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"I have to go now Bella. Let's talk another time okay?" He looked down at me with a small smile on his face.

"Okay." I smiled weakly back at him.

Chapter Seven

Premonition

I was stumbling back through the trees, making my way back to the edge of La Push. I couldn't believe I'd made it all the way there to Jake with out falling. Alice was right when she told me I wouldn't fall at all tonight. I sighed. I didn't know what I was going to do. I couldn't put my new family or Jake and the rest of the pack at risk for my own happiness. I had to tell myself to focus on what really matters, Edward's safety. I could die a million horrible deaths, but as long as I knew Edward would be okay none of it would matter.

I finally reached the rocks where I found Jake when the phone in my hand started vibrating. It was Edward. He must have been worried.

"Hello." I sighed warily into the phone.

"Bella are you and that mutt still talking?"

"Be nice, Edward. No we are not. Come get me?"

"I'm already almost there."

With that I saw the cars headlights. I walked over to his silver Volvo and slid in. Before we drove off, he took my hand up to his face and kissed it; I could feel the heat from his kiss. He placed his hand on mine and started the car. We were back to the Cullens in a flash.

Everyone sat in the living room waiting to see what I had to say. Even Rosalie was there. Edward sat on a couch and pulled me into his lap. I noticed Emmett looking at me and laughing; I blushed remembering how Emmett had walked in on us earlier. Edward scowled and threw a pillow at Emmett; it must have been something he was thinking.

"Bella, what happened?" Carlisle was the first to speak his voice was careful and I could hear the worry straining it.

"Nothing really. They accept the engagement…" Edward scowled at the word accept.

"We don't have to ask permission to be engaged! I don't care if they accept it or not!" He was clearly furious.

"Edward, wait for me to finish." I placed my finger on his lips before continuing, "I didn't get a chance to tell Jake why I had to be changed. He's pretty much just sticking to the treaty; none of you can bite me." I let out a low yawn and realized how tired I was.

"Bella let's go to sleep, you're tired, we can talk about this in the morning." Edward's velvety voice was soothing as he scooped me up in his arms. Emmett found the thought of me sleeping and Edward watching amusing and he let out another laugh. I was so tired I didn't think I could blush, but I did. Edward turned to him and growled before carrying me up the stairs.

"That can't be too comfortable to sleep in. Do you want me to see if Alice has anything you can wear?"

"No, just give me one of your shirts, that's comfortable enough." I yawned again as I debated on going to the bathroom to change or stay here and do it. He sensed my confusion.

"Bella, you can change in front of me, it's not exactly something I don't remember seeing…" It felt like years since our magical evening when in reality it was only hours. I let out a low laugh and quickly changed.

I slid under the covers as Edward lay on top of them, not to freeze me. That night I had one of the worst dreams I've ever had.

I was running to the edges of La Push. I was right at the rocks where Edward had dropped me off at. I kept running searching for Edward and I couldn't find him. I was looking for him. I had to tell him that I loved him. I was in so much pain. My heart was yearning for Edward and my body felt as if it was burning and freezing at the same time. I could feel warm blood pouring out of my stomach. I froze when I saw what was in front of me. The Cullens, everyone besides Edward, was fighting the werewolves, all of them except Jake. I turned towards my other direction and then I saw Jane and Alec smiling as they sauntered forward to me. I realized then, I was being hunted by them and the blood coming from my stomach was a bite. I had started the war and it was useless I was going to be finished off by them anyways. I realized the eternity I wanted with Edward would never happen, me being changed would be pointless. The Cullens were getting hurt and so were the wolves and it was all for nothing.

I woke up to find a note beside me.

Mrs. Bella Cullen,

I went hunting with Alice. I'll be back later. Charlie thinks you are out shopping with Alice. You should probably get some more sleep. I told Emmett to cook you some breakfast.

I'll see you when I get home.

Mr. Edward Cullen

I smiled at my new last name. I had a lot on my mind and that note didn't help. It meant I didn't have much time to myself. That dream was just a dream. Right? I had to think this all through. I couldn't hurt Edward. I couldn't hurt Jake like that. I had to think about the greatest good for the greatest amount of people, utilitarianism. I couldn't let my happiness out weigh Edward and Jake's safety.

Who was I kidding, I wasn't Alice, and I didn't know what my future held. I couldn't know that that would happen anymore than I could know that it wouldn't. I couldn't help, but feel helpless. What would I do? I didn't want to be the cause of a war all for nothing. I didn't want Edward and Jake to end up hurt, but then again, they weren't there in my dream. I sighed trying to sort all of this out.

What could I do to actually stop that from happening? Wait shouldn't I be aware that it was actually going to happen? It felt too real for it not to happen though. It was like my dream of Edward and Jake, it was like the dreams I had of them being mythical creatures instead of mortals, and that turned out to be true so couldn't this dream turn out the same way? I couldn't just sit here forever, so I got out of bed and jumped in the shower.

I let the hot water pour over my aching tired muscles. I felt so weak. That dream kept replaying in my mind over and over again. I could just simply go to the Volturi myself. I could just tell them to kill me and get it over with and then Edward, the Cullens, Jake and all the other wolves would be fine. It seemed so simple to sacrifice my life for theirs. I had to quit thinking like this; it was all just a dream! I'm overreacting.

It wasn't until I got out of the shower that I realized I didn't have anything to change into! What was I going to do?! I saw something on the bathroom mirror and it was another note from Alice this time, saying that clothes for me would be in Edward's bottom drawer. I was about to get dressed as Emmett came into the room.

"Bella." Emmett smiled slyly as he sat on the edge of the bed.

"Hey Emmett." I remembered I was in a towel and blushed.

He chuckled softly and said, "I've got breakfast on the table when you're ready. So Bella… since when did you start wearing… red?"

"Emmett!" I was so embarrassed! I could feel my face redden.

"Relax red one! That time I meant your face… anyways breakfast is downstairs when you're ready… but seriously is that what you wear when Edward watches you sleep?"

"Emmett!" I groaned again and he chuckled as he left the room.

Could I really leave this family, the family that I loved because of a silly little dream? I didn't even know if this dream would actually happen. I opened the dresser drawer to find some Victoria Secrets sweats! I hated that Alice had to spend money on me, but I did need some new sweats and these were actually cute. I had to admit I was getting used to Alice and her shopping sprees. I dressed quickly and went downstairs to eat breakfast.

I gasped as I looked at the table. There were at least twenty different plates of food; I saw crepes, eggs, bacon, sausage, home fries, blintzes, and every kind of pancake ranging from plain pancakes to banana nut pancakes.

"I was watching a cooking show and I didn't know what you wanted!" boasted a grinning Emmett.

"Thanks. You could have just stuck with a bowl of cereal you know? You didn't have to go through all this trouble." He ruffled my hair like a big brother would do.

"If you would have seen Edwards glare at me this morning, you would know that I did have to go through all this trouble." He giggled.

I looked at the table again and I realized then that there was no way I could give up my family over a dream!

I sat down at the table debating over what it was I wanted to eat. I had never had so many options before. I decided I would stick with eggs, just in case Emmett couldn't cook. I was just getting done with my food when Alice and Edward came in.

Edward looked at the table filled with food and laughed. He must have known this was Emmett's way of making up for making fun of us the night before. He came up to me and kissed my forehead. Alice smiled at me.

"I knew you'd like the sweats, now you can throw out your old ones." She made a disgusting sound at my old pajamas. I smiled at her half heartedly and thanked her for my new sweats.

"Okay, so what exactly am I going to do with all this food? I love Emmett and his cooking's not bad, but I can't exactly eat all of this…"

"Hmm… well Emmett can take care of it. Technically it is his mess." Edward picked me up and carried me upstairs and we lay back down in our newly acquired bed. We were just laying there staring at each other.

"When do you want to start working on wedding plans?" He asked me.

"Hmm… I don't know. Should we set a date first?" I smiled at the thought. To think that I was actually considering leaving over a dream! I laughed at myself quietly.

"What's so funny?" Edward looked confused and frustrated.

"Nothing." I giggled out.

"You know, I keep thinking that I'll get used to not knowing what's going on in your head, but everyday it just drives me more insane than the last."

"That's how it is for everyone all the time, you know." I smirked.

"Bellaaa" he whined.

"You don't always have to know everything I'm thinking."

Instead of whining he tried a new approach and began to lightly kiss my lips.

"Bella," kiss on my neck, "you really want to tell me," kiss going on to my collar bones, "what it is you are thinking." And then he kissed my lips once more and I was enveloped in his passionate kiss. I refused to give in so easily.

"I," low moan, "don't really," another moan, "think I want to tell you anything."

He stopped kissing me now and a sly smile quickly formed across his perfect face. "Really now?"

"Yes." I responded more coherently. He was straddling me now, lifting up the hem of my shirt kissing my hipbones causing me to let out a shiver and another low moan.

He began lifting my shirt up more and he delicately kissed each new spot of exposed skin, while asking the same question in between kisses. I continued to respond with shorter answers in between moans. He was right up to my bra, when Emmett busted through the door, letting out another whistle.

Edward turned and glared at him. Through clenched teeth he glared out, "What do you need!? Why don't you knock!!?"

Emmett's eyes were fixated on my exposed skin while he spoke, "Because it's a better view if I don't knock," he winked at me causing Edward to throw a pillow at him before he began again, "Bella, that dog's on the phone says it's important." Edward growled either from Emmett's mind or from the fact Jake was calling. Edward slipped off of me and handed me a cordless phone.

"Hello?"

"Bells!"

"Jake!"

"You're umm…still human right?"

"Yes." I sighed out.

"Okay I was just making sure. I'll talk to you another time then." And with that he hung up the phone.

"What did he want?" Edward huffed out.

"To make sure I was still human."

"What would he have done if you weren't!? That damn dog needs to mind his own business!" Edward was growling.

"Edward Cullen! That 'damn dog' is one of my best friends! You will be nice to him! And quit calling him that!" I yelled at him.

"I'm sorry Bella, but he's getting in the way of everything!"

"Edward, may I remind you, that you don't even want me turned in the first place?"

"So now you don't want to be turned?!" Edward had a hopeful smile on his face.

"Of course I want to be turned; I'm just trying to let you know that you and Jacob have more in common than you think." He cringed at the thought of having something in common with Jacob.

"Edward, please for me, be civil about the whole Jacob thing?" I pleaded. He sighed.

"Bella I don't think I can." I quickly followed his approach and straddled him. I began lifting up his shirt and in between kisses I said, "I think you can"

"Fine. I'll try my best, but only because I love you, not because I like him." Edward finally sighed in defeat after hours of "arguing". He gently pulled me back up to his face. "I think we should get married around Christmas time." He said as he lightly kissed me.

"Why around then?!"

"Well, we'd be out for Christmas break, giving us time to go away for our honeymoon and giving us time to change you." I smiled at that thought. It would only be a couple of more weeks until Christmas vacation was here.

"I don't even know how big I want my wedding." I hadn't even begun to think of all the details.

"Well I'm sure Charlie, Renee, Phil, and maybe even Jacob Black would like to see you walk down the altar." I smiled at the fact that he had included Jacob. I was unsure of how the wedding would go down with both of them in the same room for hours of a ceremony.

"We should make the ceremony short."

"We can do whatever you want. You could have a five day ceremony for all I care just as long as we get to say 'I do'"

"I love you." I kissed him sending waves of heat and impassion through my skin.

"I love you too." He whispered into my ear. I could feel the passion between us rise as his cool and sweet breath reached my face. I quickly pulled myself over him unbuttoning his pants as Alice walked in.

"Whoa!" she sounded surprised. "Umm… sorry to interrupt you two… but it's time for Bella to go back home, it's eight and she has school tomorrow…"

"Doesn't anyone know how to knock?" Edward snarled.

"I said sorry… I honestly didn't see that happening!" She quickly left. I was blushing ferociously.

"I guess I should go back home." I sighed. I never wanted to go back home, but then again, at least there Charlie never caught me and Edward in these compromising positions. I blushed at the thought of Charlie ever catching Edward and me.

"I suppose so. I'll be back though, at exactly nine."

The ride there was silent. All I wanted to do was throw him in the back seat of his silver Volvo. There was a strong electricity between us. It was the most lustful sort or attraction there had ever been between us. I had to keep restraining myself. We were finally at my house. He leaned over and kissed me, we were overstepping his boundaries on our chaste kiss, but I could tell he had given in just as much as I had. He had finally regained control and gently pushed me back.

"Charlie's waiting. I'll be back promptly at nine." I got out of the car; I staggered my way to the front door.

I made it without falling until I tripped over the rug and Charlie caught my hand before I fell.

"I was wondering when you'd get home. I ordered some pizza if you're hungry." I sat at the table. We were eating in silence.

"Are you sure you want to marry that boy?" Charlie asked quietly. I could tell this wasn't a conversation he wanted to have.

"Of course. I love Edward, more than anything in this world."

"He left before and I don't want to see you hurt again."

"I thought Edward talked to you about all of this? We love each other dad. We truly do, he wouldn't have asked me to marry him, if he didn't love me and I wouldn't have said yes if I didn't love him."

"What about Jacob? Where does he fit into all of this?" I swallowed hard. I couldn't believe he had just brought up Jacob.

"Dad, Jacob and I have always been just friends. He was very aware of my love for Edward."

"He seemed upset when I told him and Billy about it."

"You should have let me tell him about it. He just doesn't get along with Edward." I was tired of this conversation already. Charlie didn't say anything else when I got up and put my dishes in the sink.

Before going up the stairs I turned to him, "We're going to have a Christmas wedding, sometime during Christmas break. Jacob will be invited, just to let you know." I turned and walked up the stairs. I got into a nice hot shower.

My dream from the night before clouded my head. All I could think about was causing a war and it was all for nothing. I tried to keep telling myself it didn't matter. It was just a silly little dream. It was just a silly little premonition, right? The hot water finally ran out. I wrapped myself up in a towel and walked back into my room.

I was looking in my drawers for some clothes when two stone cold hands wrapped around my waist. I turned towards him and kissed him. I blushed realizing I was just in a towel. He chuckled softly. "Alice wanted me to bring you some more clothes for you to change into." He held out a bag.

I laughed quietly, "She really hates my sweats!" I looked into the bag to find some silk pajama pants with matching silk tank tops, along with some more thongs and bras, I blushed.

"What's in here?" He asked curious. I held the bag away from him and dropped my towel as I pulled out a thong and its matching bra. He stood there motion less an entropy expression on his face. I pulled out the blue silk starry pajama bottoms and its tank top. The tank top left an inch or two of exposed skin; my hip bones were sticking out. I combed through my hair and Edward still stood there staring at me.

"What? Does my hair look funny or something?" I whispered. He slowly walked up to me and touched my face.

"You are so beautiful." He kissed my forehead and then my lips as he carried me to the bed. He placed me underneath the covers while he went to lie down beside me on top of the covers holding me close to him. He sang my lullaby until I fell asleep.

I had the same dream again that night.

I was running to the edges of La Push. I was right at the rocks where Edward had dropped me off at. I kept running searching for Edward and I couldn't find him. I was looking for him. I had to tell him that I loved him. I was in so much pain. My heart was yearning for Edward and my body felt as if it was burning and freezing at the same time. I could feel warm blood pouring out of my stomach. I froze when I saw what was in front of me. The Cullens, everyone besides Edward, was fighting the werewolves, all of them except Jake. I turned towards my other direction and then I saw Jane and Alec smiling as they sauntered forward to me. I realized then, I was being hunted by them and the blood coming from my stomach was a bite. I had started the war and it was useless I was going to be finished off by them anyways. I realized the eternity I wanted with Edward would never happen; me being changed would be pointless. The Cullens were getting hurt and so were the wolves and it was all for nothing.

I woke up next to a smiling Edward who was already dressed and ready for school.

"What time is it?!" I asked panicked.

"Relax. It's six. You woke up early."

I let out a sigh of relief. Edward went to touch his lips to mine, I held out my finger to his lips, "Human moment is necessary when I first wake up." He sighed reluctantly and I got out of the bed and brushed my teeth. I came back and snuggled up to him. "Is Charlie gone?" I asked.

"Yes, he left about an hour ago." I smiled and snuggled up closer to him. We had an extra hour of snuggling in my bed, which is what I loved to do. I'd opt to lying in bed all day with him over going anywhere in the world.

"I wish it could be this way forever."

"It will be." I smiled at the thought. My dream popped back into my head. Could I really let them start a war if I'd end up being killed anyways? I couldn't be that selfish. I couldn't leave Edward though. I just couldn't do it. I decided it was time to get ready for school; I couldn't have any more idle thoughts.

"Bella are you okay?" He asked as I was looking for jeans.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I suddenly got very nervous, what if he knew I was thinking about leaving him?

"I don't know, you just seem tense…"his voice trailed off I could tell he was worried about me.

"I'm fine; I'm just excited about the wedding." I lied to him. I was surprised at how easy it was and how real it sounded.

"Oh okay. Well let me help you get dressed." He jumped out of the bed and slowly took off my pajama bottoms. If staying here would hurt him, could I do that?

"Raise your arms." He was pulling at my shirt, so I raised my arms over my head. "If it was just me and you, I'd say you should wear this to school." He was pointing at my new bra and panties. I blushed at let out a giggle. I turned from him and picked up a blue sweater and my favorite jeans.

The next couple of weeks were a giant blur, the only thing I could tell you about them were that my dream was showing up every night. The whole time Alice was helping me with the wedding all I was thinking about was leaving him.

"Bella is there any reason that you would leave my brother?" she asked me one day while we were looking at wedding dresses.

"Umm… no. Why do you ask?"

"I keep getting a vision of you leaving and then I'll get one where you stay. Are you thinking of going somewhere?"

"Alice, I…" what was I going to say to her about this. "I don't ever want to leave your brother." That was the only half truth that I could think of.

"Hmm…"

"What happens in your vision though?" If she saw me stay then maybe she could see the Volturi killing me even though I was changed or she wouldn't see that at all and it would prove that it was all just a silly little premonition.

"I just see you at the altar about to say 'I do' but then you tell him you're leaving, you tell him that you can't marry him and that you don't love him and you leave. Or I see you two at the altar and you say your 'I do' and marry him. You're allowed to have cold feet Bella…"

"Trust me Alice, the last thing I have is cold feet. The thought of being with Edward forever is all that I want. I yearn for it. I love him so much, you saw me after he left me, I couldn't go through with that." Or could I? Maybe I should just tell him I didn't love him at the altar, if leaving would be the right thing to do, then I should do it. I couldn't believe that I was seriously thinking of leaving him at the altar. I hung my head and turned to another dress.

"This is the one you're going to get." Alice said matter-of-factly. I looked at the dress she pointed to and it was beautiful.

It was a white corset dress. Silk satin and silk tulle fully boned corset covered with draped silk chiffon and embellished with crystals. Silk chiffon and silk tulle multi-tiered full skirt. Crystal belt right at the bottom of the corset. I looked at the price and gasped it was $1,200.

"I can't afford this." I sighed.

"Yes you can!" Alice said as she pulled out her credit card.

"I can't let you buy me my wedding dress!"

"Sweetheart you're marrying into the family, what's ours is yours, what's yours is ours and besides you are going to let me buy it for you." I sighed. It was moments like this that Alice's gift of seeing the future seemed to be more of a pain in the ass than an actual gift.

"Okay." I sighed in defeat. I immediately felt guilty. If I left Edward at the altar then her buying this dress was just a waste of money. I groaned. I hated this stupid dream! We walked out of the bridal store and went to talk to Edward about locations.

"We could do it in a nice big church." Edward suggested.

"You mean you won't burst into flames if you go into a church?" I giggled.

"Ha ha, very funny Bella, be serious we only have a couple of weeks until winter break."

"I say the meadow, it's a beautiful location, and it is where you proposed."

"Well… if you want it there then okay." He kissed my forehead. "So did you get a dress?" He asked looking towards Alice.

"Yes and quit trying to see what my dress looks like! You'll have to wait!" It was getting late and Edward took me home.

"You know I love you Bella. I will always love you. I don't want to pressure you into anything, if you don't want to get married so soon, we can wait." Edward was staring at me incredulously.

"Edward. I love you too. I will always love you. You're the only one I want, ever. I am perfectly content with marrying you right now. I don't need a ring or a dress, I don't need the beautiful location, the friends or the family, all I need is you." I was crying. He wiped my tears and pulled me to him. He was holding me for a while.

"You better go inside; Charlie's waiting up for you. He'll want to see your dress."

"You better not peek, its bad luck!"

I walked up to see Charlie. I showed him my dress and then got ready for bed. I went to lie down. Soon after I was laying Edward snuggled right up next to me and sung me to sleep. I had the dream again and I couldn't fight it off any longer, I had to leave him.

Here is the link to her wedding dress

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