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"I won't be Isabella Swan for much longer, Mr. Edward Cullen." A smile spread across his face with realization of what I just said.
Chapter Sixteen
Bella's Day
Weeks and weeks of planning passed. Edward and I had been shopping for everything together this time and it wasn't so bad. Alice was rushing us off to try to get different caterers and insisted that we couldn't just keep the old ones we had.
When winter break was over I finally got to go home to Charlie and go back to school. You'd be surprised how fast word spreads around about you, even when you don't see the people in two weeks. Everyone had heard about how I'd left Edward at the altar and they were surprised to see me with an engagement ring on my finger again. Mike was very shocked, to say the least.
I had never felt sorry for Jasper until I had to feel all the emotions of all of my peers and once. I had to block them out completely! Everyone's mind wasn't exactly great either. Guys were ogling at me every second. I had to calm Edward down from growling aloud. I even had a vision of Edward attacking Mike! I could understand it when I heard where exactly it was that he was looking. I didn't even have to fight the urge to kill any of them! I was very proud of myself.
When graduation finally came Charlie was so happy he was crying. Renée flew down and the wedding was just around the corner. We decided we wanted a "summer" wedding. There wasn't even an actual real summer, not in Forks. I was actually glad for this though, because even though brides have their own glow on the big day, it would have been a more noticeable glow for both Edward and me.
The only thing that hurt Charlie was the fact that I was going to move out with Edward. It was decided that after the wedding we were going to move to Chicago, where it would be just Edward and me! We were going to go to college over there as well. I had never been more ready for my wedding day to be over than ever! Charlie was concerned that Edward couldn't take care of us, but Carlisle and Edward both assured him we'd be just fine with out him. I told him I'd write and I'd call. It solved the problem of me getting out of Forks and I still got to have some sort of a connection with my dear old man. Renée wasn't pleased when I told her I was moving further away from her, but she reluctantly told me to be happy.
With our wedding day was just around the corner everyone was excited at the Cullen house.
"Okay so I've gotten the best caterers in the state of Washington, the bridesmaids dresses are here, Bella your new wedding dress is going to be here tomorrow, Edward no peeking!"
"Alice, none of us even eat food! We don't need the best caterers in Washington! Why do I need a new wedding dress I liked my old one!" I pouted. Alice just giggled.
"Silly Bella, you need the best for your wedding and Edward saw you in that dress it'd be bad luck!"
"He's already seen her in her birthday suit, I don't exactly think seeing her in a dress will ruin some surprise." Emmett snickered.
"Emmett!" Edward snarled. I threw the remote at him and he ducked.
"It's not about a surprise, it's about luck!" Rosalie laughed.
"We don't need luck." I whispered then I tapped my head, "thanks to Alice I already know what will happen!" I smiled. "And if things end badly, there was no prenuptial, I want half!" Edward looked at me in shock at what I just said. Only Jasper could feel that I was kidding and he busted out laughing first. It followed like a domino effect.
"I'm just glad you're finally joining the family!" Shouted a very excited Rosalie. Rose had calmed down upon my saving Edward a second time. When she saw I was turned she grew to love me just as I grew to love her. We were going to be sisters forever. I smiled at the thought of forever.
"We won't get to really spend time with her as she's up in Chicago!" Alice pouted.
"It's only a year, relax." I soothed and sent a calming wave towards her. I was getting very used to learning when to tune out of my powers and when to tune into them. The only thing that bothered me is that I couldn't figure out how to get the power I used to save Edward. I couldn't stop time for anything. I needed to learn what caused it so I could learn how to control it. Carlisle had worked with me about it for months now and nothing.
"It'll be a sad year away from our Edward and now our Bella." Whispered a sad Esme.
"Oh come on you are vampires! A year is like a half an hour to you!" I shouted trying to lighten the mood. It worked everyone laughed.
"I'm just happy that you two are going to be happy." Boasted Carlisle. Esme smiled at the thought of her Edward finally married and in love. We were all sitting around the living room smiling and laughing.
"I'm happy we're going to be married." Edward said as he kissed me.
"Bella you'd better get back to Charlie before he grounds you one last time." Alice said. I closed my eyes and I could see Charlie waiting by the door tapping his foot with anticipation. I laughed and hugged them all goodbye.
"I'll see you guys tomorrow!" I said.
"See you tomorrow too, Edward." Emmett laughed. Now that I didn't sleep anymore Edward and I both would just lay there and whisper to each other, cuddle, or hunt.
We drove to my house in silence. Edward was having wild thoughts. One week and then I'll have a Mrs. Cullen all to myself. In a house…on our own…with all of the lingerie Alice forced her to get. I smiled to myself as I felt him getting aroused by that thought. He turned to me and groaned.
"I keep forgetting that you can hear everything I think." He whined.
"Now you know how everyone else feels." I teased.
"It's not fair that I don't get to know what goes on in the mind I'm most interested in."
"Life's not fair remember?" We pulled into the drive way and I could hear Charlie bounce off the couch and stand by the door. Why was he so anxious?
Edward kissed me and handed me a box of contacts. I opened my eye and pushed the contacts in carefree, it's not like I could damage my eyes now. I checked the mirror to make sure the topaz wasn't visible and told Edward I'd see him in a few minutes and went into the house to greet my nervous dad. I sent a wave of calmness as I entered the room.
"Bella where have you been!? You're thirty minutes late!" Charlie sounded more relaxed than he wanted to.
"At the Cullens, Alice was making me go through everything for the wedding. Do you know how hard it is to pick plates? And don't even get me started on napkins and centerpieces!" I said sounding annoyed about all the details going in to make my day perfect.
"I was married once too, Bella. I want you to be careful and avoid going into the city!" he paused thinking about the fact that I was late and added, "Would it kill you to call me next time!?"
"Dad, there won't be very many next times, what's wrong?" Charlie's brow furrowed at the thought of not having more time with me.
"There's something that's killing off a bunch of kids your age. It's not like the wolf attacks we had a while back, it's different this time."
"How is it different?" I asked trying to sound scared, not much could harm me nowadays.
"They just disappear and then they turn up somewhere, with no blood." Charlie's face was white as he spoke and his voice trembled. It had to be another vampire. Victoria was the only thing that came to my mind. I could take her on if I had to. Surely I could. If I could do that to Jane and Alec…but how had I done that? I sighed and looked up at Charlie. I'll keep you safe. I vowed silently.
"I'll be extra careful. I promise." He hugged me.
"Have you eaten?" I asked trying to lighten his mood.
"You forget that I can take care of myself. Have you eaten? You look very pale Bella." I laughed silently. If he only knew about the bear I had slaughtered earlier. I comforted his concern and said good night. I went upstairs to see Edward sitting in my rocking chair. He was thinking intently about something, but he had his mind blocked from me.
"Edward what's wrong?"
"Nothing dear, nothing at all." I could feel him lying to me. I was worried about whatever it is Edward was keeping from me, but I decided that I should just let it go. He loved me and whatever he felt he should keep from me, had to be something that didn't even matter.
"I love you." I said as I went over to him and he pulled me into his lap.
"You are mine now." He whispered back.
"Not yet." I teased.
"Are you planning on leaving me again?" He whispered. I could feel pain coming from him. I pulled his chin up making him face me. I looked into his pain filled eyes and I wish I could cry.
"Edward I love you so much. I'm not ever going to leave you. I don't care what happens. I'm so sorry that I left you, you know that. If I could take it back I would. I'd rather die a thousand deaths than not be with you. Are you aware of that? Are you aware of how much I love you?" I whispered into his face. My cool breathe was hazy in front of his face.
"Are you aware of how much I love you? Bella I can't exist without you. Your love for me is—" I put my finger to his lips and kissed him passionately. I had sincerity and love wafting all around him. He had to know that there was no way I'd leave him again. I felt horrible that I had made the mistake the first time. He picked me up and carried to the bed, never breaking the kiss.
He laid me down and kissed me from my forehead down to my stomach.
"Edward, Charlie is here." I whispered. I wished Charlie would just leave. I thought to myself. Edward and I were both breathing heavily. He hesitated for a second and gave me a deep passionate kiss before laying on my right side.
"I didn't want to stop either." I uttered. "I should change into pajamas. Charlie's going to check up on me."
"I know. Let me help you pick something out." He stood up swiftly and walked over to my closet and pulled out some Victoria's Secret Sweats and came back to the bed where I was laying. "Let me help you change." He said mischievously. He smoothly took off my shirt; kissing my collar bones, breasts, and stomach, then he undid my jeans and threw them on the floor, and he kissed my hip bones and the insides of my thighs. I had to keep a moan from escaping my lips. He slipped the sweats on and put my tank top on quietly. He went into the closet just as Charlie opened my door.
"Night dad." I said as I faked a yawn. He nodded, slightly embarrassed that he was caught checking in on me and crawled into his bed.
Edward came to tuck me in and kissed me passionately.
"Edward. You doubt that I want to marry you." I said sternly. I had to settle everything before the wedding day.
"Bella, it's not that it's doubt… I can't explain it." He sighed trying to find the right words. "I don't—if you're not ready—I can wait—umm…" He bit his lower lip and I couldn't help but giggle. He looked so human it was rather adorable.
"Babe, if I wasn't ready, I wouldn't have said yes. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't have been able to save you." I whispered.
"Sometimes love isn't enough." He turned away from me. I avoided his thoughts and pulled him to face me.
"Sometimes, love is the only thing that keeps people together." I pecked him on the lips. "If you're not ready, we don't have to. I'm sure Charlie would like me to stay here longer anyways."
"NO! I'm ready!" He almost shouted. We both stopped breathing and waited to see if Charlie woke up. I could hear him turn on his other side and snore and I sighed with relief.
"Edward. I love you with every essence of my being. My life started the moment I met you. I would die for you, which I think I've proven. I can't bear to even think of you not being happy. I hate that I've caused you so much pain. I hate that you don't feel that you can trust me and if I have to spend the rest of eternity proving that to you then I will."
"Bella—stop. I left you too remember? A longer time than you even left me. I didn't even tell you the truth, I just left. But really, is this the life you want, a life away from your family, a life of hiding, a never ending hell?"
"It's a little too late to give me the "humanity is great" speech don't you think? Hell's not so bad when you have an angel with you." He kissed me then and we spent the rest of the night lying in each other's arms.
When Charlie woke up at six Edward left. Renée and Phil were supposed to be coming in today for my wedding tomorrow. I had to pick her up at the air port and show her the dress Alice had picked for her to wear. Our wedding was going to be completely different this time—besides the fact that I was actually going to say 'I do'.
I found Renée by the luggage and she was there by herself.
"Mom where's Phil?"
"Oh honey, he couldn't make it this time, he had a game." She lied. I could feel her lying and her heart accelerated. I can't believe I caught him with someone else. Stop it Renée its Bella's day. Ha. If she actually goes through with it. No, she won't, she's my daughter, and she won't marry this young. I couldn't take much more of it. All of the doubt was making my head swim. I can't believe Phil cheated. I felt so bad for her even though she was clearly underestimating my love for Edward. I sent a wave of serenity towards her. I wanted her to be happy.
"Oh well. We'll have fun with out him!" I declared.
"Dear, you look radiant! Are you pregnant? You're having sex! Are you on birth control! I better tell Charlie to buy you some condoms!" She was practically yelling if I could have I would have been beet red.
"NO NO NO! MOM! Shh… Calm down!" I sent calm to her and luckily she bought that I was still a virgin. If she only knew how much Edward and I felt the times we made love.
We drove in silence back to Charlie's. I didn't want her anywhere near a city where all those attacks were going on. I hoped I could control all of the awkwardness between her and Charlie over the night.
Alice, Rosalie, and Esme were waiting on us at the house. We were going to do fittings and tell my mother all about the wedding tomorrow. Esme was just happy to meet her new in-laws. I could feel her happiness and I couldn't help but spread the joy around.
After hours and hours of going over color schemes and themes for my big day the Cullens went home and my mother and I were left on the couch together. Charlie had called and said he was working late, really he just wanted to avoid being in the same room with my mother while she was awake.
"You really love him don't you?" she asked.
"Yes mom, I really do."
"Why'd you leave him then?" Because I thought he'd kill my best friend and die in the process, not to mention harm his (our) family.
"Because I was scared…it's hard to explain, but I just…"
"You didn't want to end up like me." She finished the thought that I'd never say aloud. "I know you love him and you won't make the mistake again." She kissed my forehead and told me to go to sleep because I had a wedding tomorrow. I sighed and went upstairs to take a shower and changed into pajamas.
I couldn't wait for tomorrow. The wedding would be completely different from the first one. My dress had more of a 1920s feel to it. We were going to get married in a church this time. I almost laughed at the thought of us bursting into flames. I had written out my vows this time and I intended on actually saying them. I hated pretending I was asleep! It was the worst time of day! I decided I'd go hunt to keep me from trying to pounce on any of the humans there and besides, eating a quick snack would take up some time. I waited until Charlie went to sleep before I exited my window and ran into the woods.
I could smell deer and elk everywhere. My mouth wasn't watering. The taste wasn't revolting, but I could only imagine how much better a human would taste. I couldn't control my thoughts of human blood when I was feeding. I could see the monster in me and though I'd never tell Edward—or anyone—I hated that monster, I hated that part of being a vampire. I sighed and continued eating the deer until my thirst was satiated. I left running faster than before and I could see the sun coming up. I let the wind rustle through my hair. The air was nice. I closed my eyes and let my other senses guide me back to the house.
I quickly went to lie back down in the bed and close my eyes. The sun was already up and blocked by the clouds. Charlie was downstairs making coffee and ogling over Renée while she slept on the couch. He was wondering about Phil and admiring her every pore, hair, curves, everything about her. He was laughing to himself about the little mumbling she did in her sleep. I'd never felt worse for Charlie. He was still in love with her after all this time. I sighed and I heard someone ring the doorbell. Alice.
She had brought all the dresses, makeup, and hair equipment. I sighed. This will be the last time for a year! I thought to myself. Trying to calm down the irritation that was growing over the fussing that Alice would be doing and how slow she'd have to go for my mothers' sake. I got up and got in the shower before she could tell me to get in. I blow dried my hair and wrapped myself up in a towel before going to meet Alice in my room. She handed me a corset and matching thong. I was beyond embarrassment when it came to her dressing me. I just sucked it up and got used to it. There was no point in resisting I'd just loose anyways.
She put a blue silk robe over me and began doing my makeup. It was very light and neutral. Then she put my hair up in a chignon. She put a white flowery clip in my hair. It looked like white rose petals on top of my head. My dress was spaghetti strapped v cut. It was lacy and there was a ribbon right under my bust and another one right in the middle of my waist. The dress then flowed out with tons of glorious ruffles. It looked gorgeous on me. I couldn't stop staring at myself.
"You look radiant!" My mother and Alice beamed. Alice took my mom's hand.
"You're turn!" My mom was shocked and I giggled. Alice sat her down and in twenty minutes she was done.
My mom's makeup was light and it only highlighted her features. Her hair was in a tight up do. Her dress was an ivory shade. It had three inch straps and was a v cut as well. The fabric swirled on her left side and came down in ruffles. Her dress was perfect.
went into the bathroom and came out in fifteen minutes. Her hair was curled under and it framed her face nicely. She wore an azalea colored dress. It was spaghetti strapped and very structured. There was a bow right under her bust line and the dress flared out perfectly.
We walked downstairs to find a stunned Charlie. He told us all how beautiful we looked. I could hear him appreciating Renée more than he let on and frowned. Alice had bought him a new suit to wear and he looked young. I smiled at him and we walked out into a white limo. Rosalie was waiting for us in the car. I'd never seen her look prettier. Her hair was gently waving to her back in the same color dress as Alice. Hers was strapless with a ribbon around her waist. She hugged me tightly and we drove to the church in silence. smiled as we pulled up into the church. Edward wasn't there yet. It was about to start raining so I rushed everyone into the church where we could wait for the service to begin. Charlie went to find Carlisle and Esme was already in the bridal waiting area.
"Bella—you look—stunning." She mouthed. I smiled. I loved my mother in law.
It wasn't long until the wedding started. Edward had never looked better. A little light was shining in through the stained glass windows. There were candles everywhere and flowers as well. Alice had over done herself. I couldn't tell you what the priest was saying. I was so distracted by the way Edward looked. I love you I mouthed. He mouthed it back and I could feel a smile tugging at my lips. Edward smiled his crooked grin. It was time for the vows. Edward spoke first.
"Isabella, I love you more than anything in this world. I thought I was fine before I met you, it was only when I was away from you, did I realize you are everything I've ever wanted, everything I searched for, you are my better half, you are my reason, you are my everything. No amount of words can express how much you mean to me, how much I love you. I never realized how empty I was—how empty the world was—until the day I met you. I love you so much and I promise to remain faithful, honest, and I promise to take care of you and cherish you forever." I wanted to cry. I was a little embarrassed my vows couldn't be that good.
"Edward, my life started the day I met you. I can't exist without you. I love you with every part of me. I am ready to spend my every moment with you. There's not a thing I wouldn't do for you. I love every minute I'm with you and I count the seconds we are apart. I have never been more ready for the twilight of my single life. You are the only man I've ever loved and you will always be the only man I ever loved. You were my first everything and I want you to be my last. I love you Edward. I promise to be honest and to care for you. I promise to be here for you through everything."
He put the ring on my finger and I placed a ring on his finger. We looked into each others eyes and kissed for the first time as husband and wife.