A long chapter to say thanks to everyone who has reviewed so far

Sam headed to the infirmary, her team were already being examined, the normal routine but they had all been unconscious so they had the more through check up, and they were sat on 3 beds next to each other 2 nurses taking it in turns to do the standard procedure

Janet walked over to her she had been separated from the team and had somehow got free, this in itself was cause for a full work up,

"Hey, you ok" she noticed the red puffy eyes, something had happened and it had to be bad to make Sam cry, noticing the head wound it didn't look too serious but it never hurt to check these things,

"Let's go somewhere a little more private," she took Sam's hand and led her to her office, locking the door and drawing the blinds to give them total privacy, Sam sat on the small couch bringing her knees up to her chest and looking at Janet with a miserable look that made Janet's heart bleed,

"Sam what's wrong?" she asked more concerned than ever

"Janet, it's everything, everything is wrong"

She burst into tears sobbing uncontrollably Janet sat down next to her drew her into a hug they stood there for ages, until Sam stopped crying

"Thanks"

"It's okay, want to tell me what that was about?"

Shaking her head she glanced at the clock, there was a knock at the door, Janet stood up and unlocked it General Hammond stood there wearing an apologetic smile, Sam turned away plain ignoring him, Janet looked puzzled but stood to attention

"Sir" she questioned,

"We need to debrief, I'm sorry doctor but Major Carter needs to hear these things, your welcome to come and join us"

"Well I need to check her over first" Janet protested

"That can wait this is more important"

He left, they followed him upstairs, Janet tried to get to talk on the way but she refused, blanking everyone

Janet received puzzled looks from the rest of Sg1 hoping she could give them some insight but she shrugged, so they sat in silence waiting for the General to begin,

He entered Janet and Jack stood up, Sam remained sitting down, ignoring him, Janet nudged her, but she ignored it, she was too angry to even look at him

"Please be seated," Hammond ignored Sam; he knew she was justifiably upset and ignored itt

"Ok folks, what can you tell me about P98-876"

"Well, we arrived, Carter took point, we were walking for about 15 minutes and Carter signalled for us all to get down, we stayed down before being attacked by hostiles, I was knocked unconscious as was Daniel and Teal'c, and I'm not sure about Carter" Jack paused carefully regarding Sam, waiting for her to take over

"I wasn't" she paused. Thinking of how to phase it, then she continued her voice in a monotone, descriptive, like it hadn't been her or she was reading from a book

"I was grabbed from behind and forced to walk into town, the others were loaded into a cart and carried down by ox, as they were of no interest to the Gould in charge, they were imprisoned in a cell, I was taken to meet the ruling Gould, with the head of Ibis"

"That's the God with the head of Thot, thoth, tahuti or tehuti. He's a good all-rounder for Arts, Science, Music, Astronomy, Speech and Letters isn't it" Daniel interrupted

"Yes but her latest host was female," Sam said finally letting her cool blue eyes meet Hammonds showing him the pain and anger she felt inside, the rest of her was rigid, her hands clenched on the table

"I think I can take it from here, Major" Hammond interrupted she glared at him again for interrupting before turning away, Janet shot Jack a concerned look,

"Several years ago a woman was abducted from a military base, in Washington, it was witnessed by several high up personal, including me, it was believed best to cover it up, and the woman's family were told she died in a car crash, luckily the husband was military and understood the need for it to classified her 2 children lived there live thinking she was dead"

"But she wasn't was she Sir" Sam looked at him anger boiling over, she broke his gaze, standing up and walking to the star map, idly wondering where her mother was now, the room was silent as they waited for Sam to continue,

"What they didn't expect was for the woman's daughter to go off world and meet her, but this time as a host" Sam continued, it clicked for the rest of the room, Daniel the peaceful negotiator put it into words

"Sam, you mean..." Sam stopped him, furiously walking back up to the table and slamming a fist down

"Yes, my mum's not dead, in fact she very much alive living in hell and I didn't know he didn't tell me not even when they knew" she yelled directing it at Hammond

"I'm so sorry," Daniel apologised feeling for her knowing what she was going through from Share, except he'd always known, Sam had had the pain of her mum dying then seeing her again, but her mum was a host a sworn enemy Sam knew what that was like to be trapped in your own body, watching yourself hurt the ones you love, it made it worse

"Why? You didn't know as well did you, all those years, and I didn't even know to look for her," her voice was under control only a slight wavering indicating the inner anger, she was sending daggers at Hammond, her arms were crossed in a defensive position daring anyone to touch her

"So what happened?" Jack asked breaking the tension

"Huh, oh you mean back there, nothing," Sam refused to look at anyone, daring someone to call her bluff

"It's Ok I understand," Hammond stood up taking a step forwards, Sam moved away the thought of him touching her left her leaving her feeling sick

"Due to conflicting emotions and interests, I suggest you get debriefed by Colonel O'Neill and Dr Frasier, Daniel, Teal'c you can attend at Major Carters wish"

Sam was left, feeling better now he'd gone she continued, no emotion in her voice like she had shut down any emotions

"Anyway I was taken to meet Thoth, like Daniel mentioned, she is the master of time, mathematics, astronomy, reading, writing, arithmetic, she had a mask on but she knew it was me, I was pushed in, made to kneel down, she took her mask off, I was speechless, she taunted me about my mum, about how glad she had been to leave me and Mark, then she insisted that I stay, it gave her ammunition against her host, every time mum tried to resist, I was punished with the hand device and occasionally I was hit, it went on for about 3 hours, mum was able to briefly overpower the Gould in her which gave me time to escape" Sam wiped away the tear the only show of emotion she had let escape, her military mask was in place as she continued making it impossible to read

"They was going to make me a Gould too, mum took total control, she couldn't bear what had happened to her to happen to me I shot her with my 9mil, then left, the guards believed I was a Gould especially as they sensed Naquidia, my allegiance to Thoth, it wouldn't of occurred to them that I wasn't true, as they didn't even know she was dead," Sam described shooting her mum as fact, the others exchanged worried glances, shooting someone you loved was hard, and Sam wasn't handling it, she had one emotional outburst nothing else

"Tell me she is still dead" Jack asked looking at Carter's face he knew she wasn't, he wasn't surprised,

"They had a sarcoughigus" Sam muttered knowing her mum would have been found and revived by now, and not knowing if she was grateful or not, her mum could have been freed but Sam hadn't been able to do that, settling for the leg, even more guilt overwhelmed her, she could shoot her mum but not her psycho ex-fiance even though he asked her to

"Carter you didn't"

"Sir, she's my mum!" Sam protested being snapped out of her thoughts

"Carter, she a Gould"

"No Sir, She may be at the moment but she won't be soon" Sam vowed

"Huh"

"I'm going back for her" Sam stood up looking out the window examining the stargate as if contemplating how

"Oh no your not" they all protested in unison, then looked at each other sheepishly kind of worried how similar they were working and each wondering if they spent to much time together,

Sam ignored them the gate was activating she could hear the sirens, warning of an incoming traveller, it was Sg12 checking in, they were on a dig off world

"Maybe we should continue this later, Sam I want to examine you, you haven't been cleared yet"

Sam turned seeing the concern in her friend's eyes she agreed, and followed her down to the infirmary

Sitting on the bed she took off her jacket so Janet could get the blood sample,

"So you said you were hurt"

Sam sighed, pulling off her t-shirt; she saw the look of horror cross her face,

"Mum fought against the Snake a lot" Sam said pride reflecting in her voice, ignoring her friends concern,