved.

Everything I've ever owned, is still yours Hikaru. My heart is still yours, and my soul is still yours.

I'm so Sorry,

Kaoru Hitachiin

Kaoru smiled as he realized he liked his letter. He loved his letter, and on the front of the folded paper he wrote large and elegantly the name of the one he loved. He cried over it and finally laid it on his desk. He walked over to the pill bottle he'd smuggled from his mom when she wasn't looking. He opened it and swallowed the whole dosage.

"I'm such an idiot," Kaoru cried and laughed as he realized he didn't want to die. He lay on his bed, his muscles and organs barely functioning. "I'm so sorry, Hikaru."

Kaoru rolled over and stared out the window.

"I don't want to die until I know he loves me."

Kaoru sobbed and closed his eyes.

"Why? Why did I do that?" Kaoru sobbed to himself. Some sense finally hit him. "MOMMY!"

Kaoru thrashed and tried to sit up, his muscles feeling like they've collapsed.

"MOMMY!" Kaoru cried. "MOMMY!"

Mrs. Hitachiin burst through the door and stared at her sobbing son who couldn't even move.

"Mommy," Kaoru sobbed pitifully. "Mommy, mommy."

She dashed over and looked him over.

"What's wrong?" She finally sobbed herself.

"Mommy" Kaoru cried again.

"I don't know how to help if I don't know what's wrong!"

"Mommy," Kaoru closed his eyes and whined and cried. His mother's eyes finally wandered to the pill bottle and she shot up and carried Kaoru off with her.

"Thank god there's a hospital across the street," She scowled. "Thank god I thought we might somehow need it."

"M..." Kaoru tried to whisper.

"What's wrong?" His mother asked as the door to the hospital opened.

"Mommy," Kaoru whispered again.

"What?" She cried as she ran and looked for a nurse.

"Don't let me go," Kaoru tried to cry. "I don't want to die."

Hikaru smiled and read over Kaoru's newest letter.

"'I don't want to die,'" Hikaru read out loud. He laughed and showed the letter that Kaoru and their mom had written together. "Can I go see him, dad?"

He laughed and shook his head.

"No, you can go be with him, it was our fault for trying to pull you two apart," Their dad laughed. "In fact, Kaoru will probably live if his twin brother is right by his side."

"He's going to live anyway!" Hikaru snapped defensively. Hikaru blushed and looked away.

He smiled and thought of his loving brother's face, in pain.

"I don't want to die," Hikaru agreed, nodding his head as he stared out the window of the limousine at the hospital. He opened the door before the limo had even decreased speed to ten miles per hour. "Kaoru!"

Hikaru ran past all the nurses and dashed into Kaoru's room and collapsed next to him and held his hand.

"Kaoru!" Hikaru gasped.

"H-how did you find me?" Kaoru wondered curiously.

Hikaru smiled and thought of their twinly bond. "A little birdy told me."

Kaoru laughed and grinned largely at his brother even though they both knew it was hurting like hell.

"You know what, Hikaru?"

Their father and mother were now hugging eachother and stared at the twins while they still hugged. The escort nurse watched the twins curiously as well.

"What is it, Kaoru?"

"This-this-"

"Yes?"

Kaoru smiled maliciously and mouthed, "This is all your fault."