Dad,
I remember this one Billy Joel song that Mom liked. She used to sing it at the top of her lungs as she'd dance around the living room when I was younger. You used to sing it to Liz when she was little. It helped calm her and made her go to bed. Vienna. Remember it? Well, I've been thinking a lot about that song lately. It's the only song I really know the words to. Other than the McDonalds menu song, but that's another story. Anyway, in Vienna, there is this one line that says, "you know that when the truth is told you can get what you want or you can just get old." Well, unfortunately, I'm getting kind of old. But I'm sick of just getting old. I'm sick of flipping burgers, looking at myself in the mirror and seeing flannel and a stubble chin. So, I'm gonna tell you all about what I want. Because I always talked to you before I did anything major. I'm not gonna stop now.
Her name is Lorelai. Lorelai Victoria Gilmore. And I want her. I want her so bad. You know how Mom used to give me that whole line about how someday I'd meet someone that I would want to spend the rest of my life with? Well, I met her. Lorelai. She drives me nuts. All the time. She comes into the diner and makes fun of me constantly. She mocks me like it's her job. She confuses me. All the time. She gets upset at the silliest things. She doesn't eat right. She dresses a little… unconventional sometimes. She never knows when to shut her mouth. Sometimes, she rambles for so long that I don't even know what's important anymore. She can talk about Mick Jagger longer than anyone else on this planet. Oh, and she's got these friends. They're cute and nice and she loves them, but the whole 'girl time' thing gets on my nerves every now and then. Oh, and sometimes she doesn't brush her hair. That's all.
So, she's amazing. Because even with all of this stuff that gets on my nerves about her, she still made me fall for her. I know, me falling for someone. You and St. Peter are up there having a big laugh about that one, huh? Okay, so this Lorelai girl. She's on my mind constantly. She's the first girl in the history of my life that I have genuinely been okay with not having sex with. That makes me sound horrible. And it's not that I don't want Lorelai, I do. It's just that I'm into Lorelai. I'm into her for more than the sex. I want to spend forever with her, Dad. I can't even explain why. But she captivates my attention in this way that nobody else does. She's just… beautiful. Dad, if you were here, you'd be hitting on her too. I know you always say that Mom was the only girl for you, but if you'd seen Lorelai, you'd take it back. She's just… incredible. She reminds me of all of those girls in the movies. You know? Those famous ones. Like Sally. Remember Sally? The one that had the orgasm at the lunch table? Or like Jenny? The cancer girl that thought love meant never saying you're sorry? Or that girl Allie. The one that wanted to be a bird if whatever his name was wanted to be a bird? All of those heroines in the sappy movies. I know you probably hadn't seen any of those movies. It's because you're not a sap. Neither am I. But see, that's how much I love Lorelai. I love her enough that I want to be with her, even if it means watching sappy movies. Like I said, she drives me nuts.
So anyway, Dad. I'm going to ask Lorelai to marry me. I don't have any idea how I'm going to do it. I'm not very creative, you know. But I talked to her Dad and he gave me permission… So I'm gonna do it. I bought the ring. I love her. I want to spend the rest of my life with her… But I don't know how she feels… We've never said I love you. In six years of friendship, we've never said I love you. We've hugged and kissed and talked, but never an I love you… Does that mean she doesn't love me? I don't think it does because I love her and I haven't said it. And why wouldn't someone love me? Don't answer that.
So, Dad. For a really long time, you've been my family. You and Liz, but Liz is strange. You know, she's girl strange. But now, there's Lorelai. She's that one. That one that you want to be close to no matter what. That's her. She's the one. It doesn't matter to me if she's the only one I've got in the entire world. Even if everyone else leaves, I want her to be there. I'll be okay if she's there. So, I'm going to ask you, Dad… Would you mind if she's part of our family? Can I let her in? You okay with that?
I'm scared. I'm scared she'll say no. That she'll run off because she's not where I am. She doesn't love me, you know? But I need to try. I need to ask her. And I need to hope she says yes. And I don't know what kind of power you have up there in heaven, but if you have any sort of power over who your son ends up with and how things work out in his life, I'm asking you to please use it. I don't know. Make her fall in love with me or something. I want the whole deal with her, and you know I'm not a whole deal kind of guy.
I love you Dad. I really do. And hopefully, soon, there will be a new Danes that loves you too.
Luke